getting help (hopefully)

[snooty]

thanks for the suggestions, I understand how to keep busy and my mind off the drug. How long before I notice a decrease in my want for doing it, it seems whenever I get into a situation I was always using which brings back the craving ten times worse than before. When can I start to function in my life without every other thought about cocaine?

[hopealwayz]

I am 2 weeks clean from cocaine and today for the first time, the thoughts hit me a little bit less. I think it takes a while for them to go away, but I am told that they will decrease the longer one abstains from the drug.

It is best to avoid people and places that could get you into a not so good situation.
When things appear to trigger you, remember that you can make it through it and you will be stronger for the next time.

I started using constantly in my apartment so sometimes I would be scared to go home because I was frightened of being triggered. It was kinda bad the first few times, but I got stronger in the ability to not act on those desires.
Just because you have thoughts doesn't mean that you gotta use.

I'm so glad that you are here reaching out!

[snooty]

I don't think, I can do it I know exactly what made me go for the drug. I go crazy on my husband and everything snowballs. He is no help, he is also coming off a problem, but his is the only one that matters. It started with me supporting him, but know I need help but no one to go because everyone is focused on him getting better, so I'm the strong one. I noticed with him getting better I'm getting worse. I have put my job, life and friends on hold to keep him from doing it now its me who is worse. How do I make him understand that I need things from him without taking him over the edge????It feels like my life will never again be normal (what is normal anyways). Thanks for all the support from everyone, this is the first time I have reached out to anyone. Maybe I just need a place to vent some feelings, since know one hear listens. thanks again!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Paulie]

I am sorry that you do not have support from your husband due to his own addiction. How about meetings, have you tried that? Like here you will be met with unconditional love and support.

You do not have to be the strong one, you have to take care of you. I have learned many things in recovery and 1 very important one is that if I don't take care of myself first, I am no good to anyone else.

Keep coming back, keep venting, we are all her on the same path.