5 more days til the wedding, whoa!! Lost Dreams Awaken!!

[Moontime]

Funny how after I wrote and shared on all 12 traditions with my sponsor that God saw fit that I was ready for a relationship that was built on a loving caring God. A relationship with the most beautiful and spiritual woman that I have ever met. I was locked into thinking that I would have to find a woman who was a recovery addict too. My path didn't take me that route. In fact I didn't find her, she found me. Ya see my woman picker is broken. I picked the insane ones. When I finally started to work at filling my heart and void with God and started to live with God being enough for me, other things started happening to me. I finally was happy with me, I was finally loving me for who I am and didn't have to search out happiness in anyone else. I was already happy, anything else was a bonus. So my suggestion for anyone who longs for a family in your future. Find out who you are first, don't settle for less than you deserve. When God moves you away from a relationship, let it go because God maybe moving you in such a way that's for your greater good. as he did for me. I prayed for God to be enough everyday for 6 months and continue to do so. After 4 months, God was revealing to me that he is enough for me.
NA service commitments paved the way for me to become responsible and committed. I can commit to things today and follow through with them. I can say I'm going to do something and do them. My own experience has shown me NA service commtiments have paved the way for me to lose 40lbs, stop smoking, enter my first races and run 5-7 miles, get my license back, become a contributer to work and family. I learned that in the rooms of NA relating with other addicts. Recovery is first and always first but Ive learned to have a life. If I look at a wheel the center of that wheel is recovery. The spokes of that wheel are things I do in my life. I still make 5-7 meetings a week. I still have H&I commitments to my area and to my region. I still speak at speakerjams. I have to do those things because God brought me to NA to get my life back, but to protect this gift, I need to keep Recovery Number One!! Love y'all,
Jason B

Oh by the way I have to remember where I came from, I came into recovery as a crack monster who smoked up a past 9 year relationship with a woman, who a few inventories later found out she volunteer'd for that position, I smoked up a house, and I smoked up a car. I smoked up a relationship with my family who decided to disown me because they couldn't take it anymore and it saved my life. I lost everything but I gained something. Even though I didn't have a thing, NA let me know I didn't have to have anything to feel like something. I am alive because of Narcotics Anonymous. I'm alive because the old timers told me to "WORK THE STEPS OR FVCKING DIE"- There was no coddling me into recovery, I was at a Regional Area Service wanting to leave the minute I got there with 15 days clean.

[Time4Change]

Wow! Jason, I can't believe it's almost here! Words just cannot express how moved I am by your post and how happy I am for you both; you've found THE one and get to share the rest of your lives together. What a gift! And I absolutely admire and respect the way you work and live your program of recovery. Thank God you're here, Jas. And thank God I am blessed to be your friend.

I hope you'll post pics for us here at SR. And I hope that post of yours gets moved to the inspirational/motivational threads section of this board, because it's so spiritually uplifting, you can't help but smile and sigh happily while reading it.

God bless, Jason. You deserve all the best! Keep us posted on the last-minute details if/when you can. Hawaiian theme, right? Good weather right now where you're at? Inside or outside? Big reception afterwards? How many invited?

Love you my sweet friend!

Kelly

[Moontime]

Thanks Kelly!! I really appreciate all the support you personally gave me. It is Hawaiian themed, Everybody will be getting lei'd, LOL!! I had to throw that in, but Heather ordered flowers from Hawaii. It's a spiritual wedding so to speak, the celebrant who's doing the main thingy is spiritual and the way she's doing it is awesome. suppose to be a chance of rain, but we'll move it inside if so. Small reception wtih 31 people. All family plus my sponsor and my housemate who's in recovery. Two of my friends who always stuck by my side even though they arent' addicts and my family/Heather's family. Heathers 3 year old Cailin is our flower girl, she can't wait either.

[Blake]

COngrats dude....you give me hope!

[Moontime]

Almost 33,
I took a trip to the sea.
Went out for a swim and the waves came crashing down on me.
Turned to head back in.
That's when I saw the fin.
As NA grabbed my legs, you know it, pulled me in.