Talk to my Sponsor

[Inspiringmind]

I really tried to find another place to post this here on the forums, but I couldn't find a place that felt right. I talked to my sponsor tonight about going in a different direction. You know what the first thing she asked me was? "you don't want recovery anymore?" Lie NA is the only way that a person can recover. She asked me if I quitting the program. I said I was going in a different direction, if she wanted to call it quitting then she could. She asked if I was going to area, I said no, she asked if I was going to resign, I said yes. She was short with me after that and hung up. If people are going to act like that and say that they found a bew way to live then I am glad of my decision to go in a different direction.

[Moontime]

Did you hold a position at area?

[Moontime]

Remember Sponsors are addicts too. Maybe her first reaction was betrayl or her feeling inadequate because your leaving her. Maybe she has had abandonment issues in her past? I don't know but if you prayed about this and will server your higher power else where, then this is the path your on. I know for me I usually set dates ie.... I'm going to do this for 4 months if in that 4 months I pray/meditate and feel the power push me in another direction then that's the path I'm believe I need to go on. If I make a commitment ie... I make a service commitment for a year, recovery has taught me to honor that commitment regardless of how I feel.



Did you hold a position at area? I'm sure your enthusiasm will be missed.

[Chance]

Originally Posted by Inspiringmind

I really tried to find another place to post this here on the forums, but I couldn't find a place that felt right. .

I am so glad that you are here. Maybe the reason that no other place feels right is because you know that you always belong in NA. We understand and we also have compassion here. I have to agree with what Moon said. We are all human and none of us are ever going to be perfect. Sometimes I think we put too much expectations on others and then we feel let down when we don't get a reaction that we want. Try to just take care of yourself.

With Love and Respect

Vic

[Inspiringmind]

Originally Posted by Moontime

Did you hold a position at area?

Yes...I was Activites chair. My term was up in April. Although there are no major events between now and then. The next major event is in June and then August.

[Inspiringmind]

Originally Posted by Moontime

Remember Sponsors are addicts too. Maybe her first reaction was betrayl or her feeling inadequate because your leaving her. Maybe she has had abandonment issues in her past? I don't know but if you prayed about this and will server your higher power else where, then this is the path your on. I know for me I usually set dates ie.... I'm going to do this for 4 months if in that 4 months I pray/meditate and feel the power push me in another direction then that's the path I'm believe I need to go on. If I make a commitment ie... I make a service commitment for a year, recovery has taught me to honor that commitment regardless of how I feel.

I have been praying and thinking about this for the last 3 months. It definitly wasn't one of my "on a moments" notice addict behaviours. After knowing my sponsor for 21 months I can say that yeah, I think she has some abandoment issues. Also, when I first met her I wanted what she had in recovery, that's why I picked her in the first place. For the past year she has made desisions in her life that have made her life.....I don't know what word I am looking for here, but she married a man who is in active addition and had racked up a boat load of debt. Her 10 year clean date is coming up in about 2 weeks. Honestly I think she never expected for me to be one that would be saying that I am moving on. But since I know her well, I know that she will call her sponsor and talk to her and she will call me back in awhile and talk to me again.

[Moontime]

It sounds like your sure of what you need to do. Serve your HP and you will have nothing to fear