Need support flushing this stuff down the toilet
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Need support flushing this stuff down the toilet
I've been struggling to quit for so long. The longest I've gone has been 10 months. Been smoking since I was 21, 48 now.
A friends death, a looming move and no job have me stressing and smoking again. Plus, this "new" Cali weed is so strong, one hit and I'm out all day. Seriously, sleeping, just wasting days away. Wake up feeling like crap with the same problems staring me in the face. Oh yeah, I'm abstinent in OA and the smoking is threatening my abstinence. Ugh... I want to quit, don't even enjoy it anymore and it's causing health issues. Sick of trying to moderate, it doesn't work, I'm an addict.
Was going to flush it this morning, then my head said(yes, the sick mind)' just roll one big joint and smoke it all up today to get rid of it.'
It's too much for one joint.... I'll be glad when it's gone, but refuse to get rid of it. Oh the insanity.
A friends death, a looming move and no job have me stressing and smoking again. Plus, this "new" Cali weed is so strong, one hit and I'm out all day. Seriously, sleeping, just wasting days away. Wake up feeling like crap with the same problems staring me in the face. Oh yeah, I'm abstinent in OA and the smoking is threatening my abstinence. Ugh... I want to quit, don't even enjoy it anymore and it's causing health issues. Sick of trying to moderate, it doesn't work, I'm an addict.
Was going to flush it this morning, then my head said(yes, the sick mind)' just roll one big joint and smoke it all up today to get rid of it.'
It's too much for one joint.... I'll be glad when it's gone, but refuse to get rid of it. Oh the insanity.
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Been there. You know the drill. The anxiety will settle in a day or two. alertness returns gradually. The temptation is actually stronger for me than booze and I never was a daily smoker. I could never throw it away either. Was such a relief when I was out. Best wishes. You can do this.
Hi Astonefox, welcome to the forum. It sounds like you quit at least once for a while so you can do it. I started when I was 14 and smoked until I was 38. I quit almost a year ago. It was hard but I'm fine without it now. In fact, way better off. I know I can't moderate. I have decided I can't smoke it again or I'll soon be right back where I was. Keep us posted on how it's going.
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I dumped most of it, kept two bowls worth. Should be gone tomorrow. Going thru the highs and lows. Talking today to a sponsee in another program really, really helped. Thanks for the support.
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No. I still have some left. Should be out today. I'm already upset about flushing it and thinking of getting more. Or worse, scraping the resin out. Ugh... I'm in that foul mood stage. I know it horrible for me, but mad I can't have it.
Thanks for asking...
Thanks for asking...
Ah, scraping resin. Takes me back to my quitting thread. I was doing that for weeks. Not like it was the first time I did that either. And the obsessive searches of the house... anything to keep the hope of getting stoned alive. Eventually all that ran out and my pipes were clean, the stashes were empty, and I started the journey into no weed. Quitting was one of the best things I ever did in my life. It's worth it. Hang in there.
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dude, I feel ya. I have been there more times than I can count. I'm 53 years old. I said to a friend of mine the other day, "Every time I buy a bag I promise myself this will be the last one and then I'll quit. But I always panic and buy more as soon as I run out. I guess I'm going to have to accept the fact that I'm going to be a lifelong weed smoker." He laughed and said "oh, you're GOING to be one, are you?"
after you smoke that last bowl, I'd advise throwing away all your paraphernalia in a trashcan somewhere that you can't go back to. Good luck.
after you smoke that last bowl, I'd advise throwing away all your paraphernalia in a trashcan somewhere that you can't go back to. Good luck.
I did that a thousand times I'm sure. However, one magical time I really didn't get any more! It's not impossible, just don't give in the panic. The panic feels scary but it's just a big old fake boogey man. It goes away. It's easy to say now but trust me - I understand what it's like to stand at the edge of that cliff and not be able to jump.
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I ended up scraping the ish out of the pipe and smoked yesterday. So today was really Day 1. Slight headache and some mild mood swings. Nothing major. I can handle it, I just get in my own way most of the time. Hoping this is the end of my weed smoke for awhile. I just have to get out of self will. Boredom and self-pity are big problems too. Throwing away my paraphernalia or hiding it someplace hard to reach, I've done all of that. If I want to smoke, I'll just buy new stuff. For me Those things aren't the problem/issue.
Glad you're on your way
mix your routine up a little - try not to sit around too much
Be careful on the social front and try and avoid other smokers...the suggestion to throw out all your pot-related implements is a good one too
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mix your routine up a little - try not to sit around too much
Be careful on the social front and try and avoid other smokers...the suggestion to throw out all your pot-related implements is a good one too
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