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|10-20-2004, 04:41 AM||#1 (permalink)|
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Murfreesboro, TN
I'm having a hard time
I'm having a really hard time lately. About a year ago, I started using very heavily- I don't think I even progressed into using heavily, that was just the way I started off. Eventually it got to the point that I was doing about a gram every day or two. My using only lasted for around 6 months, but, as you see it was a pretty bad habit. At the beginning of the summer, I entered an IOP group for recovering addicts, and was enrolled for about a month and a half. While I was enrolled, I also attended NA meetings. After I finished my IOP program, though, I was working full time and didn't have much free time, so I stopped going to meetings. I still read my books every once in awhile, though, and held my coin while saying the serenity prayer whenever I felt the urge to start using again. I was clean for 5 months. About two weeks ago, though, I broke my clean time and used for an entire weekend. It wasn't a lot- maybe 2 lines each day- but it still ruined my clean time, nonetheless. I decided that it wasn't worth it, and that I was going to quit again. But tonight (or rather last night, Tuesday night) I don't know what I was thinking, but for some reason I didn't think twice when I picked up that rolled dollar bill and bent my head down to the table. I did about half a gram tonight, and upon returning home, I feel utterly guilty and terrible. In my IOP group, they always told us that rehabilitation won't neccessarily make you stop using, but it will make you not be able to enjoy it so much anymore. Maybe it's somewhat true- because although I didn't feel bad when I was using tonight, coming back home and sitting here alone and having to face myself doesn't make me happy at all. I really do want to stop. I know how bad it is for me, and I know that even if I think I can control it now- I won't be able to in the long run. It's that little demon sitting on my shoulder, whispering into my ear- vice. I want to stop, I do. I just am having such a hard time right now, and I need some support. I'd really appreciate someone that I could talk to.
|10-20-2004, 04:50 AM||#2 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jun 2004
Location: tulsa ok
Hi Galatea I just wanted to say I know how you feel.The first thing I wanted to say is stay away from people, places, and things were there is useing going on.um Also start going to meeting and try to find you a sponser that will help alot but first of all go to those meetings there are people there who can help you.I will keep you in my prayers.If you ever need to talk my e mail is email@example.com
"""To the World you might be One person,But to one person you just might be the world.
Real hero's are men who fail and are flawed,but win becouse they've stayed true to their ideals and beliefs and commitments.
addict named chris
|10-20-2004, 04:58 AM||#3 (permalink)|
the girl can't help it
Join Date: Apr 2004
Blog Entries: 3
I agree with Stud.... You need some phone numbers in your walet that you can call when you feel like you might use. Stay away from people places and things that get you back using. Don't give up!!!
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|10-20-2004, 06:35 AM||#4 (permalink)|
An Addict name Jerome.......
Join Date: Aug 2004
Location: Whitesburg, Georgia
Galatea, as Chris and splendra said, stay away from your playground, playmates, and playthings. Go back to your meetings and get those phone #s and use them, start looking for your sponsor. Any time you need to talk e-mail me firstname.lastname@example.org if your on AOL IM me, just don't give up.
Imagine "All The People Sharing All The World"......john lennon "There's a whole lot more of us freaks then they are those beautiful people"......frank zappa
|10-24-2004, 09:33 AM||#6 (permalink)|
Join Date: Oct 2004
I Can Relate
undefinedPURPLEI KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I AM HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME GETTING OFF SPEED RIGHT NOW. I HAVE BEEN USING THIS TIME SINCE NOV 2001. IT STARTED OFF SLOWLY AND NOW I AM SO AMAZED THAT I STILL HAVE MY JOB. I HAVE TO BE TO WORK TODAY AT 2PM AND HAVE ALREADY CALLED IN THE PAST 2 DAYS. I WEEL LIKE SUCH **** AND DON'T WANT TO GO IN TODAY. TODAY IS MY FRIDAY AND PLAN TO DETOX ON MY WEEKEND.
|10-24-2004, 01:58 PM||#7 (permalink)|
Join Date: May 2004
Location: Never, Never land
Blog Entries: 1
Hang in there. Follow some of the suggestions already given here, meetings, phone numbers, sponsor, and especially stay away from people, places and things.
I came into this program to save my a**
and found out it was attached to my soul. --
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