A Year Ago Today

[Chance]

I have no memory of where I was or anything. I am pretty sure that I was high though. I have checked my posts and there is a huge gap in my post from the 3/31/06 until towards the end of April of 2006. I did find one back in April that talked about me moving back home thinking that would make a difference, but like always where ever I go there I am.

So what happen to me? I woke up of May 25, 2006 and I knew that I had to start doing things different than before. I went to a meeting on that night I believe it is all pretty much a fog really! But I did notice that I would be high and then I would be clean for five days....I was stuck on that five day crap for a long time. But something happened to me. On May 31, 2006 I woke up and I was still clean. The five day vicious cycle was broken and I was so happy that I was able to wake up clean. I just kept going to meetings, talking to my sponsor, working the steps as suggested, taking a lot of suggestions from everyone that I knew who had something that I wanted.

Even though I have no memory of what happen a year ago today, I am grateful for what happen. I am grateful that today with the help of many that I have been able to stay clean on a daily basis. Life hasn't been easy since May 25, 2006. I have had many ups and downs this time and right now all of the financial stuff is starting to come my way but yet I am welcoming it with open arms. Today I have solutions, I don't dwell on problems or I should say that I try not to.

Also during this time I have been treated for Hep C. The treatment is vicious to say the least but this time I followed the directions from the Doctors and I can say that my Hep C is cleared up and has been since Dec of 2006. I have had a huge amount of emotions dealing with my sponsor and his health. During this last month I have really wanted to cover up those feelings and emotions but I try today to live the Program of Narcotics Anonymous and I believe in my signature that I have below "Just For Today WE never have to use again."

I would like to say that all isn't a bowl of ice cream but I have had to deal with a lot of sh!t. The one thing that I would like to pass on is that even with the SH!T in our lives we don't have to use.

Now don't get me wrong it hasn't been all that bad I have learned to have fun with my clean time. We as a group go bowling once a month. I have been building a great relationship with others and with my family like I have never before. I have been blessed with a great Handyman/Maintenance Job where I live. So many to mention. The thing is that today, once we get through the SH!T we are then able to eat the ice cream.

Grateful for one more lesson I have learned and applied so much this time. Is reaching out and asking for help. I have asked people to come over here a lot lately, dealing with almost loosing my best friend and Sponsor. So Please if anyone can get anything out of this remember that The ME is Now WE and Together WE CAN DO ANYTHING!

With Love and Respect

Vic

[Thundar301]

what a difference a little time can make when we can use that time to help ourselves! good for you Vic, I am really glad to see you in your recovery, thank you for sharing this and continue to be a part of my recovery! Stay strong, keep your faith and continue to work what has worked for you, may your Higher power continue to bless you Dean

[Gmoney]

WTG Vic!! You're an example that recovery is possible. Keep your head up and keep up the good work.

[Time2Surrender]

Right on Vic.