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Gooch · 07-21-2005, 09:31 AM

I get through most everything that comes my way on faith first and foremost. When I dig down and come up a little short, I have so many friends and NA bros and sisters with plenty to spare that help me get my self planted solidly back in the day.

Right about now though I am seeing the bottom of the barrel financially, I worked 31/2 days last week and due to overzealous salesmen, summer vacations, and whatever else seems to pop up, there have been cancellations and reschedules, so here I am allready behind on bills, and nothing coming in til at least a week from tomorrrow. I'm down to loose change and need a miracle or there are going to be less than pleasant consequences.. lol ( Anybody want to buy a truck? motorcycle? CD's? stereo equipment?)

I got over my being broke stigma a long time ago. Money is just something that is used in exchange for something else anyway.
The only problem is the grocery store isn't doing swaps anymore and how many #'s of Hamburg is a Stevie Ray Vaughn CD worth anyway ?.(. no wait a minute .. first trade the Anthrax disks don't listen to them anymore anyway.)

but whats really making me feel less than today is having a frined in the hospital having cancer surgery and not even being able to be there ( have a miserable head cold and cough) or at keast send flowers..

Sometimes the only thing I have is a prayer.... sometimes I still struggle with that being enough.

historyteach · 07-21-2005, 09:43 AM

(((Gooch)))
I know exactly how you feel; I've been where you are.
G*D works, Gooch!
My prayers are with you.

Shalom!

Paulie · 07-21-2005, 11:45 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gooch

Sometimes the only thing I have is a prayer.... sometimes I still struggle with that being enough.

It IS enough Gooch my friend. And when you can't believe that for whatever reason, I (we) will believe it for you. Just like you do for us.

Call your friend in the hospital, he will understand.

namommy · 07-21-2005, 04:06 PM

((((((((Gooch))))))))

I know exactly where you are right now, I am right there with you. I have been here for a while now. I understand when you say sometimes prayer doesn't seem to be enough. I go back and forth between fear and faith several times a day.

I'm not going to tell you that things will get better, because I don't know if they will. They haven't gotten any better for me. I just keep praying and doing the best that I can to keep going on. And, my 'best' isn't always that good.

You are a good man, with good friends, and I am sure they will understand and help you.

Keeping you in my prayers.

Love ya
Laurie

PS. Keep the Stevie Ray Vaughn, AND the HARLEY!! OMG!!

historyteach · 07-21-2005, 04:24 PM

Five years ago, I was struggling to keep my home. My ex gambled the mortgage and so much more away. My son was active and I was a classic codie - "fixing" everything. Except myself.
I spent that winter on the living room couch. The heat was turned down to 60 degrees. Lower, while I was at work; just enough to keep pipes from freezing. I shut all the doors on the second floor. I had no long distance phone service, and all my family is long distance. I sacrificed; I scraped. And I made it out the other side.
All things are possible through G*D.
I've been so blessed, and honestly, only just really began to understand exactly how blessed I am!!!
G*D works!
Shalom!

Chance · 07-21-2005, 04:40 PM

Hey Gooch I would be willing to wire you some money if you really do need it, I should be ok, I know that so if you really need help just let me know ok. That is what we are here for to help each other, and that could be just the blessing that we need.

Time2Surrender · 07-21-2005, 05:13 PM

Keep the faith dude.I will keep you in my prayers.

Dan · 07-21-2005, 05:26 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by namommy

I go back and forth between fear and faith several times a day.

You too eh...
As long as the last stop of the day is on the faith side, I guess we stand a chance for tomorrow

Thanks Laurie.

Goochman...
You know.
(...)

tyler · 07-21-2005, 05:38 PM

Keepin you in my thoughts Gooch!! You live right and things will work out for you. I'm sure of it.

Gabe · 07-21-2005, 05:45 PM

Hey you...
We get through this stuff.
You know that.
It's all about faith.
And the belief that God will get us through to our next good thing.
You see it...you believe it...then it happens.
There is a candle lit for you in my house tonight.

icefalcon · 07-21-2005, 09:46 PM

hey gooch, know how you feel partner. feels like sometimes i work my a** off just to pay the bills. and we've been broke for the last week. just scratching enough to get by. but i do believe god gives us what we need when we need it, or are ready to except it. just received a promotion (why i have not posted in awhile) more money, but more work also. i still need to focus on my recovery and spirituality. i meditate and pray and even when i don't have time to post i still stop to read and keep up with whats going on with everyone.
one day at a time, bro
your in my prayers!

WNY Addict · 07-21-2005, 10:43 PM

I too know exactly how you feel, Gooch. I was really hurting back in May financially. My wife and I were stable, but we didn't have anything to play with at all ($$$). There's a lot of awakening dreams that just weren't happening in my life.

I prayed and meditated a lot, we were lucky enough to get a vacation to LV as a wedding gift... and I came back with a hellbent attitude to change where I was financially. I lost quite a few good paying jobs in my addiction, and the last one I had in May was on the lowest end of the totem pole for my profession. I came home from LV, threw out three resumes, and I got called for two interviews within days of sending out the resumes. I mean I sent those things out on a Tuesday and I was interviewing by Friday.

To make a long story short, I found that job that I was looking for... the one that recovery opened the door for me to find. I'm still in the s**t as far as savings and $$$ to do some much needed renovations, but by next spring we're going to be just fine. All I know Is that I just have to keep doing the right things for the right reasons and all will be well.

The 2006 Fatboy WILL be sitting in the driveway next May... with all the trimmings

Gooch · 07-21-2005, 11:22 PM

Thanks everyone for all the offers and encouragement. I know I'll make it through like I always do. I stopped off at a pity party and stayed too long. On top of having a long weekend where I indulged myslef a bit and spent about $70 (thinking I was going to have a couple days of work this week) I had so much fun I got tired and wore myself out, and caught a head cold.

Guilt trip fodder ya know?

What kind of good responsible, productive, martyr goes and blows $30 in gas and another $40 on food and participant fees for a benefit ride, when he hasn't paid the Visa?

best · 07-21-2005, 11:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gooch

What kind of good responsible, productive, martyr goes and blows $30 in gas and another $40 on food and participant fees for a benefit ride, when he hasn't paid the Visa?

I think they call them kind hearted bikers?

A $20 for the kids and $50 to get it to them is good math in my book.
Will do it the next time when the cause is right also.

**Ann** · 07-21-2005, 11:50 PM

Gooch

Everything you need will be provided, you already know that, yes?

Special prayers going out for your friend, that she sails through this and recovers quickly.

Hugs
Ann

Gooch · 07-21-2005, 11:54 PM

I did hear from my friend. She's home and the surgeon gave her good news. The Cysts were benign! They did find the source of her painand corrected it. Lets just say that some internal components had gotten tangled up.

You guys/gals are awesome as always.

07-22-2005, 03:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gooch

What kind of good responsible, productive, martyr goes and blows $30 in gas and another $40 on food and participant fees for a benefit ride, when he hasn't paid the Visa?

(((Gooch)))

Helping those who need it more? I would. Too.

Dan · 07-22-2005, 04:09 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gooch

What kind of good responsible, productive, martyr goes and blows $30 in gas and another $40 on food and participant fees for a benefit ride, when he hasn't paid the Visa?

As Hawkeye Pierce was fond of saying...
The Finest Kind.

BikerBill8 · 07-22-2005, 08:17 AM

Hey Gooch, Glad to here about your friend is ok. Hey my friend i am in the same boat as you are i am not making enough to live where i am at and i have stoped off on the pity pot too. But i know that i will be ok i have faith in my HP. Hang in there Bro.

Paulie · 07-22-2005, 08:52 AM

(((Gooch))) I am so glad she is better.

And you will be fine to, it always works out sometimes it just takes a little longer than we want it to.

Sending prayers for your peace and your friends quick recovery.

best · 07-22-2005, 08:53 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gooch

I did hear from my friend. She's home and the surgeon gave her good news. The Cysts were benign! They did find the source of her painand corrected it. Lets just say that some internal components had gotten tangled up.

You guys/gals are awesome as always.

Wonderful news.
Prayers continue for a speedy recovery. I would think it is ok to visit now?

quercusalba · 07-22-2005, 08:58 AM

Hey there, Gooch -

First of all - so glad to hear your friend will be ok! That's wonderful.

Secondly, thank you for sharing your struggles... your words have helped me have greater strength of mind and purpose on this day - things that I sorely needed.

please take care... and my thoughts are with you.
--anne

**Ann** · 07-22-2005, 09:23 AM

That's wonderful news Gooch. What a relief that must be for her and for you also, I'm sure.

Hugs
Ann

namommy · 07-22-2005, 06:20 PM

Hey Gooch,

Glad to hear your friend is OK.

I hope you can see that it was money well spent. You did a good thing.

Love ya'
Laurie

07-21-2005, 09:31 AM	#1 (permalink)
Gooch Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: out there... Posts: 2,654	No work - No money I get through most everything that comes my way on faith first and foremost. When I dig down and come up a little short, I have so many friends and NA bros and sisters with plenty to spare that help me get my self planted solidly back in the day. Right about now though I am seeing the bottom of the barrel financially, I worked 31/2 days last week and due to overzealous salesmen, summer vacations, and whatever else seems to pop up, there have been cancellations and reschedules, so here I am allready behind on bills, and nothing coming in til at least a week from tomorrrow. I'm down to loose change and need a miracle or there are going to be less than pleasant consequences.. lol ( Anybody want to buy a truck? motorcycle? CD's? stereo equipment?) I got over my being broke stigma a long time ago. Money is just something that is used in exchange for something else anyway. The only problem is the grocery store isn't doing swaps anymore and how many #'s of Hamburg is a Stevie Ray Vaughn CD worth anyway ?.(. no wait a minute .. first trade the Anthrax disks don't listen to them anymore anyway.) but whats really making me feel less than today is having a frined in the hospital having cancer surgery and not even being able to be there ( have a miserable head cold and cough) or at keast send flowers.. Sometimes the only thing I have is a prayer.... sometimes I still struggle with that being enough.

07-21-2005, 09:43 AM	#2 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	(((Gooch))) I know exactly how you feel; I've been where you are. GD works, Gooch! My prayers are with you. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE*

07-21-2005, 04:06 PM	#4 (permalink)
namommy Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Never, Never land Posts: 2,851 Blog Entries: 1	((((((((Gooch)))))))) I know exactly where you are right now, I am right there with you. I have been here for a while now. I understand when you say sometimes prayer doesn't seem to be enough. I go back and forth between fear and faith several times a day. I'm not going to tell you that things will get better, because I don't know if they will. They haven't gotten any better for me. I just keep praying and doing the best that I can to keep going on. And, my 'best' isn't always that good. You are a good man, with good friends, and I am sure they will understand and help you. Keeping you in my prayers. Love ya Laurie PS. Keep the Stevie Ray Vaughn, AND the HARLEY!! OMG!! __________________ I came into this program to save my a** and found out it was attached to my soul. -- Anonymous

07-21-2005, 04:24 PM	#5 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	Five years ago, I was struggling to keep my home. My ex gambled the mortgage and so much more away. My son was active and I was a classic codie - "fixing" everything. Except myself. I spent that winter on the living room couch. The heat was turned down to 60 degrees. Lower, while I was at work; just enough to keep pipes from freezing. I shut all the doors on the second floor. I had no long distance phone service, and all my family is long distance. I sacrificed; I scraped. And I made it out the other side. All things are possible through GD. I've been so blessed, and honestly, only just really began to understand exactly how blessed I am!!! GD works! Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

07-21-2005, 04:40 PM	#6 (permalink)
Chance JUST DO IT!! Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Here Or There Posts: 7,393 Blog Entries: 10	Hey Gooch I would be willing to wire you some money if you really do need it, I should be ok, I know that so if you really need help just let me know ok. That is what we are here for to help each other, and that could be just the blessing that we need. __________________ With Love and Respect Vic With God and A Little Luck We won't have to use today

07-21-2005, 05:13 PM	#7 (permalink)
Time2Surrender Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Washington State Posts: 7,263 Blog Entries: 7	Keep the faith dude.I will keep you in my prayers.

07-21-2005, 05:38 PM	#9 (permalink)
tyler Not all better, getting better Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: The Beautiful Inner Banks of NC Posts: 1,600 Blog Entries: 8	Keepin you in my thoughts Gooch!! You live right and things will work out for you. I'm sure of it. __________________ Peace and Love, Tyler *"I used to do a little but a little wouldn't do it so a little got more and more. I just keep tryin' to get a little better, said a little better than before."* Mr. Brownstone G-n-R Heck is where people go who don't believe in Gosh

07-21-2005, 05:45 PM	#10 (permalink)
Gabe Member Join Date: Jan 2003 Posts: 4,955	Hey you... We get through this stuff. You know that. It's all about faith. And the belief that God will get us through to our next good thing. You see it...you believe it...then it happens. There is a candle lit for you in my house tonight.

07-21-2005, 09:46 PM	#11 (permalink)
icefalcon Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: eden prairie, mn Posts: 51	hey gooch, know how you feel partner. feels like sometimes i work my a** off just to pay the bills. and we've been broke for the last week. just scratching enough to get by. but i do believe god gives us what we need when we need it, or are ready to except it. just received a promotion (why i have not posted in awhile) more money, but more work also. i still need to focus on my recovery and spirituality. i meditate and pray and even when i don't have time to post i still stop to read and keep up with whats going on with everyone. one day at a time, bro your in my prayers!

07-21-2005, 10:43 PM	#12 (permalink)
WNY Addict Just For Today Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Western New York Posts: 133	I too know exactly how you feel, Gooch. I was really hurting back in May financially. My wife and I were stable, but we didn't have anything to play with at all ($$$). There's a lot of awakening dreams that just weren't happening in my life. I prayed and meditated a lot, we were lucky enough to get a vacation to LV as a wedding gift... and I came back with a hellbent attitude to change where I was financially. I lost quite a few good paying jobs in my addiction, and the last one I had in May was on the lowest end of the totem pole for my profession. I came home from LV, threw out three resumes, and I got called for two interviews within days of sending out the resumes. I mean I sent those things out on a Tuesday and I was interviewing by Friday. To make a long story short, I found that job that I was looking for... the one that recovery opened the door for me to find. I'm still in the st as far as savings and $$$ to do some much needed renovations, but by next spring we're going to be just fine. All I know Is that I just have to keep doing the right things for the right reasons and all will be well. The 2006 Fatboy WILL** be sitting in the driveway next May... with all the trimmings __________________ God, take my will & my life, Guide me in my recovery, Show me how to live, Just For Today! Identify with the sick and suffering addict... don't judge!

07-21-2005, 11:22 PM	#13 (permalink)
Gooch Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: out there... Posts: 2,654	Thanks everyone for all the offers and encouragement. I know I'll make it through like I always do. I stopped off at a pity party and stayed too long. On top of having a long weekend where I indulged myslef a bit and spent about $70 (thinking I was going to have a couple days of work this week) I had so much fun I got tired and wore myself out, and caught a head cold. Guilt trip fodder ya know? What kind of good responsible, productive, martyr goes and blows $30 in gas and another $40 on food and participant fees for a benefit ride, when he hasn't paid the Visa?

07-21-2005, 11:50 PM	#15 (permalink)
Ann Forum Leader Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake Posts: 25,173	Gooch Everything you need will be provided, you already know that, yes? Special prayers going out for your friend, that she sails through this and recovers quickly. Hugs Ann __________________ “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” ~Winnie the Pooh~

07-21-2005, 11:54 PM	#16 (permalink)
Gooch Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: out there... Posts: 2,654	I did hear from my friend. She's home and the surgeon gave her good news. The Cysts were benign! They did find the source of her painand corrected it. Lets just say that some internal components had gotten tangled up. You guys/gals are awesome as always.

07-22-2005, 08:17 AM	#19 (permalink)
BikerBill8 Greatful Sober Biker Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Cottonwood AZ. Posts: 521	Hey Gooch, Glad to here about your friend is ok. Hey my friend i am in the same boat as you are i am not making enough to live where i am at and i have stoped off on the pity pot too. But i know that i will be ok i have faith in my HP. Hang in there Bro. __________________

07-22-2005, 08:52 AM	#20 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	(((Gooch))) I am so glad she is better. And you will be fine to, it always works out sometimes it just takes a little longer than we want it to. Sending prayers for your peace and your friends quick recovery. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

07-22-2005, 08:58 AM	#22 (permalink)
quercusalba Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Kingston, NY Posts: 390	Hey there, Gooch - First of all - so glad to hear your friend will be ok! That's wonderful. Secondly, thank you for sharing your struggles... your words have helped me have greater strength of mind and purpose on this day - things that I sorely needed. please take care... and my thoughts are with you. --anne __________________ "The lure of the distant and the difficult is deceptive. The great opportunity is where you are." --John Burroughs

07-22-2005, 09:23 AM	#23 (permalink)
Ann Forum Leader Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake Posts: 25,173	That's wonderful news Gooch. What a relief that must be for her and for you also, I'm sure. Hugs Ann __________________ “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” ~Winnie the Pooh~

07-22-2005, 06:20 PM	#24 (permalink)
namommy Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Never, Never land Posts: 2,851 Blog Entries: 1	Hey Gooch, Glad to hear your friend is OK. I hope you can see that it was money well spent. You did a good thing. Love ya' Laurie __________________ I came into this program to save my a** and found out it was attached to my soul. -- Anonymous

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