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awis25 · 05-31-2006, 03:36 PM

I was here before and I was wd from opiates...Any and everyone you can name...I never wanted to go through the wd soo I just kept buying the pills...So a while back when I was going through wd I found my way here, but that wd didn't work. People called having pills and I was sooo sick of feeling sooo sick that I weant back to them...I could kill myself for that one!!.....Now I am trying all over again...prob the millionth time!!!! This time I was wise enough to know I couldn't do it alone. I am going through a detox program at home....Three days worth of Buprenorphine..Then cloadine and bacolfin for three day after the shots if needed. I wanted to be off drugs the first time I was here, but I should have known the wd was too much to take. I mean I had been in wd sooo many times and I could never deal with it before. Soo anyway to make a long story short I took first shot like 45 mins ago and I dont have the wd anymore... I just want to cry I am soo happy I am doing this!!! I have wanted it for forever....Now its time to face my life without the pills....

Chance · 05-31-2006, 04:17 PM

Withdrawals are very hard and I am still in the withdrawal period again. The thing about the withdrawals that I have noticed, much of it depends on our mind sets. If we are truly willing to work the program, then it works! If we have reservations then it doesn't work. I am now about 5 or 6 days off of crack/coke, and ICE. I am still withdrawing I am sure. I am not even really sure what to look for, but I know that in time all will be well unless I choose to pick up.

I know that they said there is medication to help you with the cravings. I have also noticed that if I don't feed the cravings then they won't stay around and I can usually work through them. Everything changes and so do we, the withdrawals I believe will only be as hard as we want or don't want them to be. Hope that you will be well and welcome.

Love Vic

awis25 · 05-31-2006, 07:36 PM

Yes your right when your mindset is bad you feel alot worse then you actually are, but opiate wd is some tough stuff!!! I have never been through any other drug wd soo I don't know what they are like. I am have a great mind set this time around...of course meds are helping, but I needed that, bc I said before CT was just TOO HARD!! Thanks for responding...we all need to hang in there no matter what the poison.

**Phinneas** · 05-31-2006, 11:09 PM

Good to see you, Mandie. You sound really committed and I am proud of you for doing this deal again. And you know what? You never, ever, ever have to do it again. You don't need to use ever again - even if you want to. Man, what a relief that was for me to know. And there have been bad days and hard days, but I don't have to pick up. It does get better!

Keep posting your progress. We're here with help and support, k?

awis25 · 06-01-2006, 01:54 AM

Yes Thats all I keep thinking is never again...I want to feel things as Mandie and not as the person I have become over these past 2 yrs. Thanks for all the kind words everyone....I know it is sooo hard for everyone!

Pink · 06-01-2006, 09:40 AM

Mandie: I congratulate u on ur courage!!!! You go girl!!!!!

awis25 · 06-01-2006, 10:02 AM

Thanks again to everyone....Day 2...and all going good!!! Thank God...!

**Phinneas** · 06-01-2006, 05:57 PM

Keep it up, Mandie. You can get through this and there is a better life waiting for you on the other side. Keep reaching out and posting, k? We're here for you!

05-31-2006, 03:36 PM	#1 (permalink)
awis25 ~Mandie~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Sicklerville NJ Posts: 32	Here before messed it all up... I was here before and I was wd from opiates...Any and everyone you can name...I never wanted to go through the wd soo I just kept buying the pills...So a while back when I was going through wd I found my way here, but that wd didn't work. People called having pills and I was sooo sick of feeling sooo sick that I weant back to them...I could kill myself for that one!!.....Now I am trying all over again...prob the millionth time!!!! This time I was wise enough to know I couldn't do it alone. I am going through a detox program at home....Three days worth of Buprenorphine..Then cloadine and bacolfin for three day after the shots if needed. I wanted to be off drugs the first time I was here, but I should have known the wd was too much to take. I mean I had been in wd sooo many times and I could never deal with it before. Soo anyway to make a long story short I took first shot like 45 mins ago and I dont have the wd anymore... I just want to cry I am soo happy I am doing this!!! I have wanted it for forever....Now its time to face my life without the pills....

05-31-2006, 04:17 PM	#2 (permalink)
Chance JUST DO IT!! Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Here Or There Posts: 7,097 Blog Entries: 9	Withdrawals are very hard and I am still in the withdrawal period again. The thing about the withdrawals that I have noticed, much of it depends on our mind sets. If we are truly willing to work the program, then it works! If we have reservations then it doesn't work. I am now about 5 or 6 days off of crack/coke, and ICE. I am still withdrawing I am sure. I am not even really sure what to look for, but I know that in time all will be well unless I choose to pick up. I know that they said there is medication to help you with the cravings. I have also noticed that if I don't feed the cravings then they won't stay around and I can usually work through them. Everything changes and so do we, the withdrawals I believe will only be as hard as we want or don't want them to be. Hope that you will be well and welcome. Love Vic __________________ With Love and Respect Vic Life isn't yesterday or tomorrow it is in the now.....

05-31-2006, 11:09 PM	#4 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,597	Good to see you, Mandie. You sound really committed and I am proud of you for doing this deal again. And you know what? You never, ever, ever have to do it again. You don't need to use ever again - even if you want to. Man, what a relief that was for me to know. And there have been bad days and hard days, but I don't have to pick up. It does get better! Keep posting your progress. We're here with help and support, k? __________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

06-01-2006, 01:54 AM	#5 (permalink)
awis25 ~Mandie~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Sicklerville NJ Posts: 32	Yes Thats all I keep thinking is never again...I want to feel things as Mandie and not as the person I have become over these past 2 yrs. Thanks for all the kind words everyone....I know it is sooo hard for everyone! __________________ ~ One is too many and a thousand is never enough ~

06-01-2006, 10:02 AM	#7 (permalink)
awis25 ~Mandie~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Sicklerville NJ Posts: 32	Thanks again to everyone....Day 2...and all going good!!! Thank God...! __________________ ~ One is too many and a thousand is never enough ~

05-31-2006, 07:36 PM	#3 (permalink)
awis25 ~Mandie~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Sicklerville NJ Posts: 32	Yes your right when your mindset is bad you feel alot worse then you actually are, but opiate wd is some tough stuff!!! I have never been through any other drug wd soo I don't know what they are like. I am have a great mind set this time around...of course meds are helping, but I needed that, bc I said before CT was just TOO HARD!! Thanks for responding...we all need to hang in there no matter what the poison.

06-01-2006, 09:40 AM	#6 (permalink)
Pink Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: Worcester, Massachusetts Posts: 1	Mandie: I congratulate u on ur courage!!!! You go girl!!!!!

06-01-2006, 05:57 PM	#8 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,597	Keep it up, Mandie. You can get through this and there is a better life waiting for you on the other side. Keep reaching out and posting, k? We're here for you! __________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

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