Does this feeling ever go away

[cady2004]

I dont quite get it but my sad feelings like just wanted to cry for no apparent reason is hitting me hard again.... i have 11 months 6 days and all of a sudden today i have felt like crying and getting high again.. i dont get it i have tried to sit and think what is triggering me to oppsess with the idea. All i can say is THANK GOD i have outlets like here to voice my opinon rather than go and do something stupid. i dont know if it is because i made a major move just a month ago and miss going to my weekly meetings that i went to back home. or what it is I know i should be jumping in to service here because i was in service since i had 30 days clean back in CA and since i got her to NY i have hit 3 meeting but theyare not like they are in CA and i seem to feel like i dont fit in...okay i know that sounds stupid nad maybe it is an excuse.. Dont know but i need input here PLEASE help me with you experience,strengh and hope ...thank you

[cj.]

These feelings that you have right now will go away. Just don't use.

It sounds to me like you may be suffering from Post Acute Withdrawal. This is a subject that I don't hear a lot about in recovery meetings, but it is a real biological process that is usually triggered by stressful situations.

It sounds to me like you are under a great deal of stress right now, especially with moving and a year clean coming up. Each day clean for an addict is a lot of stress as it is, so if you pile on more, chances are that you are going to feel it somewhere inside of you.

Don't take my word as gospel though, because I am not a professional.
A site you might like to check out is The Living Center who specialize in relapse prevention and have a great article on PAW.

www.tlctx.com

You can also try the SR site right here. I think they have some other links.

Don't give up the fight, you have come too far and you are worth fighting for.

cj

[Dawn10]

Cady,
You have made some major changes in your life in the past year. They are catching up with you, but you don't have to allow these feelings to get you down. You are so much healthier than you were 11 months ago and you are thinking clearly enough to recognize that you don't feel right! That is a great thing, because when we used, we never allowed ourselves to feel anything but the high the drugs gave us.
You have the right instinct--find a meeting, keep busy, keep posting here.
Hang in there. You WILL feel better.
Work those steps!

[sherbear5104]

Cady,

It could just be the weather here. Moving from nice warm CA to cold and gloomy NY. LOL. Really, though, I would look into the PAWS thing. I remember hearing something like that in my outpatient counseling. They said it could take awhile to notice some of the symtoms.

Sherry

[devin]

Cady2004, I can definitely identify. It's only been a few days for me. Just last night I was crying in my sleep. I had this morbid feeling of gloom and doom and there was nothing I could do about it. Luckily, I was back at home with me parents or I'm not sure what I would have done. I do feel that this will go away. I didn't pick up last night... and I'm ok now. I don't know if that helps or not... but I definitely identify.

[splendra]

Cady-

Hang in and check the links out too...((((((BIG HUG)))))))

[cady2004]

Thank you all for your imput.. I am determined to find a meeting that i like and not to give in to my thoughts that would like nothing better than to see me back in hell. I have alot going for me and i konw that this is just a FEELING not a reality of what life is right now.... i will keep posting and reaching out and i will check out hte sites you recommended thank you all.