In or OUT????

[Chance]

That is the question that I must answer with the next hour or so. Should I try out-patient treatment again or should I in fact go to in treatment. I have a few things that I would loose if I went to inpatient treatment. I would loose my handyman position here where my apartment and utilities is completely paid for in exchange for 15 hours of work a month. As far as other things I think that I might, I don't know what I would do with my new dog Lady Luck. But I also know that everything that I have been doing hasn't been working.

I am sure that it would be a long treatment plan of 6 months to a year. I just don't know what to do. I guess really I do know what I should do. I am afraid to go there. There is also a community support if I choose to go into out patient. Well I just want throw this out here and see if I get some responses and what you all think that maybe I should do. I am willing to do anything really. I don't want to do what I have been doing and being the person that I am today.

Vic

[amymarie]

Hey Lucky,

This is such a personal choice...but everyone has an opinion, so I will gladly give mine...
If what you have been doing isn't working- which seems obvious, you are certain to lose more than a job and your dog...I know it seems so unfair and unreal, but you have to do what you have to do to LIVE... if long-term treatment is an option that you feel will help, I think it is worth it. Do you know anyone who can take the dog?
As far as the job- you are bound to get better once sober...
Please do what NEEDS to be done...not what you WANT...
Peace...and love
amy

[daddysgirl29]

Hey Vic. It's been awhile since we've chatted but I have been following what you've been up to. Only you know which one would work for you, but I'd suggest in-patient. Like you said, doing it your way hasn't worked. I didn't find out-patient hepful that much, but in-patient, where I HAD to be accountable 24/7, was the structure that I needed. It's not as bad as you think. Believe me.

You've had a lot of ups and downs and voiced your desire to get it right once and for all, which is what you deserve b/c you have given a lot to others. It's time to finally give back to yourself and find the true (clean) serenity that you seek.

Wish I lived closer b/c I'd honestly take in your pooch for as long as you needed, given that she's not over 35 lbs. and didn't mind being alone during the day (though I could TRY to sneak her into work....but I think I'd give us away by wanting to play w/ her all the time! Smile...)

Where there's a will there's a way. You seem to have the will this time. Life is beautiful clean and sober - you deserve that, too.

With you, either way,
DG

[Chance]

Thanks for both of your replies! I have to go see my counselor in whom I have fulfilled two out-patient treatments with. She knows me pretty good so I will talk about it with her also. I know that whatever or whichever way I go I can not use! I know that in reality we have a choice but I think that I have lost that choice now. And if I haven't lost it then I choose not to have a choice so either way I have chosen. Have to run hope everyone has a lovely day.

Vic

[GeorgiaPeach]

Try the out-patient one more time and see how it goes. I know that if you were in that you would be worrying about you apt and your puppy. That is just my opinion but if after a month or two and it seems to not be working then you would have to go the other route but maybe you will have good luck with it this time. You came back to us didn't you?

[SaTiT]

My sponser had that choice.
I had to make that same choice.