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tigremycat · 01-01-2007, 05:28 PM

I've been struggling with getting clean in a couple of prior posts a few weeks back and I am very greatful and happy to report that my last relapse was Boxing day and since then, I've been clean. I decided to get back to my NA meetings and get reconnected. I called my sponsor on day 1 and without saying the famous "I know" or "yeah, but" I said "I NEED HELP PLEASE HELP ME". We talked for over an hour and I was at that meeting that night coming back and been going to one or two meetings each day since. In about 2 hours time, I'll be at another meeting. I am back in school tomorrow from holidays and I am really going to try to make it to meetings each night even when I am bombarded with homework. I feel pretty good. I made it clean last night for the New Years celebrations and it was nice. I been listening to LOTS and LOTS of speaker tapes from XA SPEAKERS (for those of you who've not visited this site I totally recommend). There is lots of recovery on there and from the fellowship that started it all of course, AA. My boyfriend is an addict who although is part of NA, loves the Big Book and studying it. I just feel greatful today and want to share it with all of you. Thanks for being here.

Chance · 01-01-2007, 06:38 PM

(((((Tigremycat)))))

Glad that you are back and doing what you are doing. Remember that in NA we have never seen anyone relapse who has lived the NA Way! I have done my fair share of relapses but this time, I

something is different. I hope that you learn from that relapse as I have learned from mine. They say that if we don't learn from them then we are bound to have a lesson again. Anyways just wanted to say HI

With love and respect

Vic

**Phinneas** · 01-02-2007, 01:03 AM

Awesome, tigremycat. The difference between wanting to get clean and getting clean, in my experience, is doing the work. Keep talking to your sponsor and going to meetings. I am guessing that you wouldn't let school interfere with your using, so don't let it interfere with your recovery, k?

We're pulling for you!

REZ · 01-03-2007, 06:21 PM

It works if you work it. Keep at it. Congrats on your clean time so far.

tigremycat · 01-05-2007, 05:02 PM

Oh still clean today and it's super hard! I am starting to struggle pretty bad. I don't know how to talk to people and reach out. I mention to my sponsor about this and she's told me to go to meeting tonight and it'll help. I just want this to go away!

yippeeciayay · 01-05-2007, 05:18 PM

hi tigremycat
i can still remember when i came into the program i was an addict of the hopeless variety.
i thought the only answer would truely be suicide. i mean, how could NA
do what i had been trying to do for years.
and then i went to a meeting and heard the reading,
"We have learned from our group experience that those who keep coming to
our meetings regularly stay clean." and that really helped me cause it said to
me no matter how bad i feel, no matter what i believed, and whenever
i felt like using as long as i got to a meeting, no matter how hard to get to one,
i'd probably be ok.
cause what i identified with later was that so many others at one time or another
had felt the exact same way.
and even though there were lots of times i didnt want to, i still did it
instead of picking up, and the great thing is it worked.
just keep sharing your pain and adventually it'll pass.
remember, that the Power that brought us to this program is still with us
and will continue to guide us if we allow It.

***Time2Surrender*** · 01-05-2007, 07:29 PM

One day at a time, do not use. No matter what! Keep hitting meetings, call people. And most of all, work the steps! Surround yourself with people in the program. Eventually, the obsession to use will go away. May not seem like it in the beginning, but it does go away. You have an '06 clean date? Keep it.

tigremycat · 01-06-2007, 01:18 PM

Thanks everyone. I went to the meeting last night and even by half-way through, I felt much better. Turns out, I made it another 24 hours. The meeting tonight is a good one a birthday meeting and a one year birthday at that! This guy spent many years in AA awhile back and has some amazing things to say when he shares so I am looking forward to it.

**Phinneas** · 01-07-2007, 02:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by tigremycat

Turns out, I made it another 24 hours.

And that is exactly how we do it, tigre. Nice job!

01-01-2007, 05:28 PM	#1 (permalink)
tigremycat Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Edmonton, AB Posts: 9	Okay Here I Am! I've been struggling with getting clean in a couple of prior posts a few weeks back and I am very greatful and happy to report that my last relapse was Boxing day and since then, I've been clean. I decided to get back to my NA meetings and get reconnected. I called my sponsor on day 1 and without saying the famous "I know" or "yeah, but" I said "I NEED HELP PLEASE HELP ME". We talked for over an hour and I was at that meeting that night coming back and been going to one or two meetings each day since. In about 2 hours time, I'll be at another meeting. I am back in school tomorrow from holidays and I am really going to try to make it to meetings each night even when I am bombarded with homework. I feel pretty good. I made it clean last night for the New Years celebrations and it was nice. I been listening to LOTS and LOTS of speaker tapes from XA SPEAKERS (for those of you who've not visited this site I totally recommend). There is lots of recovery on there and from the fellowship that started it all of course, AA. My boyfriend is an addict who although is part of NA, loves the Big Book and studying it. I just feel greatful today and want to share it with all of you. Thanks for being here.

01-01-2007, 06:38 PM	#2 (permalink)
Chance JUST DO IT!! Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Here Or There Posts: 7,090 Blog Entries: 9	(((((Tigremycat))))) Glad that you are back and doing what you are doing. Remember that in NA we have never seen anyone relapse who has lived the NA Way! I have done my fair share of relapses but this time, I something is different. I hope that you learn from that relapse as I have learned from mine. They say that if we don't learn from them then we are bound to have a lesson again. Anyways just wanted to say HI With love and respect Vic __________________ With Love and Respect Vic Life isn't yesterday or tomorrow it is in the now.....

01-02-2007, 01:03 AM	#3 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,596	Awesome, tigremycat. The difference between wanting to get clean and getting clean, in my experience, is doing the work. Keep talking to your sponsor and going to meetings. I am guessing that you wouldn't let school interfere with your using, so don't let it interfere with your recovery, k? We're pulling for you! __________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

01-05-2007, 07:29 PM	#7 (permalink)
*Time2Surrender* Community Greeter Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Hillsboro,Oregon Soon to be Washington State Posts: 6,335 Blog Entries: 3	One day at a time, do not use. No matter what! Keep hitting meetings, call people. And most of all, work the steps! Surround yourself with people in the program. Eventually, the obsession to use will go away. May not seem like it in the beginning, but it does go away. You have an '06 clean date? Keep it. __________________ "Jack and Diane" painted a picture of my life and my dreams, Suddenly this crazy world made more sense to me Well I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along Cause everytime I hear that song...

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01-03-2007, 06:21 PM	#4 (permalink)
REZ Member Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Chapel Hill, NC Posts: 987	It works if you work it. Keep at it. Congrats on your clean time so far.

01-05-2007, 05:02 PM	#5 (permalink)
tigremycat Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Edmonton, AB Posts: 9	Oh still clean today and it's super hard! I am starting to struggle pretty bad. I don't know how to talk to people and reach out. I mention to my sponsor about this and she's told me to go to meeting tonight and it'll help. I just want this to go away!

01-05-2007, 05:18 PM	#6 (permalink)
yippeeciayay Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: earth Posts: 74	hi tigremycat i can still remember when i came into the program i was an addict of the hopeless variety. i thought the only answer would truely be suicide. i mean, how could NA do what i had been trying to do for years. and then i went to a meeting and heard the reading, "We have learned from our group experience that those who keep coming to our meetings regularly stay clean." and that really helped me cause it said to me no matter how bad i feel, no matter what i believed, and whenever i felt like using as long as i got to a meeting, no matter how hard to get to one, i'd probably be ok. cause what i identified with later was that so many others at one time or another had felt the exact same way. and even though there were lots of times i didnt want to, i still did it instead of picking up, and the great thing is it worked. just keep sharing your pain and adventually it'll pass. remember, that the Power that brought us to this program is still with us and will continue to guide us if we allow It.

01-06-2007, 01:18 PM	#8 (permalink)
tigremycat Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Edmonton, AB Posts: 9	Thanks everyone. I went to the meeting last night and even by half-way through, I felt much better. Turns out, I made it another 24 hours. The meeting tonight is a good one a birthday meeting and a one year birthday at that! This guy spent many years in AA awhile back and has some amazing things to say when he shares so I am looking forward to it.

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