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tink360 · 04-30-2007, 10:42 AM

I havent been on here in a really long time, but I need to be. I used to go to meetings every single day and Ive accumilated 16 months clean. But then I started going to a school called Job Corps and I havent made it to a meeting since I been here. I can feel it getting to me. My behaviors are changing back to the way I was in my using days and I find myself thinking that it would be okay to relapse. Alot of the students get drunk or high here and sometimes I just want to be a part of it. Hell, its kind of like a college environment and I have been going through some **** with my ex and it would feel good to just take a break from the sobriety **** sometimes. Instead of relapsing on drugs, I went of and started having a relationship with someone who already has a girlfriend. which is something that I used to also do, so in a sense i feel like im relapsing. Just because Im repeating old behaviors. I dont know. I know that Im going to be going on here more often. This site used to help me alot when I was starting off and I just stopped coming on here because I was hanging out at the recovery club 24/7. Now Im in Chicago and I dont know the area and Im afraid to leave campus on my own because I know If I do I will definately get into trouble. I dont want to lose my sobriety, but I feel like im losing my sanity. Just alot of things that I have going on in my head right now. I dont know. Any suggestions or just words of encouragement would help. Thanks

andyaddict · 04-30-2007, 10:49 AM

Get to a meeting ASAP, being the first to share and share HONESTLY about what's going on. Then sit back and enjoy the ride.

a

tink360 · 04-30-2007, 10:53 AM

I want to go to a meeting but I am nervous about the area. Im in an area that im not familier with not to mention that I dont have transportation. Does anyone know of a website that I can put in an adress and it will tell me the meetings closest to me. Maybe that would help me find something close.

Knitting Knurse · 04-30-2007, 11:08 AM

I'm new here so I can't post links, so go to the official NA website (na.org) and in there, click on "NA Meeting Search" which takes you to a page where you can search for meetings in your area by zip code.

Get there.

Left foot, right foot, don't forget to breathe...and don't use between breaths!

Oh, and tell your mind to shut the heck up.

Chance · 04-30-2007, 11:34 AM

Try this out

Chicago Temple 77 West Washington
Chicago, IL 60601
Yahoo! Map
At Clark Street Wednesday 12:00 Yes Discussion/Participation
Chicago Temple 77 West Washington
Chicago, IL 60601
Yahoo! Map
At Clark Street Wednesday 12:00 Yes
Chicago Temple 77 West Washington
#420C
Chicago, IL 60601
Yahoo! Map
At Clark Street Friday 12:00 Yes Basic Text, Non-Smoking
446 East Ontario Street
7-301
Chicago, IL 60611
Yahoo! Map
Monday 18:00 No Estimated Miles: 0.6

Lawson YMCA 30 West Chicago Avenue
Green Room
Chicago, IL 60610
Yahoo! Map
Tuesday 20:00 Yes Estimated Miles: 1.1

Union Park Field House 1501 West Randolph
Chicago, IL 60607
Yahoo! Map
Monday 18:30 Yes Estimated Miles: 1.6

515 West Polk Street
Chicago, IL 60607
Yahoo! Map
Monday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6

Sweet Holy Spirit 103 Morgan
Chicago, IL 60607
Yahoo! Map
Wednesday 10:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6

Haymarket 943 West Washington Boulevard
Chicago, IL 60607
Yahoo! Map
Thursday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6

933 West Washington Boulevard
Chicago, IL 60607
Yahoo! Map
Saturday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6

Mount Sinai Hospital 1500 South Fairfield
Chicago, IL 60622
Yahoo! Map
Tuesday 18:30 Yes Non-Smoking Estimated Miles: 2.6

Mount Sinai Hospital 1500 South Fairfield
Chicago, IL 60622
Yahoo! Map
Thursday 19:00 Yes Step, Non-Smoking Estimated Miles: 2.6

Advocate Illinois Masonic Medical Center 836 West Wellington
Chicago, IL 60614
Yahoo! Map
Sunday 15:00 Yes Non-Smoking Estimated Miles: 2.7

Advocate Illinois Masonic Medical Center 836 West Wellington
Chicago, IL 60614
Yahoo! Map
Thursday 20:00 No Step Estimated Miles: 2.7

Meeting Place 1641 West Deversey Parkway
Chicago, IL 60614
Yahoo! Map
The entrance is located around the back. Saturday 17:00 Yes Women Estimated Miles: 2.7

SASI 2107 South Indiana
Chicago, IL 60616
Yahoo! Map
Monday 18:00 Yes Basic Text, Topic, Discussion/Participation Estimated Miles: 2.9

Mercy Hospital 2600 South King Drive
Chicago, IL 60616
Yahoo! Map
Tuesday 19:30 Yes Basic Text Estimated Miles: 2.9

Christ The Mediator Lutheran Church 3101 South Calumet Avenue
Chicago, IL 60616
Yahoo! Map
Friday 19:00 Yes Questions & Answers Estimated Miles: 2.9

2500 South Prairie
Chicago, IL 60616
Yahoo! Map
Saturday 09:30 Yes Step, Tradition Estimated Miles: 2.9

Mount Sinai Church 2841 West Washington
Chicago, IL 60612
Yahoo! Map
Monday 16:30 Yes Estimated Miles: 3.1

-- First 10 -- -- Previous 10 -- -- Next 10 -- -- Last 10 --
Cathedral Shelter 1668 West Ogden Avenue
Conference Room
Chicago, IL 60612
Yahoo! Map
Tuesday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 3.1

2100 West Warren Boulevard
Chicago, IL 60612
Yahoo! Map
Tuesday 19:30 Yes Estimated Miles: 3.1

Bobby Wright Center 9 South Kedzie
Chicago, IL 60612
Yahoo! Map
Wednesday 18:00 Yes Estimated Miles: 3.1

University of Illinois Hospital 1740 West Taylor Street
Dining Room A
Chicago, IL 60612
Yahoo! Map
Wednesday 18:30 No Estimated Miles: 3.1

Here is Chicago's Central Office you might be able to get ahold of someone at the number to get a ride also

You can email us at info@chicagona.org,
fax us at (708) 450-1885,
or write us at:

Chicago Service Office, Inc.
1701 S First Ave, Ste 508A
Maywood, Illinois 60153

Tink this is Vic AKA Luckyv2 I am glad to see you here. Remember that treating our illness has to be first or we will loose everything else anyways.

Don't beat yourself up and KCB

With Love and Respect

Vic

conner · 04-30-2007, 02:43 PM

haya tink360...hang in there ok, you are already an inspiration to get so far and do so well and go to a school and place you don't know; this is a sure sign of your strength and capability for change and shows that you are sure of yourself to take and try new steps in life, new challenges and while doing this you have maintained your determination for sobriety even if you feel you are crashing or letting yourself down as far as old habbits go (<----longest sentence ever haha sorry) So many have inspired me in this place in such a short space of time and that very much includes you and I hope you can maintain the strength I can already see in you...I will try my hardest too of course...its important to keep respect and love for life xxx

tink360 · 04-30-2007, 03:22 PM

Thank you all for the support. Wow, Vic. thank you so much for those. I wrote them down and Im going to check the buses and start doing some research on where they are held so I can get there. I guess Im really nervous about this area. Ive heard horrible things about people getting stabbed down the street and it trips me out. I talked to some people here last week and there is a girl who used to be in the program but decided to stop going. She is still clean (well, she drinks) but she is the only person that I know here who knows NA, so I asked her and she said she is willing to go back with me. So I feel a sense of relief knowing that I wont be alone. I know that I will do well. I have just been feeling really down lately. But the support here helps. Thank God that I remembered that this was here. Now I can come on here everyday. Its already making me feel better.

daydream · 05-07-2007, 01:29 AM

Hey Tink,
Chance gave you some great info there. I bet you could also call a local NA helpline and get another male (assuming you are male) to pick you up for the meeting. If you do the work to arrange for that first meeting, you can get phone numbers and arrange rides on a regular basis. Please check back in and let us know how it goes!

tink360 · 05-07-2007, 04:33 PM

I am a female. I did find the number to another females number that I could call. I dont have a phone where I am at and they only let you use the phone like once a day. Which I use that phone call to call my family. Plus it is only a 5 min call, but this weekend I get to go home and I intend on calling then.

Stoned Cold · 06-07-2007, 02:55 AM

Hey..I just wanted to say i wish you alot of luck, you know the first step is knowing the problem and the second step is doing something about it so, i really feel like you got a good head on your shoulders, and i know how the relationship drama goes, have had alot myself..blah..but anyway, goodluck with things, and stay strong. (I added you to my friend list on yahoo btw)

bigdaddy68 · 06-11-2007, 03:28 AM

hey tink, just hang in there and remember all the good you have done so far. put your mind in a positive mode and move forward, i know its tough, make the steps in the right direction just try not to take some steps back focus you will be fine!!!!

**Phinneas** · 06-11-2007, 09:22 PM

How are you doing, tink?

Check in when you can. We're pulling for you!

04-30-2007, 10:42 AM	#1 (permalink)
tink360 Think Happy Thoughts Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: cHiCaGo iL Posts: 245	Losing it I havent been on here in a really long time, but I need to be. I used to go to meetings every single day and Ive accumilated 16 months clean. But then I started going to a school called Job Corps and I havent made it to a meeting since I been here. I can feel it getting to me. My behaviors are changing back to the way I was in my using days and I find myself thinking that it would be okay to relapse. Alot of the students get drunk or high here and sometimes I just want to be a part of it. Hell, its kind of like a college environment and I have been going through some ** with my ex and it would feel good to just take a break from the sobriety ** sometimes. Instead of relapsing on drugs, I went of and started having a relationship with someone who already has a girlfriend. which is something that I used to also do, so in a sense i feel like im relapsing. Just because Im repeating old behaviors. I dont know. I know that Im going to be going on here more often. This site used to help me alot when I was starting off and I just stopped coming on here because I was hanging out at the recovery club 24/7. Now Im in Chicago and I dont know the area and Im afraid to leave campus on my own because I know If I do I will definately get into trouble. I dont want to lose my sobriety, but I feel like im losing my sanity. Just alot of things that I have going on in my head right now. I dont know. Any suggestions or just words of encouragement would help. Thanks __________________ When you change the way you look at things; The things you look at change.

04-30-2007, 10:53 AM	#3 (permalink)
tink360 Think Happy Thoughts Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: cHiCaGo iL Posts: 245	I want to go to a meeting but I am nervous about the area. Im in an area that im not familier with not to mention that I dont have transportation. Does anyone know of a website that I can put in an adress and it will tell me the meetings closest to me. Maybe that would help me find something close. __________________ When you change the way you look at things; The things you look at change.

04-30-2007, 11:08 AM	#4 (permalink)
Knitting Knurse Oblique Reflections Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: IEW Native Posts: 7	I'm new here so I can't post links, so go to the official NA website (na.org) and in there, click on "NA Meeting Search" which takes you to a page where you can search for meetings in your area by zip code. Get there. Left foot, right foot, don't forget to breathe...and don't use between breaths! Oh, and tell your mind to shut the heck up. __________________ ---------------------------- In the dead of addiction's winter, I discovered that there is in me, an invincible summer. and... A house isn't a home without cats, no outfit is complete without cat hair on it, and everything tastes better with cat hair IN it.

04-30-2007, 11:34 AM	#5 (permalink)
Chance JUST DO IT!! Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Here Or There Posts: 7,097 Blog Entries: 9	Try this out Chicago Temple 77 West Washington Chicago, IL 60601 Yahoo! Map At Clark Street Wednesday 12:00 Yes Discussion/Participation Chicago Temple 77 West Washington Chicago, IL 60601 Yahoo! Map At Clark Street Wednesday 12:00 Yes Chicago Temple 77 West Washington #420C Chicago, IL 60601 Yahoo! Map At Clark Street Friday 12:00 Yes Basic Text, Non-Smoking 446 East Ontario Street 7-301 Chicago, IL 60611 Yahoo! Map Monday 18:00 No Estimated Miles: 0.6 Lawson YMCA 30 West Chicago Avenue Green Room Chicago, IL 60610 Yahoo! Map Tuesday 20:00 Yes Estimated Miles: 1.1 Union Park Field House 1501 West Randolph Chicago, IL 60607 Yahoo! Map Monday 18:30 Yes Estimated Miles: 1.6 515 West Polk Street Chicago, IL 60607 Yahoo! Map Monday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6 Sweet Holy Spirit 103 Morgan Chicago, IL 60607 Yahoo! Map Wednesday 10:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6 Haymarket 943 West Washington Boulevard Chicago, IL 60607 Yahoo! Map Thursday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6 933 West Washington Boulevard Chicago, IL 60607 Yahoo! Map Saturday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 1.6 Mount Sinai Hospital 1500 South Fairfield Chicago, IL 60622 Yahoo! Map Tuesday 18:30 Yes Non-Smoking Estimated Miles: 2.6 Mount Sinai Hospital 1500 South Fairfield Chicago, IL 60622 Yahoo! Map Thursday 19:00 Yes Step, Non-Smoking Estimated Miles: 2.6 Advocate Illinois Masonic Medical Center 836 West Wellington Chicago, IL 60614 Yahoo! Map Sunday 15:00 Yes Non-Smoking Estimated Miles: 2.7 Advocate Illinois Masonic Medical Center 836 West Wellington Chicago, IL 60614 Yahoo! Map Thursday 20:00 No Step Estimated Miles: 2.7 Meeting Place 1641 West Deversey Parkway Chicago, IL 60614 Yahoo! Map The entrance is located around the back. Saturday 17:00 Yes Women Estimated Miles: 2.7 SASI 2107 South Indiana Chicago, IL 60616 Yahoo! Map Monday 18:00 Yes Basic Text, Topic, Discussion/Participation Estimated Miles: 2.9 Mercy Hospital 2600 South King Drive Chicago, IL 60616 Yahoo! Map Tuesday 19:30 Yes Basic Text Estimated Miles: 2.9 Christ The Mediator Lutheran Church 3101 South Calumet Avenue Chicago, IL 60616 Yahoo! Map Friday 19:00 Yes Questions & Answers Estimated Miles: 2.9 2500 South Prairie Chicago, IL 60616 Yahoo! Map Saturday 09:30 Yes Step, Tradition Estimated Miles: 2.9 Mount Sinai Church 2841 West Washington Chicago, IL 60612 Yahoo! Map Monday 16:30 Yes Estimated Miles: 3.1 -- First 10 -- -- Previous 10 -- -- Next 10 -- -- Last 10 -- Cathedral Shelter 1668 West Ogden Avenue Conference Room Chicago, IL 60612 Yahoo! Map Tuesday 19:00 No Estimated Miles: 3.1 2100 West Warren Boulevard Chicago, IL 60612 Yahoo! Map Tuesday 19:30 Yes Estimated Miles: 3.1 Bobby Wright Center 9 South Kedzie Chicago, IL 60612 Yahoo! Map Wednesday 18:00 Yes Estimated Miles: 3.1 University of Illinois Hospital 1740 West Taylor Street Dining Room A Chicago, IL 60612 Yahoo! Map Wednesday 18:30 No Estimated Miles: 3.1 Here is Chicago's Central Office you might be able to get ahold of someone at the number to get a ride also You can email us at info@chicagona.org, fax us at (708) 450-1885, or write us at: Chicago Service Office, Inc. 1701 S First Ave, Ste 508A Maywood, Illinois 60153 Tink this is Vic AKA Luckyv2 I am glad to see you here. Remember that treating our illness has to be first or we will loose everything else anyways. Don't beat yourself up and KCB With Love and Respect Vic __________________ With Love and Respect Vic Life isn't yesterday or tomorrow it is in the now.....

04-30-2007, 03:22 PM	#7 (permalink)
tink360 Think Happy Thoughts Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: cHiCaGo iL Posts: 245	Thank you all for the support. Wow, Vic. thank you so much for those. I wrote them down and Im going to check the buses and start doing some research on where they are held so I can get there. I guess Im really nervous about this area. Ive heard horrible things about people getting stabbed down the street and it trips me out. I talked to some people here last week and there is a girl who used to be in the program but decided to stop going. She is still clean (well, she drinks) but she is the only person that I know here who knows NA, so I asked her and she said she is willing to go back with me. So I feel a sense of relief knowing that I wont be alone. I know that I will do well. I have just been feeling really down lately. But the support here helps. Thank God that I remembered that this was here. Now I can come on here everyday. Its already making me feel better. __________________ When you change the way you look at things; The things you look at change.

04-30-2007, 10:49 AM	#2 (permalink)
andyaddict Certified NA Counselor Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: Newport Beach Ca., US Posts: 168	Get to a meeting ASAP, being the first to share and share HONESTLY about what's going on. Then sit back and enjoy the ride. a

04-30-2007, 02:43 PM	#6 (permalink)
conner lord_magee Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Galway Posts: 15	haya tink360...hang in there ok, you are already an inspiration to get so far and do so well and go to a school and place you don't know; this is a sure sign of your strength and capability for change and shows that you are sure of yourself to take and try new steps in life, new challenges and while doing this you have maintained your determination for sobriety even if you feel you are crashing or letting yourself down as far as old habbits go (<----longest sentence ever haha sorry) So many have inspired me in this place in such a short space of time and that very much includes you and I hope you can maintain the strength I can already see in you...I will try my hardest too of course...its important to keep respect and love for life xxx

05-07-2007, 01:29 AM	#8 (permalink)
daydream Obsessed Pug Momma Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Probably at Wal-Mart Posts: 1,274	Hey Tink, Chance gave you some great info there. I bet you could also call a local NA helpline and get another male (assuming you are male) to pick you up for the meeting. If you do the work to arrange for that first meeting, you can get phone numbers and arrange rides on a regular basis. Please check back in and let us know how it goes! __________________ ~~~ Love ME, Love my PUGS! ~~~

05-07-2007, 04:33 PM	#9 (permalink)
tink360 Think Happy Thoughts Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: cHiCaGo iL Posts: 245	I am a female. I did find the number to another females number that I could call. I dont have a phone where I am at and they only let you use the phone like once a day. Which I use that phone call to call my family. Plus it is only a 5 min call, but this weekend I get to go home and I intend on calling then. __________________ When you change the way you look at things; The things you look at change.

06-07-2007, 02:55 AM	#10 (permalink)
Stoned Cold Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Pittsfield, Massachusetts Posts: 6	Hey..I just wanted to say i wish you alot of luck, you know the first step is knowing the problem and the second step is doing something about it so, i really feel like you got a good head on your shoulders, and i know how the relationship drama goes, have had alot myself..blah..but anyway, goodluck with things, and stay strong. (I added you to my friend list on yahoo btw)

06-11-2007, 03:28 AM	#11 (permalink)
bigdaddy68 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: coral springs,fl Posts: 12	hey tink, just hang in there and remember all the good you have done so far. put your mind in a positive mode and move forward, i know its tough, make the steps in the right direction just try not to take some steps back focus you will be fine!!!!

06-11-2007, 09:22 PM	#12 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,597	How are you doing, tink? Check in when you can. We're pulling for you! __________________ â€œThe greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.â€ ~Marianne Williamson

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