I need you again today

[Buny]

Hey guys I need your support again today to get through. Need words of encouragement ES&H. It is going to be yet another long day and I need to lean on you once again. Still wanting and craving. I plan to attend a NA meeting tonight. Short term memory still a mess HELP.
Bunny

[Phinneas]

((((Bunny))))

Hang in there, Bunny. One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time--whatever it takes. The cravings do diminish and they will even go away. Each time you feel an urge but don't use, you'll get stronger. It'll get easier and easier. Right now it's hard, but don't lose the progress you've already made.

I am so glad you are going to a meeting tonight. Don't be afraid to share about the cravings. There will be people there who know what you are going through and can help.

You are on the right track, first getting clean and then working a program of recovery that will show you how to live a clean and sober life, 24 hours at a tims.

Let us know how you're doing today, OK?

jojo

[Buny]

Thanks Jojo
I hope that I can hang on just long enough to get out of work and get to a meeting. I truely do need people to lean on. It is just so hard especially with my boyfriend wanting to continue to use. He had said he was ready but was wanting me to go and buy for him last night. Remember me in your prayers please
Bunny

[Moontime]

Buny, I've been there, I have empathy for you. Crack was the drug of no choice that got me into the rooms of NA. A few relapses later More was my drug of choice, that being said, have you been to a meeting yet? If you have I would use the phone numbers that you got at your first meeting. Just go right down that list, and keep going. My phone list has saved me many times. If you haven't been to a meeting yet, please go tonight. It may save your life. You will get numbers there. Everybody has been in very similar shoes you've been in and can identify with what your feeling in those meetings and on this site. Hang in there, there is a power greater than yourself keeping you clean this very minute.

[Buny]

Thank you for your support. I am going to try and get to a meeting tonight. I know that I NEED to get to one. perhaps the blinders are still on perhaps my priorities are mixed up. I should put a meeting above my boyfriend who is still wanting to use. :yelling I guess that I must take care of myself it is for certain that he won't take care of me.

[Moontime]

Buny,
Go with your heart. If you think you need to get to a meeting, you should probably do so. I've been in a very similar situation that you are in. I dated someone for 9 years who couldn't stop using. Ultimately, I had to do what was best for me, that was getting into recovery. My life is so much better than it was. The gifts I have received have been priceless, compared to the misery that I was in. It wasn't easy, mainly because even though I knew the relationship was sinking like the Titanic, yet I could deal with that familiar pain. I had a hard time, not knowing what was going to happen next if I stayed clean and ended the relationship. I'm not one to judge any relationship on whether you should stay in it or not, that's for you, but I do know that if I didn't get into recovery for myself, I would be in jail, institutionalized or death. My suggestion would be get to a meeting and pray that he'll see your path and follow. He's not going to surrender until he's done using. I was done using, but my SO of 9 years wasn't. It was painful, but I had to stand on my two feet. Know that you are loved, and that we have faith in you to find recovery.

[Buny]

I know that you are right but you would think that spending 35 out of 49 years in prison would have been enough. He had said that he wasn't happy while using but I guess he has not been unhappy enough. He is one of those rich boys so there isn't much for him to loose. Anyhow enough for him THIS IS ABOUT ME. I have got to do this. I am not a rich girl and I do not want to sink to the point that I can't recover. I have myself and my kids to think about. My daughter is also into drugs pot and beans my son well he is only 5 but I do not want him to go down this path. He is a kind loving little boy and I do love them both. Thank You for your insight I only hope that I have the strength to follow through what I know to be right.
Bunny

[Shakur T.]

Yeah...It's decision time. At meetings I learned to stay away from people, places and things I used with and at. At meetings I learned that I was not so different and that if they could do it so could I. At meetings I learned that an addict alone is in bad company. At meetings I learned that, just for today, I didn't have to use. At meetings I learned to love myself. At meetings I learned that I was powerless over my disease, and my life was unmanageable. At meetings I got a sponsor who helped me sort through the mess I had made of my life.At meetings I learned what happened to people who didn't go to meetings...

When I didn't go to meetings, I learned....

peace

[jenniferaz1980]

Hey Buny,

I am an addict name Jenn. You know keep hanging in there and this too will pass. Take it one day at a time and when you think you can not hang on anymore take it one second at a time. You can do this too.

When you go to your meeting today share on how you feel right now. Dont be afraid. We have all been were you are today. Also get #s to call. That way when you feel like you do right now you not all have the people here at SR but you will have people in you area to call. None of us can do this alone. You know there used to be a saying back in the day. NA mean Never Alone Never Again!

((((((((((BUNY))))))))))

[Aa_vark]

Buny,

HI!!!!!!!!! Im so happy you are back here today! YoU were in my prayers last night, and since you asked, you are in again tonight, too... (your BF too...)

today, youre a miracle to me -

You said up above that you guess that you should put a meeting before your BF...

I ask you to consider this today, but change the thought a bit -

put a meeting before _blank_

go to a meeting! Before anything! Put meetings , and recovery at the top of your list . Just for today you are responsible for your recovery.

We dont do this alone. GO TO THE MEETING TONIGHT. Get a list of #'s. Get the book. Share...

May God find you there.

[Buny]

I am not quite sure what you are saying _ blank_ But i am planning on going to a meeting.I will get #s and I will call them but I will still relie on you guys as well. I am just so glad all of you are here and so accepting.

[Aa_vark]

I think i meant it like fill in the blank, before anything. Everything. First.

you said "I should put a meeting above my boyfriend who is still wanting to use. "

your right, you should put your recovery first.

Im sorry i wasnt so clear -

[WestCoastSwan]

Hey (((Buny)))

Just like members reminded me when I first posted and attended meetings, it takes courage to reach out. You are stronger than you think. Don't isolate yourself. It gets better. Lauren, addict, 14 days and counting.