hello new to the site but not soberity

[rosepedilgirl]

i used alcohol until i started using crack cocaine.

crack became my drug of choice. took over all addcition quickly and when

took over my life for a long time,

came to recovery with an open mind ,, frazile mind.....

but i knew , i had to stay...

i was clean 3 years and i slipped, had alot of good reson. i thought why i let the addiction take control...

but after 7 month addicted again, i stopped ....

that was three years 2 months ago...

the last year and 2 month i haven't worked the program ,, witch i know i need!

so thats why iam here.....


being clean is important to me..... my life is busy and i own my own company witch does keep me going all the time,

in the evening i just crawl in bed to relax,,,

but life is just passing me bye.. thats what is bothering me!


iam 39 year old and live now like an old lady....


i work 12 hours a day and relax all eve and night..

i am single, and happy in alot of ways...

but !

i know i just can't go out in the bars , iam not willing to put myself out there again.....


the meetings in our area are not like '' big city meeetings.

we don't have the gatherings lot of other meets have...

where does an recovering addict find ... safe place to be......

and have fun in a good way.......

anyone help would be great iam pennsylvania, south west of pittsburgh..

looking for clean and sober places,, for a nice evening out.....

iam tired of saying hello to my pillow! just would like to meet others

looking for clean / safe friends.....


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[Evanna]

Originally Posted by rosepedilgirl

iam 39 year old and live now like an old lady....

Wow, i am so there with you on that one.

Welcome to the forum Rosepedilgirl.