I Need some Advice Help

[Chance]

Hi everyone I am doing really good, but I have a situation that is about to happen and I am not sure what to do. My children will be here tomorrow, and I am very happy about that because I have not seen them for almost two months now. The problem that I am having, and I don't know exactly what to do or say or if I should just let it go.

Last time they were here, I was really **** up on drugs, that is putting it mild. I didn't know my @ss from the hole in the ground and really don't remember too much about them being here. I think that they know that I was all doped up again, but I have never brought it up in conversation. I am really scared to tell them the truth, cause the mother of my children told me that if I ever get back on dope that I will never see them again. So I have for the last year been lying to them because I am scared that I won't see them again.

They will be here tomorrow morning about 7 from Kansas, so I have less than 15 hours to come up with a solution. and that is why I am here. I don't want to use, but I am tired of lying and I don't want to loose my visits with my kids. I know that the answers are in the steps but I am on step 4 right now, but I can not get it done before 7 in the morning, nor do I want to attempt it because I know that there are steps after that and I am trying to do things differant today.

I have not used since the last time they were here and am very happy about that, but this is eating me up right now. So if anyone could please help with a solution, I would appreciate it alot. Thank you all for being here.

[In memory of miracle]

Congradulations on your 2 months! You didn't say how old your kids are.What does your sponser say ?

[lonlion]

Hi Vic, I think it would definately depend on how old they are. If they are under 8 or 10, then I maybe wouldn't say anything except that you appologize if you ignored them or they didn't enjoy your other past visits.
If older, and you know that they are aware of your problem, then it would probably be good to just say that you are clean and working on getting your life in order. Appologize for anything that may have hurt them in the past because of your using. Ask them if they want or need to discuss anything with you.

Try to just enjoy your time with them and not beat yourself up. They just want to spend quality time with you, and now you are able to do that. Congrats my friend.
Hope this helps
Diana

[Chance]

Well I should have mentioned there age sorry I am still koko for coco puffs. LOL The little girl well my little girl turned 14 today and my boy is 15 will be 16 in August. I am just scared that if I say anything that they will tell there mother and I won't be able to see them anymore, but I don't like not being honest. If I was using I wouldn't care, I have to pay for my mistakes but that is a big price to pay if I never see them until they are out of school