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Kathy Z · 11-01-2005, 08:40 PM

Hi everyone,

I've posted on here a few times. I have an addiction to percocet. I've been taking it for 18 months now. My husband gets 240 5mg pills a month for an injury he suffered and every month is the same battle for me. I tell myself that I will quit for real as soon as they're gone, sometimes I tell myself I'll stop taking them while they're still here because it will then be my choice and not just because I can't find any or whatever. This is so frustrating to me because while I know all the reasons why I should stop, another part of me (the addict part) doesn't really want to stop.

Im no stranger to addiction in the sense that my husband is a cocaine addict. He hasn't used in quite a while but is not in recovery or working a program. I'm an active member of Al Anon and Co Anon, but I must say lately as much as I love my groups I feel like a phoney there because it's as if I've *joined the other side* so to speak.

I guess my question is............how do I get myself to finally make a real commitment to get sober? To completley stop taking them and instead of making all kinds of crazy deal in my head throughout the day yet ending up taking even more than yesterday.

Any suggestions?

Pernell Johnson · 11-02-2005, 04:40 AM

Kathy, it appears that you are going to the wrong meetings. Try going to Narcotics Anonymous and go there for yourself. See if you meet anyone or hear some suggestions that would fit well with you personality and use of the prescription drug or any drug for that matter. The operative word is "Intervention."
Let us know how you make out!

godsonmyside · 11-02-2005, 08:45 AM

I'll 2nd that!!

Peace,
Todd J.

hopealwayz · 11-02-2005, 03:50 PM

NA meetings are great.
I could not stay clean until I got in the program.
Check NA out and see what you think.

CLEAN89 · 11-06-2005, 01:03 AM

Yea, I'd Sat Sit In A Na Meeting And See If You Relate, Support Will Help Your Journey If You Allow The Help. Dont Compare Stories Either, I'd Just Try To See If The Emotions People In Na Are Similar.

HPierce · 11-06-2005, 04:52 AM

i agree with all above i can trying to work two programs as well. my alcoholic side and my alanon side. almost everyone i know is double sided so dont worry they wont think your a phoney at the NA meeting. this diease runs in the family.

good luck i love my meetings!

RN92 · 11-07-2005, 06:37 AM

I had a smililar experience. I came out of rehab and my husband takes Lortab for a chronic hip problem. I told my husband to keep the lortab with him all of the time and do not let me have any. When he couldnt keep them on him, he would hide them. Its drastic, but it worked.

11-01-2005, 08:40 PM	#1 (permalink)
Kathy Z I can do this! Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Pretty lost right now Posts: 45	Need something......... Hi everyone, I've posted on here a few times. I have an addiction to percocet. I've been taking it for 18 months now. My husband gets 240 5mg pills a month for an injury he suffered and every month is the same battle for me. I tell myself that I will quit for real as soon as they're gone, sometimes I tell myself I'll stop taking them while they're still here because it will then be my choice and not just because I can't find any or whatever. This is so frustrating to me because while I know all the reasons why I should stop, another part of me (the addict part) doesn't really want to stop. Im no stranger to addiction in the sense that my husband is a cocaine addict. He hasn't used in quite a while but is not in recovery or working a program. I'm an active member of Al Anon and Co Anon, but I must say lately as much as I love my groups I feel like a phoney there because it's as if I've joined the other side so to speak. I guess my question is............how do I get myself to finally make a real commitment to get sober? To completley stop taking them and instead of making all kinds of crazy deal in my head throughout the day yet ending up taking even more than yesterday. Any suggestions? __________________ Insanity is repeating the same actions over and over and expecting a different result. :na2

11-02-2005, 04:40 AM	#2 (permalink)
Pernell Johnson Member Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Plainfield, New Jersey USA Posts: 494 Blog Entries: 1	Kathy, it appears that you are going to the wrong meetings. Try going to Narcotics Anonymous and go there for yourself. See if you meet anyone or hear some suggestions that would fit well with you personality and use of the prescription drug or any drug for that matter. The operative word is "Intervention." Let us know how you make out! __________________ Just for Today---------------I am Clean and Sober Pernell

11-02-2005, 08:45 AM	#3 (permalink)
godsonmyside Vision of Hope Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Living on This side of the green!! Posts: 1,058	I'll 2nd that!! Peace, Todd J. __________________ We get relief through the Twelve Steps which are essential to the recovery process, because they are a new, spiritual way of life that allows us to participate in our own recovery. We Do Recover Todd J.

11-02-2005, 03:50 PM	#4 (permalink)
hopealwayz Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: somewhere Posts: 3,509	NA meetings are great. I could not stay clean until I got in the program. Check NA out and see what you think. __________________

11-06-2005, 04:52 AM	#6 (permalink)
HPierce Meetings Coordinator Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Detroit, Michigan Posts: 374	i agree with all above i can trying to work two programs as well. my alcoholic side and my alanon side. almost everyone i know is double sided so dont worry they wont think your a phoney at the NA meeting. this diease runs in the family. good luck i love my meetings! __________________ Alcoholism is the only disease that tries to convince you that you don’t have it. If you wonder if you’re an addict or alcoholic, you probably are.

11-06-2005, 01:03 AM	#5 (permalink)
CLEAN89 Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: rising sun, md Posts: 1	Yea, I'd Sat Sit In A Na Meeting And See If You Relate, Support Will Help Your Journey If You Allow The Help. Dont Compare Stories Either, I'd Just Try To See If The Emotions People In Na Are Similar.

11-07-2005, 06:37 AM	#7 (permalink)
RN92 Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Senatobia, MS Posts: 5	I had a smililar experience. I came out of rehab and my husband takes Lortab for a chronic hip problem. I told my husband to keep the lortab with him all of the time and do not let me have any. When he couldnt keep them on him, he would hide them. Its drastic, but it worked.

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