Right back to go..ugh!

[golf99]

I posted last May saying I was clean...didn't last. I'm back using hydro. My Doc. cut me off so I went to my Dentist, I've got 2 bad teeth that do need to come out. So he offered pain meds. I took them. I have been postponing the dentist in hopes to get more pain meds. I called this Morning and they said no more, they don't know I'm addicted. So I am out. LAST one taken was this morn. 15 mg. hydro. I feel like calling back the dentist and saying I'm in alot of pain and need the pills untill I can clear my work schedule to get in. But i also feel as though i need to cold-turkey again. Wife will be major leagued pissed this time. She thought that i've been off sine May. It will be hard to hide the WD'S from her as the hours pass. I feel so bad, I was so proud to post that i beat it. I didn't beat it, it beat me. I can imagine going thru the WD'S again. No sleep, crazy legs, cramps..just sick as a dog. Should I try and get some more from Dentist and wean off? Any thoughts. Really in a bad place.

[Paulie]

I would suggest no to your idea of getting more. But, I am not a dr and no one here can advice your on WDing. Call your dr, be honest and get medical advice.

And how about a meeting? You will meet alot of people what have been right where you are.

[Andygirl]

How many was your dentist giving you that you got physically addicted again? Seems like it would take more than any dentist would write.

And Paulie is right, consider going to a meeting. That is, if you really want to stop.

[In memory of miracle]

I am sorry you are having such a hard time. I have been there afew times myself. Its really tough. Any way you can get yourself into a detox? A treatment center? My prayers are with you. Bless, Trish

[BRUCE]

i know from experience that after that first narcotic habit it doesent take much to acquire another ,,,,,,,,,,,i get so discouraged sometimes when somebody that is useing reaches out for help on line,i feel so powerless,,i just cant find the words to take away their problem,,and it is very disturbing for me,,i type my morning prayer,suggest to them to take steaming hot baths,but deep down inside i allmost know that nothing i say is going to help them,,out here in the real world i have detox connections ,,one or two phone calls and a bed is avalible within 1 to 3 days,,,even then i still feel that the odds are against the still useing addict,,i mean he/she is out of detox in 3 to 5 days,,walking out of that detox dope sick,he/ she doesent want to go to a t.c.,,i can relate to that,when i was in the grip,i would not even consider takeing 6-10-12 months out of my stinking life to help myself ,so i give em 20-50 bucks and drop them off,,why did i even bother to help them get into detox,,or better yet,why did i even return thier phone call?i realy dont know what exactly i am trying to explain,,maybe its just that i get so discouraged.

huggs bruce

[Gooch]

Originally Posted by golf99

But i also feel as though i need to cold-turkey again. Wife will be major leagued pissed this time. She thought that i've been off sine May. It will be hard to hide the WD'S from her as the hours pass. I feel so bad, I was so proud to post that i beat it. I didn't beat it, it beat me. I can imagine going thru the WD'S again. No sleep, crazy legs, cramps..just sick as a dog. Should I try and get some more from Dentist and wean off? Any thoughts. Really in a bad place.

Remember this vividly, and if/when you get through this withdrawl, it could be your last.


I get up every day, remember I'm an addict and don't use no matter what.

I'm not bitter about it, No matter how many X's or I's on my anniversary medallion, i remember this is a one day at a time deal.

call a detox and ask them how to ease the withdrawl. Bruce has som e good suggestoins for the cramping and sick feelings.

Bruce I know the discouragement your talking about. I go to a 1/2way house meeting regularly. But I look for the hope there too. I see addicts getting clean as well as the ones who are looking for a stopping point to get their strength back for another go on the merry go round.

Sometimes I see them again and sometimes I don't Sometimes I get word they are dead, or doing time.

It says in the Basic Text that nothing will stop an addict from using until they are ready. Nothing. Best thing i know to do is actively participat in that prayer at the end of the meeting for the addict who still suffers. There's strength in numbers and when we stop for that moment of silence, thres a whole lot of brain energy reaching out to the addict who still suffers.

That and taking time to listen and talk to them before/after meetings. Letting them know theres a way out.