vicodin addiction - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

bab11 · 03-23-2006, 09:39 PM

HI... i got myself in trouble by taking medication from places I shouldn't have. I have had chronic pain for 35 years and it gets old feeling so rotten all the time. I didn't go about it the right way. My dr. will not give me narcotics because I got in trouble before. My drugs now are ultram, neurontin, 2 anti-depressants. I am in a program. I am a nurse and would like to know if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like this. ??

Gooch · 03-23-2006, 10:32 PM

Welcome Bab. I don't have experience in being in the medical field as you are so I can't offer much on that. I do know of others who have been able to recover and get beyond theor past indiscretions.

Please browse the forum and I'm sure someone will be along who can relate.

**Phinneas** · 03-23-2006, 11:14 PM

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Originally Posted by bab11

...and would like to know if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like this. ??

Oh yeah. I am not a nurse, but I sure fell hard and fast over those evil little pills. I ended up losing everything I cared about and getting to the point of death before I found real recovery in the rooms of NA and AA.

There are other health care workers who share your story that will be along soon to give you some information and support.

Welcome. Glad you're here.

Time4Change · 03-24-2006, 08:47 AM

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Originally Posted by bab11

HI... i got myself in trouble by taking medication from places I shouldn't have. I have had chronic pain for 35 years and it gets old feeling so rotten all the time. I didn't go about it the right way. My dr. will not give me narcotics because I got in trouble before. My drugs now are ultram, neurontin, 2 anti-depressants. I am in a program. I am a nurse and would like to know if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like this. ??

Hi there, bab11! Glad you're here! There are many, many members here who are prescription medication addicts. Lots of great posts here about it. I hope you'll stick around and keep reading posts. You are not alone.

Here's the link to my introduction thread in June of '05. I thought my life was over and I had ruined everything. I got into addiction treatment and started NA meetings and now, almost 10 months later, I feel better than I ever have before. http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ard-61842.html

Great meeting you!

Kelly

Kahlia · 03-24-2006, 10:09 AM

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Originally Posted by bab11

HI... i got myself in trouble by taking medication from places I shouldn't have. I have had chronic pain for 35 years and it gets old feeling so rotten all the time. I didn't go about it the right way. My dr. will not give me narcotics because I got in trouble before. My drugs now are ultram, neurontin, 2 anti-depressants. I am in a program. I am a nurse and would like to know if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like this. ??

Dear Bab-I, too was an an RN, a recovering addict of 6 years....my drug of choice...Dilaudid and Morphine.....GREAT, huh? I had all the narcotics keys to all the narcotics boxes in the whole hospital......not good. I kicked it cold turkey...I am hoping that you will get clean or are you clean, yet? If you are, I am re-reading your drugs that you are on and you are clean, excuse me for the mistake, DUH. It is NOT a dumb mistake , it is called ADDICTICION.....we are addicts. Get yourself to some NA meetings, keep posting here and we are here pullling for you. Also QUIT beating yourself up...I did it for years and it just made me feel bad and hindered my recovery. I also had back problems-Facet Syndrome....PM if you want ......PEACE.....Kahlia

Kahlia · 03-24-2006, 10:11 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bab11

HI... i got myself in trouble by taking medication from places I shouldn't have. I have had chronic pain for 35 years and it gets old feeling so rotten all the time. I didn't go about it the right way. My dr. will not give me narcotics because I got in trouble before. My drugs now are ultram, neurontin, 2 anti-depressants. I am in a program. I am a nurse and would like to know if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like this. ??

Dear Bab-I, too was an an RN, a recovering addict of 6 years....my drug of choice...Dilaudid and Morphine.....GREAT, huh? I had all the narcotics keys to all the narcotics boxes in the whole hospital......not good. I kicked it cold turkey...I am hoping that you will get clean or are you clean, yet? If you are, I am re-reading your drugs that you are on and you are clean, excuse me for the mistake, DUH. It is NOT a dumb mistake , it is called ADDICTICION.....we are addicts. Get yourself to some NA meetings, keep posting here and we are here pullling for you. Also QUIT beating yourself up...I did it for years and it just made me feel bad and hindered my recovery. I also had back problems-Facet Syndrome....PM if you want ......PEACE.....Kahlia

Time4Change · 03-24-2006, 11:25 AM

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Originally Posted by Kahlia

...my drug of choice...Dilaudid and Morphine..... I had all the narcotics keys to all the narcotics boxes in the whole hospital......

Hi Kahlia!

I'm so inspired by your six years of recovery! I know if I had a key to the hospital narcotics boxes, I probably would have ended up dead from ODing. What a huge accomplishment you've had.

Oh, and bab, please be very careful with the Ultram. It's also very addicting (even though it was initially introduced as an alternative to narcotic pain medication). I, too, am on two different anti-depressants, and I feel as if the missing puzzle piece is in place now. I'm glad you're seeking help. Please find an NA meeting soon, and keep posting!

Kelly

Shankathleen · 05-16-2006, 02:51 AM

The pain hasn't gone away, but it's time for a change:

I'm a 36 year old woman who has been having severe, daily migraine headaches for over six years. I take Fiorinal regularly, but it doesn't ever really kill the pain...it just makes it liveable and allows me to function. My doctor has me on a short leash however, and when I do run out of pain meds, like now, I can barely function at all. The pain just increases...it never stops. I've seen every doctor imaginable, all to no avail. My doctor finally sent me to a pain clinic and the doctor there recommended shots in the neck and pain psychotherapy...all of which were denied by my insurance. Not to mention I'm terrified of the shots.
To make a long story short...my fiance is a recovering addict (17 years)...I need to make a change...both for his life, his son's and my own. I know I've become addicted to the drugs because I take them at times when I don't even need them. I plan to attend an NA meeting for the first time this week and I'm writing this post as testimony of my intent. I know though, the pain will persist...I just need to find another way to treat it. I've done Physical therapy...had MRI's, seen neurologists, tried Emitrex, Zomig, Neurontin, Depakote to name just a few. Has anyone else successfully treated chronic headaches without using narcotics? Any advice would be welcomed

Thanks so much. Shannon

**Phinneas** · 05-16-2006, 10:23 AM

Welcome, Shankathleen. I am going to start a new thread for you so you can get lots of responses. Glad you are here!

Smyle · 05-16-2006, 01:10 PM

bab...
I too was in the Medical profession....I unfortunately had keys to a pharmacy and the knowledge to compound medications. I feel you with this situation. I have to attend meetings and see an addiction specialist, That is the only way I can make it day by day....I still stumble...wish i did not know what I know about drugs. Glad you are in a program....are you working it ?

rosie45014 · 06-06-2006, 02:19 PM

hello im from ohio i am getting ready to graduate drug court its a treatment program that is a yr long and it is hard core outpatient treatment. as a matter of fact (due to annynimity i will not give names) there is a female in group with me who is in there who is a nurse she is a rn who got in trouble for stealing the narcs and they happened to be vicodine along with many other kinds but i think it was mostly the vikes and getting addicted to them. she had to do some in and out patient treatment and now she is accually doing awesome. she didnt have to give up her nursing licence or anything she has to drop for the nursing board and stuff but its a consequence she will have to pay due to her addiction ya know what i mean. she was accually while she was in treatment given an award from the nursing department for all the hard work and dedication in the nursing field she gave...so what im trying to say is dont give up on yourself....god has a plan for you...it happend to you and it does happen to others also. pick up do what you gotta do and start again it will get better it may not seem like it but it does..i know that vicodine is a hard drug to come off of its in the class of heroine i believe an opiate and i believe they make ya sick as hell. that wasnt my drug of choice crack was mine it was a bitch too. but i know any drug is a bitch. like i said i wanted to let ya know your not alone and keep god with you he will protect and keep you safe good luck with everything and let me know how things go with ya...hope this helped ya......missy

The_Hammer · 06-06-2006, 04:41 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bab11

HI... i got myself in trouble by taking medication from places I shouldn't have. I have had chronic pain for 35 years and it gets old feeling so rotten all the time. I didn't go about it the right way. My dr. will not give me narcotics because I got in trouble before. My drugs now are ultram, neurontin, 2 anti-depressants. I am in a program. I am a nurse and would like to know if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like this. ??

Of course, that's why we're all here! Come to grips with the fact you can't handle the dope, bab, that a power greater than you can, thenlet that power work in you r life.

Are you attending meeting of any sort?

Time4Change · 06-07-2006, 10:29 AM

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Originally Posted by SweetNuff

It all started about 6 months ago with a prescription of 90 vicodin I've been able to get every month since then. I would take at least 10 a day, so they didn't last long and when I'd have to come down from them, I'd try to find anything else that would help, including alcohol.

Wow! You just told MY story to a T! That's exactly how my addiction started about 10 years ago. Wasn't long before pills were all I could think about. Addiction is a cunning, baffling disease, that's for sure.

NA saved my life. It can save yours, too, bab11. What have you got to lose?

mab123 · 06-07-2006, 03:47 PM

I have also been hooked on the vicodin crap for 2 yrs now...only short 2 to 3 month span in there w/o and a few days here and there. I tried weening off and then none for 3 days. After the third day all I could do was think and wait for the refill...stuff is terrible to be on. It all started with a back injury and now it seems some days revolve around the stupid little pills...hate them. I have very strong will power...people have told me in the past, but not when it comes to these vikes. need help to get my life back to normal w/o pills to get me up and going in the AM. thanks for any thoughts or inspiration.

Also does anyone even know how bad it is to take 6 Vicodin ES/ day...thats the most I've taken but it makes me really out of it by the end of the day. hate where these pills have taken me. Hang in there!

awis25 · 06-07-2006, 04:21 PM

Mab123,

6 vic es a day isn't too bad conserding what other people were taking in a day even at a time......I took at leat 20-25mgs 6 times a day of any and every narcotic. The best thing to do though is get out now. I know it is hard as heck, but it can be done. Them pills will ruin your life in the end. Hope all is well, and if you found your way here you must be thinking you want to stop in some way. Good Luck...

The_Hammer · 06-07-2006, 04:25 PM

5 Backsurgeries here-I have spinal stenosis, arthritis and degenerative disk disorder. I was in a near fatal accident in '88. I have quite a bit of titanium in my spine. I took anywhere from 8 to 12 Norco 10/325 a day. It can be beat, but not easily and not alone.

Jimmy

mab123 · 06-07-2006, 04:34 PM

AWIS25, YES, Exactly 1 is too many and so on. I cannot believe they are so powerful...meaning its all I think of at times and after I take my morning dose I am already thinking of the second and so on ...got to get off this stuff. You are right, it is very hard and I have somewhat tried a few times w/ no success. I had a friend of mine lose his wife to drugs...devorced...kinda woke me up. I relize I am not in that bad of shape compared to some, but for me it's seems like a very high mountain to scale thinking of the day w/o the drug. CrAzY stuff. Thanks for your thought's. This seems like a very helpful site. Thanks you

03-23-2006, 09:39 PM	#1 (permalink)
bab11 Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: richland center, wisc Posts: 1	vicodin addiction HI... i got myself in trouble by taking medication from places I shouldn't have. I have had chronic pain for 35 years and it gets old feeling so rotten all the time. I didn't go about it the right way. My dr. will not give me narcotics because I got in trouble before. My drugs now are ultram, neurontin, 2 anti-depressants. I am in a program. I am a nurse and would like to know if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like this. ??

05-16-2006, 10:23 AM	#9 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,610	Welcome, Shankathleen. I am going to start a new thread for you so you can get lots of responses. Glad you are here! __________________ If ten people tell you that you have a tail... you might want to turn around and look.

06-06-2006, 02:19 PM	#11 (permalink)
rosie45014 Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: hamilton, ohio Posts: 2	this should help you hello im from ohio i am getting ready to graduate drug court its a treatment program that is a yr long and it is hard core outpatient treatment. as a matter of fact (due to annynimity i will not give names) there is a female in group with me who is in there who is a nurse she is a rn who got in trouble for stealing the narcs and they happened to be vicodine along with many other kinds but i think it was mostly the vikes and getting addicted to them. she had to do some in and out patient treatment and now she is accually doing awesome. she didnt have to give up her nursing licence or anything she has to drop for the nursing board and stuff but its a consequence she will have to pay due to her addiction ya know what i mean. she was accually while she was in treatment given an award from the nursing department for all the hard work and dedication in the nursing field she gave...so what im trying to say is dont give up on yourself....god has a plan for you...it happend to you and it does happen to others also. pick up do what you gotta do and start again it will get better it may not seem like it but it does..i know that vicodine is a hard drug to come off of its in the class of heroine i believe an opiate and i believe they make ya sick as hell. that wasnt my drug of choice crack was mine it was a bitch too. but i know any drug is a bitch. like i said i wanted to let ya know your not alone and keep god with you he will protect and keep you safe good luck with everything and let me know how things go with ya...hope this helped ya......missy

06-07-2006, 04:21 PM	#15 (permalink)
awis25 ~Mandie~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Sicklerville NJ Posts: 32	Mab123, 6 vic es a day isn't too bad conserding what other people were taking in a day even at a time......I took at leat 20-25mgs 6 times a day of any and every narcotic. The best thing to do though is get out now. I know it is hard as heck, but it can be done. Them pills will ruin your life in the end. Hope all is well, and if you found your way here you must be thinking you want to stop in some way. Good Luck... __________________ ~ One is too many and a thousand is never enough ~

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03-23-2006, 10:32 PM	#2 (permalink)
Gooch Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: out there... Posts: 2,666	Welcome Bab. I don't have experience in being in the medical field as you are so I can't offer much on that. I do know of others who have been able to recover and get beyond theor past indiscretions. Please browse the forum and I'm sure someone will be along who can relate.

05-16-2006, 02:51 AM	#8 (permalink)
Shankathleen Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: Perris, Ca Posts: 1	The pain hasn't gone away, but it's time for a change: I'm a 36 year old woman who has been having severe, daily migraine headaches for over six years. I take Fiorinal regularly, but it doesn't ever really kill the pain...it just makes it liveable and allows me to function. My doctor has me on a short leash however, and when I do run out of pain meds, like now, I can barely function at all. The pain just increases...it never stops. I've seen every doctor imaginable, all to no avail. My doctor finally sent me to a pain clinic and the doctor there recommended shots in the neck and pain psychotherapy...all of which were denied by my insurance. Not to mention I'm terrified of the shots. To make a long story short...my fiance is a recovering addict (17 years)...I need to make a change...both for his life, his son's and my own. I know I've become addicted to the drugs because I take them at times when I don't even need them. I plan to attend an NA meeting for the first time this week and I'm writing this post as testimony of my intent. I know though, the pain will persist...I just need to find another way to treat it. I've done Physical therapy...had MRI's, seen neurologists, tried Emitrex, Zomig, Neurontin, Depakote to name just a few. Has anyone else successfully treated chronic headaches without using narcotics? Any advice would be welcomed Thanks so much. Shannon

05-16-2006, 01:10 PM	#10 (permalink)
Smyle Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Newfie-Land, Mo Posts: 1,623	bab... I too was in the Medical profession....I unfortunately had keys to a pharmacy and the knowledge to compound medications. I feel you with this situation. I have to attend meetings and see an addiction specialist, That is the only way I can make it day by day....I still stumble...wish i did not know what I know about drugs. Glad you are in a program....are you working it ?

06-07-2006, 03:47 PM	#14 (permalink)
mab123 Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: phoenix , az Posts: 3	I have also been hooked on the vicodin crap for 2 yrs now...only short 2 to 3 month span in there w/o and a few days here and there. I tried weening off and then none for 3 days. After the third day all I could do was think and wait for the refill...stuff is terrible to be on. It all started with a back injury and now it seems some days revolve around the stupid little pills...hate them. I have very strong will power...people have told me in the past, but not when it comes to these vikes. need help to get my life back to normal w/o pills to get me up and going in the AM. thanks for any thoughts or inspiration. Also does anyone even know how bad it is to take 6 Vicodin ES/ day...thats the most I've taken but it makes me really out of it by the end of the day. hate where these pills have taken me. Hang in there!

06-07-2006, 04:25 PM	#16 (permalink)
The_Hammer Guest Join Date: May 2006 Location: Fremont, NE Posts: 813	5 Backsurgeries here-I have spinal stenosis, arthritis and degenerative disk disorder. I was in a near fatal accident in '88. I have quite a bit of titanium in my spine. I took anywhere from 8 to 12 Norco 10/325 a day. It can be beat, but not easily and not alone. Jimmy

06-07-2006, 04:34 PM	#17 (permalink)
mab123 Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: phoenix , az Posts: 3	AWIS25, YES, Exactly 1 is too many and so on. I cannot believe they are so powerful...meaning its all I think of at times and after I take my morning dose I am already thinking of the second and so on ...got to get off this stuff. You are right, it is very hard and I have somewhat tried a few times w/ no success. I had a friend of mine lose his wife to drugs...devorced...kinda woke me up. I relize I am not in that bad of shape compared to some, but for me it's seems like a very high mountain to scale thinking of the day w/o the drug. CrAzY stuff. Thanks for your thought's. This seems like a very helpful site. Thanks you

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