1/2 Way Through

[Chance]

This morning I finished answering the question to my 6th Step. I am about 4 days from having 9 months of being clean and I am feeling very positive about what I have accomplished thus far.

The road this time hasn't been that easy! I have gone through a lot of mental, medical, and emotional situations but have come to finally realize that this is just part of life. The withdrawl that I had to go through wasn't easy at all. It was probably one of the hardest things that I had to ever go through. However I also know that won't keep me clean.

Today I am a very grateful addict that has learned to be very gentle with himself. To know and to realize that I am also human and I am always going to make mistakes however today I am grateful that I don't have to keep repeating the same mistakes all of the time. I still do repeat somethings but that is when I lean on my HP and the Program of recovery and the 12 steps to help me in those areas. The one thing is that the obsession and compulsion to use drugs have been lifted. That is the promise that I have gotten besides all the many gifts.

Most of you know that I had a relapse a year ago on Valentines day! This time when I got clean I decided that I would stay free from the opposite sex, relationship wise for at least a year. To get to know who I am and to learn more about myself. I think that this has played a huge part in my recovery.

Today I don't like to be in the problems that life hands to us. I know today that all of us have issues and that no issues are more or less than anyone elses. I don't try to focus on those issues but I am looking today for the solutions and those solutions comes from my HP, you people, and the program of NA. I never thought that I could actually be happy in sobriety.

I just want everyone to know that if a addict like me can do this deal that anyone, and I do mean anyone can do it. It takes a lot of work, but I am here to tell you that it is extremely worth it. I have friends today that don't want anything from me. I have people that ask me for advice (which I don't like to give) but I try to share my life in hopes that maybe they can relate.

I owe a huge amount of my gratitude to SR and the members here. For without you guys that gave me hope that I could come back and to stay on track. Your words are precious to me and I just want to thank each of you for what you contribute here.

With Love and Respect

Vic

[SaTiT]

Thanks for sharing your recovery, Vic

I finally manage to live alone for the first time in my
life, to find out or remind myself of who the heck I am
...just a little bit over months. I needed it.

and of course I didn't get to that piont until after
I relapsed.

Step #6....the step that seperate the men from boyz.

[Time2Surrender]

Right on. Sounds like your doing good. When did you change your name? Could have sworn it was still "Lucky" this morning.

[Chance]

Thanks everyone...Well right now I am on step 8 and actually doing it this time. All the times that I have been in the program I used to say how I worked all the steps in order knowing that I never did make a list....well sure I might have made a list in my head but that isn't good..MY THINKING and my remembering isn't good for that so I am finally getting it all down this time on paper. Makes a huge difference.

I changed my user name yesterday. I have a thread in newcomers "Hi Everyone AKA Luckyv2" that will explain the decision that I made. Hope all of us have a good day

With Love and Respect

Vic

[Thundar301]

good job Vic, Thank you for sharing your recovery, and keep on rocking it!!!!

[Hope]

Wow, Vic!! So much growth! You are inspiring!!

((((((((Vic))))))))))

[mackie]

Vic...........

Thanks for all of your posts!! You have given me a lot of courage by what you share!

Sobriety does FEEL GOOD, doesn't it??

[Chance]

Thanks Everyone!

You are all too kind that is for sure! Yes being clean is wonderful, still have to deal with life on life's terms which is new for me because Vic is one that always has ran from everything including himself! But with the help of my HP, my sponsor, the Twelve Steps of NA and I don't have to run from me today! That is huge and I am very grateful for that and also to know that

JUST FOR TODAY WE NEVER HAVE TO USE AGAIN!

That has been a blessing to me.

With Love and Respect

Vic