addicts

[blue_eyes18]

Hey, how is everyone today? Ok, I usually post in the Nar-anon part of this site, but I would really like an addicts view of what I am dealing with here. This guy who is a recovering heroin addict and I broke up about a month ago or so, not quite that long ago. At first he acted so normal, then told me he had the flu and quit coming around much. I still haven't decided for sure if it was just Klonopin withdrawals or maybe another withdrawal, like heroin! But he has been going to the Methadone clinic, so it couldn't be herion! He is supposed to be better than he has ever been. Ok anyways, when we first broke up, he came over 3 days later and said he wasn't thinking in his right mind when we broke up, then he changed form saying that to can we see each other but just not everyday? and then when he said something to make me think I shouldn't go around him for a while(nothing real mean or anything0 then I would run into him out in town while he was on his way home from the clinic that morning, or if I ever rarely stopped by, he would tell me how much he had missed me and how I need to be patient with him, blah blah. I don't know what to do. Can ya'll please tell me what he is doing? I know it simply looks like I am being used or just being stupid, but it really goes much deeper than that. Sometimes I think that he may be realizing things, that he does want something with me, he just can't have it right now b/c he is focusing on recovery too much and doesn't want to drag me through too much. Come to think it properly, I think that is exactly what is going on, after thinking about all our conversations and stuff. anyways, I all ears for some viewpoints. I just figure since ya'll are going through things he is either going through or gone through, ya'll could be of big help. The ones on the Nar-anon board have helped me tremendously, I am so greatful to have them to talk to about this. it doesn't help talking to others who don't know anything about this though. I appreciate this site so much. Don't ya'll agree that it is awesone??!!!!! Have a great day everyone!!!!!!!!!!!

[blue_eyes18]

And yes, by the way, I could have someone who is not on drugs or an addict or whatever, but I can't seem to shake him loose from me and quit caring. It is so hard not to see the real Jake sometimes.

[Moontime]

I'm moon and I'm an addict. Well it sounds like he's still using so he probably doesn't really know what he wants. He's going to the methadone clinic right? This maybe why he's so unsure, because I was confused about everything until I was completely off of everything and had done a 4th step. It's hard to tell what he wants at this point, imo.

[blue_eyes18]

Yeah, he is definitley confused. I just don't get why he is so confused, and what exactly he is confused about. I nkow that sounds kinda weird to say. I mean, does it make you to where you can't get in touch with your feelings, or do you have a hard time putting things involvong emotion together,(not trying to be a smart ass, I am just wondering, for real!) or what? That's what I don't get. Do you mean you think he is still shooting up? How can he do that if he is on methadone maintenance? I know that is what is confusing him, but why? Could it be that he is afraid to that he can't make good decisions while he is on Meth maintenance or something?

[abtchonamission]

Originally Posted by blue_eyes18

Do you mean you think he is still shooting up? How can he do that if he is on methadone maintenance?

Blue,
Sweetie, no one can answer whether he is still shooting up. And not to add fears to what you're already dealing with, I know a friend of my A used to leave the methadone clinic and go straight to Greenville to get heroin to shoot. I don't think that it means your addict is or isn't still getting high. If he is still shooting up, there will be marks. You can't worry yourself over every little thing - you're going to make yourself go :banghead:
You really need to take some time for you. Read a book, take a long bubble bath, call a friend and go shopping, spend time doing things that you like to do and will enjoy taking a break with. I'm really starting to be concerned that you are letting your worries over him consume you. Please take care of you, if you can't do it for yourself right now, do it for your little one. He is the most important one you've got, and you know that because I've read it in your posts.
Now go take care of you!!!! Or I'll send in a request that they get you with the bunny slipper. Remember that we all care, even if sometimes it may seem harsh.

Trisha