Day 5 for a crack head

[Buny]

Guys
Well it is day 5 and I am starting to feel human. I am not denying my feelings anymore but to the best of my ability I am trying to feel them. That is what someone suggested and it does work. Instead of running and hiding I have allowed 1 month to feel what I need to feel and deal with it. I am to the best of my ability being honest with myself and others in my life. I want to have my life back. I have not gone to any meetings because my timing belt went out on my car that is suppose to be fixed today. Thank you so much for welcoming me back again. I really do need your continued support and am grateful for all of you.
Thank you
Bunny

[servicejunkie]

Congratulations on your five days buny!! Any day without drugs is a miracle if you are an addict like myself. Somebody definately gave you some good suggestions, all it takes is the willingness on your part. H.O.W.- Honesty, Openmindedness, and Willingness!! I know some recovering addicts over in St. Pete, not to far from my neck of the woods. I had to allow people in NA to show me how to feel properly!! Something I'm definately still working on, but it gets better. Mike

[HERAIRNESS]

Congrats dear lady!! Every day you get to feel better and better. My prayers are with you as always!
Carole

[nutz]

5 days. congrats.

feelings.....
I'm taking this from the NA basic text. Not word for word, but
the general idea.

When an addict stops using it can be a very painful time.
Like a fish out of water
This is beyound the withdraws. This why we relaps and
go back to using again. The pain can be accumilated
with shame, guilt or remose for some of the stuff we've done
or lost.
So don't keep up no matter what.

However the most pain is mix with fear of lost or what will I do
without drugs. How can I live or go on ?
Drugs was our best friend, lover, etc.
A relationship it was. In a break up of a relationship we must
grieve so we can LET GO. It's can be an emotional roller coaster
or mental pain. I aint NUTZ without cuase.lol

decisions, decisions.....we usually make the wrong one first
or go back to what we've know, Doing the samething
or and over again and expecting differnt results. (insanity)
Thur it process we learnd however how much we want to let go,
we can't. We relized the disease is cunning, baffling and powerful.
STEP #1, I'm POWERLESS over my addiction, starts making sense.
Thur our experience (every avenue to escape) or a deep understanding
we relized we need help. BEATEN,.... so we're willing to belive in sum'in.
even if it seems corny
The greatest help we can seek is a POWER GREATER than our addiction.
Unconditional love or a loving power,or the big happy dude is what I choose.
By surrending to this power, as strange as it maybe.
WE DON"T HAVE TO FIGHT THE BATTLE ANY MORE.
what a relief and a life saver.lol

[servicejunkie]

man!! Sounds like you got a better edition of the text than I did!!!!!! Maybe if someone explained it to me like that, I would have gotten it a little easier. Still sounds just like I was, and is definately true to the point. That's why we addicts need a program so much, get rid of the drugs and we have no coping skills to deal with life and no clue how to live and enjoy life without drugs. Sometimes, its seems easier to stick with that familiar pain of using, that step into the fear of the unknown.

[nutz]

Everything I've learnd was tought to me or
giving by others thur thier experience.

AS servicejunkie had mention. Thur these trial times.
It is an up hill struggle. It is best that I hang out with
those who will support me. The best support I can get
is from another addict that has gone thur what I'm going
thur. They can't do it for me, but their experience will, strength
and hope will help me. They've been there and found a way out
of the pit of despear or understand what I'm going thur.
They tend to be less judgemental or have more compassion.
It takes one to know one.lol It is not an urban legend.
NA is where I get my support, I lack courage and need encouagement
Going to meetings is how I get some of it.
I also get a deep understanding that I'm not alone anymore.

[WNY Addict]

Welcome back to real living, Buny.

Just remember, one day/minute/second at a time. Whatever it takes