Just For Today Meditations December 27

[Chance]

God could restore us to sanity








“The process of coming to believe restores us to sanity. The strength to move into action comes from this belief.”

Basic Text, p. 24

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Now that we’ve finally admitted our insanity and seen examples of it in all its manifestations, we might be tempted to believe that we are doomed to repeat this behavior for the rest of our lives. Just as we thought that our active addiction was hopeless and we’d never get clean, we might now believe that our particular brand of insanity is hopeless.



Not so! We know that we owe our freedom from active addiction to the grace of a loving God. If our Higher Power can perform such a miracle as relieving our obsession to use drugs, surely this Power can also relieve our insanity in all its forms.



If we doubt this, all we have to do is think about the sanity that has already been restored to our lives. Maybe we’ve gotten carried away with our credit cards; but sanity returns when we admit defeat and cut them all up. Perhaps we’ve been feeling lonely and want to go visit our old using buddies. Going to visit our sponsor instead is a sane act.

The insanity of our addiction recedes into the past as we begin experiencing moments of sanity in our recovery. Our belief in a Power greater than ourselves grows as we begin to understand that even our brand of insanity is nothing in the face of this Power.

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Just for today: I thank the God of my understanding for each sane act in my life, for I know they are indications of my restoration to sanity.

[burned4times]

hey vic--thanks for the topic. today i am struggling with inner voices (insanity) telling me it's not so bad. my husband, who still uses, is in his room usiing or trying to sleep afterusing for two days. it's crack so you know he's crazy now..no sleeps, sweating, etc etc. oh so pleasant. Not. here's my dilemma. as some of you know I had a very long time clean, 20 yrs, before my husband became addicted to crack. my drug of choice way back when was powder cocaine. anyway, long story short, i've used with my husbamd several times over the last year. The last time was four weeks ago. i have been working a program of recovery in the anon groups and doing ok--not really. actually, it still makes me insane every time he uses--i work my program and it helps but it makes me insane.

Last time I used with him, next day, after the smoke cleared, I told him NEVER AGAIN, and I really want to mean it. Truth is I have fantasies about doing it again. And I KNOW how dangerous that it.

I love him but ya know I got to live and living with him, actively using just ain't gonna work. I know that but dam* it hurts!

Today I said these words over and over while thankfully at work, "thy will be done, thy will be done." i am really re-dedicating myself to my higher power. i want to stay in conscious contact with Him and any of that sh** makes me feel separate from the beauty and safety and sanity when I am close to and connected to my God. My loving God. I am trying to third step my way out of this dilemma and so far I still feel the strength I need. I will get through tonight, clean, sober, and letting him to his HP.

Thanks again Vic...great topic! Thanks for keepng this place going while some of us stray.
Linda