All I want to do is toke!!! Help!!!
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All I want to do is toke!!! Help!!!
I'm not going to but I'm dying!!!
My AV convinced me twice today but I'm staying strong. This is so hard!!!
My husbands isn't being supportive at all. He already lost his drinking buddy, now he is losing his pothead besty. Yesterday he again said "I can't have a drink with my wife and now I can't smoke?!?". I told him that I have never asked him to quit anything for me. He proceeded to again tell me to "just do a little bit". Arghhh!!! So frustrating to live with someone who doesn't get it at all. He smoked in front of me and for some reason it calmed me down but then I got angry because I felt like he was doing it to temp me.
I'm playing the tape, keeping my eye on the price. I'm still a bit nauseous but I'm feeling better. I don't want to go back to that. I don't want to smell like weed, I don't want to keep wasting money on it. I love it so much and I appreciate its qualities but I think that it has ran its course with me.
Alcohol was so much easier for me. This is soooo hard! I have been irritable and annoyed all day. It's all I can think about. I'm trying to be self aware and chill but I'm having a hard time. It was easy with booze because of all the destruction it caused in my life. Nothing like that has happened to me with marijuana so my AV has more to go on to convince me.
Help!!! I need support. I have none at home. This is my fourth day and I don't want to start over. For those who think that it's not addictive please look at me. It's all I'm thinking about and it has only been 4 days!!!
My AV convinced me twice today but I'm staying strong. This is so hard!!!
My husbands isn't being supportive at all. He already lost his drinking buddy, now he is losing his pothead besty. Yesterday he again said "I can't have a drink with my wife and now I can't smoke?!?". I told him that I have never asked him to quit anything for me. He proceeded to again tell me to "just do a little bit". Arghhh!!! So frustrating to live with someone who doesn't get it at all. He smoked in front of me and for some reason it calmed me down but then I got angry because I felt like he was doing it to temp me.
I'm playing the tape, keeping my eye on the price. I'm still a bit nauseous but I'm feeling better. I don't want to go back to that. I don't want to smell like weed, I don't want to keep wasting money on it. I love it so much and I appreciate its qualities but I think that it has ran its course with me.
Alcohol was so much easier for me. This is soooo hard! I have been irritable and annoyed all day. It's all I can think about. I'm trying to be self aware and chill but I'm having a hard time. It was easy with booze because of all the destruction it caused in my life. Nothing like that has happened to me with marijuana so my AV has more to go on to convince me.
Help!!! I need support. I have none at home. This is my fourth day and I don't want to start over. For those who think that it's not addictive please look at me. It's all I'm thinking about and it has only been 4 days!!!
Have you had a look through these links? They were pretty helpful to me when I was quitting nowisthetime
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html
bottom line is you won't regret waking up tomorrow having stayed strong. Kick that AV to the kerb
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http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html
bottom line is you won't regret waking up tomorrow having stayed strong. Kick that AV to the kerb
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I went for a walk, much longer than usual for about an hour and a half. It's more that 90 degrees here and I was soaked at the end. My dog is still panting. When I got home I took a cold shower and ate more pizza...
I just read all the links and for the most part my answers to the questionnaire were no. It's going to be tricky because I smoked at home, at my farm, actually, everywhere.
The good news is that I have been here (SR) for over two years and I have learned a lot about addiction so even without negative consequences I know in my heart that that I am addicted. I mean, I have been smoking EVERYDAY!!! That can't be good for me. I also work in a very mentally demanding field and eventhough I'm really, really good I know it has to affect me and I could be so much better.
I'm 36 years old. I don't want to be a stoner. I don't fit the typical stoner description but I didn't fit the typical alcoholic description either. I did EVERYTHING high, EVERYTHING...
I slept a bit better last night but it was because I was so tired from the night before.
I was so irritable all day... My poor family... I'm already feisty and a hot head as it is so this isn't good. Tomorrow I will be more self aware and try my best to fake it until I make it.
I just read all the links and for the most part my answers to the questionnaire were no. It's going to be tricky because I smoked at home, at my farm, actually, everywhere.
The good news is that I have been here (SR) for over two years and I have learned a lot about addiction so even without negative consequences I know in my heart that that I am addicted. I mean, I have been smoking EVERYDAY!!! That can't be good for me. I also work in a very mentally demanding field and eventhough I'm really, really good I know it has to affect me and I could be so much better.
I'm 36 years old. I don't want to be a stoner. I don't fit the typical stoner description but I didn't fit the typical alcoholic description either. I did EVERYTHING high, EVERYTHING...
I slept a bit better last night but it was because I was so tired from the night before.
I was so irritable all day... My poor family... I'm already feisty and a hot head as it is so this isn't good. Tomorrow I will be more self aware and try my best to fake it until I make it.
I can relate to about everything you've mentioned. All I can say is keep at it and it will get better. You've been able to get through the first bit which deserves major kudos. Keep it up!
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day 4 and around there is super hard! I find by day 6 or 7 things start to lift and feel easier. Hang in there- this is a temporary withdrawal symptom you are experiencing, and if you power through you will feel much more joy and peace.
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Thanks everyone.
I did sleep last night and I had some crazy vivid dreams.
I'm feeling ok todayand I have the entire day planned so I should be ok until tonight. I'm really trying to keep my mind busy so I don't think about smoking. Reading here helps a lot.
I'm not smoking today.
I did sleep last night and I had some crazy vivid dreams.
I'm feeling ok todayand I have the entire day planned so I should be ok until tonight. I'm really trying to keep my mind busy so I don't think about smoking. Reading here helps a lot.
I'm not smoking today.
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I made it through the day. I was invited to smoke by one of my friends and I told her that I had quit, that I had been smoking everyday for more than a decade. She was cool about it. I'm a very confident person so I don't forsee anyone really pressuring me. This battle is definitely within myself.
My husband asked me if he could smoke in front of me. I told him that he can, this isn't about him, it's about me and I'm doing this for myself. It's late at night and I'm going to bed. Day 5 over!!!
My husband asked me if he could smoke in front of me. I told him that he can, this isn't about him, it's about me and I'm doing this for myself. It's late at night and I'm going to bed. Day 5 over!!!
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I'm feeling good today and again, I have planned my entire day. I had to take off work because my babysitter cancelled on me. These were the days when I smoked all day. Wake and bake, before lunch, after lunch, a bit after that, before dinner, after dinner, after work...
Not today. I am keeping busy. I am happy and proud. It might be clicking eventhough my AV is saying things like "once you detox you can partake a bit" specially in that bachelorette party I'm going to out of town. There's going to be lots of booze and weed for sure. Really AV? Eff off!!!
I have no desire to drink. NONE. Weed in the future... That's another story but I'm REALLY trying to close that door. All I know is that I'm NOT smoking today.
Not today. I am keeping busy. I am happy and proud. It might be clicking eventhough my AV is saying things like "once you detox you can partake a bit" specially in that bachelorette party I'm going to out of town. There's going to be lots of booze and weed for sure. Really AV? Eff off!!!
I have no desire to drink. NONE. Weed in the future... That's another story but I'm REALLY trying to close that door. All I know is that I'm NOT smoking today.
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Day 6 over!!!
Tomorrow I'll have a week! I'm happy and excited about it. My hands and feet are not sweating as much. I was arguing with my husband and he told me to go smoke... Whatever! That's fuel for me. I don't care about what other say. I'm doing this for me. I also saw my friend that invited me to smoke yesterday and she asked me if I was still going. I answered "yes, you know I'm strict". She knows it. I have posted about her in the booze forum. When I quit booze she wasn't happy about it but we have remained close friends and she has stopped saying things about booze. I think that she was afraid to lose me as a friend and I'm not going anywhere. Maybe afraid that I would change but I'm totally out there anyway. I don't need substances at all to be fun or funny. She just moved down my street and when I walked by she was sitting outside with her new boyfriend (that's when she asked me about the smoke) and they were both drinking. She drinks very often but I have never seen her drunk. My husband smoked while I was gone and I could smell it when I got home but it really didn't bug me at all.
I can't wait to be completely detoxed!!! I want to see what my brain can do. I have been smoking for so long that THAT was my normal. I mean, smoking was the first thing I did after getting home for work and I functioned flawlessly. The one thing that was starting to happen was that I would fall asleep on the couch and not brush or floss sometimes. For me that's nasty. I used to work at a dentist office several years ago and I know what happens with that. I do not want my mouth to smell!!! Yuck!
I know that it is all about perception and I'm starting to see the real positives in quitting pot. I can't wait to tell my mother but I'm going to wait until I have some substantial time under my belt. She knows how much I love it. I know she will be proud.
I'm still worried about that bachelorette party. I'm worried about pot and not booze. I have given myself permission to smoke. I'm not going to lie... It's in a couple of weeks.
Hopefully I'll be so proud and excited about my time that I won't want to start over.
I also wanted to add that my nausea is better. Honestly, I smoked SO much that my body must be full of THC. It's almost like I must bleed green...
Being here helps a lot. It's like it gives me accountability and something to look forward to.
Night night.
Tomorrow I'll have a week! I'm happy and excited about it. My hands and feet are not sweating as much. I was arguing with my husband and he told me to go smoke... Whatever! That's fuel for me. I don't care about what other say. I'm doing this for me. I also saw my friend that invited me to smoke yesterday and she asked me if I was still going. I answered "yes, you know I'm strict". She knows it. I have posted about her in the booze forum. When I quit booze she wasn't happy about it but we have remained close friends and she has stopped saying things about booze. I think that she was afraid to lose me as a friend and I'm not going anywhere. Maybe afraid that I would change but I'm totally out there anyway. I don't need substances at all to be fun or funny. She just moved down my street and when I walked by she was sitting outside with her new boyfriend (that's when she asked me about the smoke) and they were both drinking. She drinks very often but I have never seen her drunk. My husband smoked while I was gone and I could smell it when I got home but it really didn't bug me at all.
I can't wait to be completely detoxed!!! I want to see what my brain can do. I have been smoking for so long that THAT was my normal. I mean, smoking was the first thing I did after getting home for work and I functioned flawlessly. The one thing that was starting to happen was that I would fall asleep on the couch and not brush or floss sometimes. For me that's nasty. I used to work at a dentist office several years ago and I know what happens with that. I do not want my mouth to smell!!! Yuck!
I know that it is all about perception and I'm starting to see the real positives in quitting pot. I can't wait to tell my mother but I'm going to wait until I have some substantial time under my belt. She knows how much I love it. I know she will be proud.
I'm still worried about that bachelorette party. I'm worried about pot and not booze. I have given myself permission to smoke. I'm not going to lie... It's in a couple of weeks.
Hopefully I'll be so proud and excited about my time that I won't want to start over.
I also wanted to add that my nausea is better. Honestly, I smoked SO much that my body must be full of THC. It's almost like I must bleed green...
Being here helps a lot. It's like it gives me accountability and something to look forward to.
Night night.
Congrats on your sober time Nowisthetime.
I hope that in the next couple of weeks you'll make a healthy informed decision on the party - no matter what the decision is - with your recovery and your commitment to it foremost in mind.
These are the kind of crossroads decisions that determine if you keep moving forward or turn back the other way...
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I hope that in the next couple of weeks you'll make a healthy informed decision on the party - no matter what the decision is - with your recovery and your commitment to it foremost in mind.
These are the kind of crossroads decisions that determine if you keep moving forward or turn back the other way...
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Congrats!
I just re-read some old posts of mine from early June where I was in the same place you are now.
Weeks later, I feel great. This shall pass.
It's hard to believe how I used to toke so often - I barely think about it now. You can do this one day at a time! Keep on going!
I just re-read some old posts of mine from early June where I was in the same place you are now.
Weeks later, I feel great. This shall pass.
It's hard to believe how I used to toke so often - I barely think about it now. You can do this one day at a time! Keep on going!
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I just wrote a long one any lost it... Hate when that happens. But: it was officially one week as of yesterday!!!
I'm still having an internal battle between AV and rational me. Rational me has great points and AV is full of it.
Gotta run but wanted to make sure to share. I'm proud of myself for it and it feels great!
I'm still having an internal battle between AV and rational me. Rational me has great points and AV is full of it.
Gotta run but wanted to make sure to share. I'm proud of myself for it and it feels great!
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Hi all!!!
I'm happy to say that I am still going!!!
I am feeling good. No nausea but I have been feeling dizzy... Weird.
A bit irritable still and emotional but feeling happy that I'm still going. Haven't had much cravings. I have been reading like crazy here and also materials I have found online. My husband is still smoking in front of me and it's not bothering me at all. My appetite is normal and my sleep is getting better.
Things are looking good.
I'm happy to say that I am still going!!!
I am feeling good. No nausea but I have been feeling dizzy... Weird.
A bit irritable still and emotional but feeling happy that I'm still going. Haven't had much cravings. I have been reading like crazy here and also materials I have found online. My husband is still smoking in front of me and it's not bothering me at all. My appetite is normal and my sleep is getting better.
Things are looking good.
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