Windytown4

good image, Dee! I will remember that in my next quit!

Windytown4

hi all
It is a week or so since I got back on pot after my ten day break. And everything is much more difficult than when I am sober! I remember the moment I got more was triggered by the "I'm bored" feeling. though for addicts, bored is a mild version of the actual craving, It is more like a need for joy, kind of thing.
When II was sober I was starting to think of all the things I want to bring back into my life- music, dancing, yoga, reading, etcetera.
When I am stoned all I do is smoke and be stoned. I have no energy for anything else.
Also, I am much less healthy. Because I am still recovering form some illnesses, I am needing to detox and clean outmy system. When I add the pot back in it contributes, for me, to gumming up my system. It ialso causes me to eat way more sugar and coffee. I am feeling crappy health wise again, since starting,
So, planning on trying again tomorrow to quit!
I also just signed up for an interesting workshop- relating to mind stuff, with an author I like- in a month. It would be great to have a month sober by the time I go to that, so hopefully tomorrow is day one. I will keep calling each of these my zillionth try. I will keep trying to quit pot and I will eventually succeed!

Dee74

I hope today worked out as day one WT

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Windytown4

not there yet- slogging through the end of this bag I have- full of tar and general blech. Hope to get clear again soon.

Windytown4

well I can only do what I can do, and thanks you guys for not judging how many zillion times I start and stop!
So here I go again day 1.
This time round I took ten days off, smoked ten days, and am now attempting to quit again. Day one is as day one is- ******.

Windytown4

ugh quitting a thirty year addiction to MJ is ******* hard.
for me.

Dee74

I smoked that long too Windytown - it IS hard, but it's not impossible.

I guarantee you will look back and be glad you stopped - pot is really insidious - or it was for me - and it takes a little distance to really see how devious the addiction is IMO.

You have to hold firm and trust you're doing the right thing, for a little while - but it's worth it

D

Windytown4

still smoking. the other week I had this great delicious pot, and I enjoyed it in a lot of ways but still wanted to quit. Then I ran out and got a new bag and it is total schwag. disgusting and just gives me a headache and irritable with no pleasure at all. Guess it is good motivation to get rid of it and quit.

Pacoloco

racingthoughts

I definitely don't miss the whole mess associated with buying weed. Hope you hop back on board soon.

Windytown4

still smoking

Dee74

I'm glad you're still posting tho WT.

To me that means that part of you that wants to stop is still there, fighting.

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Windytown4

Thank you for the encouragement! Yes, most of me wants to quit. It is the addict in me that hasn't managed it yet. Sometimes I try day after day and focus on quitting, other times I just let go of the fight for a hwile. I have so much going on right now!

Windytown4

I don't even know.

Windytown4

I just read this quote
"(Louise Hay )The work you are doing on yourself is not a goal, it is a process - a lifetime process. It doesn't matter how much time it takes - you've got all the time in the world.

Let's affirm: I am here at the right time."

that was a good quote to inspire me. Still caught up in the addiction and not stopped yet. Still want to stop.

Dee74

It's a process sure but for me nothing really happened until I put down the bong for good.

I really hope you find the willingness soon WT

It doesn't get any easier the longer you submerge yourself into that life.

D