Meth: it takes it all

[Lostinthetwirl]

Im 22 I have been smoking meth for almost a yr now it has become the only thing I have left i havent used in almost 48 hr but n its so hard...but I tell myself I dont want it anymore it slowly took my life from me I lost my husband my home n myself to this drug how can I b so poweful..i am so sad all I do is cry n Im exhausted I want my life back...lets see if I can take it

[Threshold]

You sound as if you are in a place where, in some crazy inside out way, you are in a perfect situation to totally dive into recovery. Find a rehab, I hear Salvation Army has free rehab for anyone willing to stay clean. Dive in, start over, get help, support and protection.

I'm glad you're here.

[Kristyncasey]

I am also new to the forum but I know how you are feeling.
Congrats on taking a step in the right direction....
I have been off of meth since October 5th (only in thanks to a 60 day sit in county jail), but it saved my life.
I have been a heavy IV user for over a year and I lost SO MUCH. Fortunately I am still here to get better.
I will agree with you, it is a very powerful drug, more powerful then anyone could ever imagine unless they have experienced it.
The tiredness and lack of motivation and energy will go away, but it will take time. Just make sure you surround yourself with people who are pushing you in a positive direction and not in the direction of relapse.
My boyfriend and I have both been in recovery for 6 (him going on 7) months and it is possible, no matter what hurdles you have to face.
If you need to talk or anything let me know, I am 28 yrs old and I definitely know what your are going through.

Keep your head up.
It will all be worth it in the long run.

[War]

Its hard I've been battling getting off for 4 years and even though Ive had my longest sobriety this past year...I find myself slowing going back to everyday use. I know the things I should be doing to stay clean yet I ignore everything I've learned and how far I've come. I beat myself up everytime hoping to associate pain with meth use so I won't want to use it anymore. Can't say that has been working its a hard battle I can't stop fighting thats all the advice I can offer Keep fighting!!!