90 in 90 ANXIETY HELP!!!

[want2Bclean]

Hi,

I have been clean now 8 days after a stint in rehab that I admitted myself to and I am determined to do the 90 meetings in 90 days this but an getting frustrated b/c today is my fouth meeting since being out of the rehab ans it is a different place everyday and different people everyday and finding the location frustrates me and they arent always close to me, and I dont have a sponser and dont know how I will find one when I go to a different meeting everyday of the week.

Please give me any advice I had a pretty hard withdarwel from benzos and this is making me anxious and almost sick feeling.

Thanks,
want

[nutz]

Congrats on the 8 days

Take it one day at a time, five minutes at a time.
Keep hitting those meeting no matter what.
Hang on to your ass
Keep coming back no matter what.
Hang out before and after meetings
Get a Basic Text or It Works, How and WHY and read it even if it dosen't make sense.

I did 3 meetings a day sometimes. I couldn't get into treatment.
Felt like crap, ****-off at the world and myself.
Pressure or tension in my head

I started myday over anythime I wanted or had to. A suggestion that someone gave me. I took showers 4-5 times a day to start my day over as many times as it
takes.

A simple straight forward program for me.
It cutted thur the BS
I had to do it for myself and I wanted it. That's the KEY nobody
can give me.
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink.

I had nobody to blame for my actions and I new that...but I was FREE.

I started memorzing the 12 steps and 12 traditions just for kicks,
even if I didn't understood them or what the hell it was all about.

keep re-posting

[Roxann]

Great advise Nuts. :bravo

:congrats Want. You have taken a huge step, 8 days is awesome. Follow Nuts' advice, it'll take you where you want to go.

Keep talking to us, this site is a great recovery tool.

[want2Bclean]

Hi,

I am sticking it out. I went to a meeting tonite back at the hospital where I was in rehab b/c I didnt know where else to go. I shared for the first time about my anxiety about not being able to find a sponser and one of the two woman there told me about a meeting tomorrow that is all women and there will almost definately be a sponser there for me. I told her I would go, but am again frustrated b/c this isnt exactly close to my house.

I'm haning in,
want

[Evanna]

Hi Want,
It will get easier. When you go back to those same meetings next week you will know the locations and recognise some of the faces. Before long you will be calling one of those meetings your home group and the people in it friends.

It is hard and scary in the beginning. Big up to you for sticking with it.
Warmest Wishes
Evanna.

[WNY Addict]

Sometimes I get the meeting blues. I know how you feel, and we've all been there.

When I feel like that I always remember that I'd drive to hell and back to get my drug of choice while actively using. I'd go out in the snow, the rain... whatever. I'd deal with people I didn't know, people I didn't trust, et cetera.

Each time you go to a new meeting... it's no longer new. You'll get to know faces, and soon enough you'll notice that those same faces show up everywhere you go for your meetings.

When I first got here I didn't know anyone. Now I can't go to a meeting without knowing 99% of the group. The only people I don't know are the new folks, and we put all our energy into getting to know them when we see them at their first meeting

Keep going

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Try going to the same meeting every day for a while. Give youself a break. When you feel better then you can branch out.