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Chance · 12-03-2006, 06:32 PM

As most of you know that I have done some extensive work on myself, using the Steps of Narcotics Anonymous. I have had my Fourth Step Completed for sometime now and also have been answering the question to my 5th Step.

Well today I told my darkest secrets to someone! To another human being and to God and yes God already knew it but it had to come from my own lips. I can tell you that it felt as if a ton had been lifted off of my shoulders. I at first felt very ashamed, humiliated, etc. but when I was done telling this I felt relieved. I can only express my deepest gratitude to the program of Narcotics Anonymous.

I thought that I would have been judged, hung, and put to sleep however I didn't get that at all when I was done. I felt as if there was compassion, caring, loving, and empathy. I have been procrastinating so long on telling this stuff to anyone, that I felt it was either I get this done, or I was about to do something that I would end up regretting.

Yes some of the stuff was very shameful, however I am not that person today, nor do I ever want to be that person again. When they say that the drugs are only 15% of our makeup and the other 85% has to do with our behaviors and stuff how true that statement really is. I am so so grateful that I finally found enough courage to continue with the process and my only hopes now are to go on to step 6.

I wouldn't ever have been able to do this deal alone, without the support of each of you, my HP, sponsorship, family, friends, the Program of NA which finally I am allowing it to teach me to live life without the use of drugs. I just want to thank each of you for all of your support.

With Love and Respect

Vic

**Phinneas** · 12-04-2006, 12:12 AM

Way to go, Vic. Honest to god, I am proud of you.

***Doug*** · 12-04-2006, 07:22 AM

Your story keeps getting more and more inspiring Vic. I'm glad you're here to share it, and I'm glad I'm here to read it.

CRZYDAISY · 12-04-2006, 09:11 AM

I'm new to this forum, but have been to NA meetings, I am still on step 1, for I JUST got off my DOC.....I am on suboxone now, which seems to be helping. Anyone else on this?

REZ · 12-04-2006, 10:17 AM

Congrats Vic. After doing 5th step, I felt like I wasn't so alone, so different. I could join the human race.

Lady_Blue · 12-04-2006, 01:35 PM

Hey CrzyDAISY, I am not on sub...However, there are quite a few friends on here that have used it to detox/rehab. They should be along soon....You took the 1st step, it only gets better. I used hydrocodone(vicodin- masive amounts!) for a long time...methadone saved my ***. Many people do not "agree" with using 1 drug to "come off of" another, but for me, it was the only way. I was not strong enough to do it on my own. I had tried, many times, and got tired of failing. I found an awesome counselor. I am still hydro free, after 5 months. I started it in June. Relaped once EARLY in the process. Would NOT to it again, ever. Too much time, blood, sweat, and many tears invested in my recovery. Good luck!

frstnm · 12-04-2006, 02:20 PM

Lucky
Is it recommended to start with the first step and follow as we graduate to the second step ? I have some things in my past that are my deepest darkest secrets that I have never been able to tell anyone - professional or not.....

did you send off the cd we spoke of ?

Thanks
frstnm

Chance · 12-04-2006, 06:09 PM

Thanks everyone it was such a relief. Yep I still practice steps 1, 2, 3 everymorning that I wake up. I have written out and shared the first 5 steps now with my sponsor or a closed mouth friend. Now it is time to keep moving forward one step at a time. Very grateful that none of us have to use today.

Heartinpieces · 12-05-2006, 01:15 AM

YESSSS vic you are giving me a lot of hope!

aasharon90 · 12-05-2006, 04:46 AM

The Miracle of recovery continues with you. Tis the season
to be grateful and joyful. Thanks Vic. You are a SHINING STAR.

Hope · 12-05-2006, 07:25 PM

Vic, wow, that is so awesome to read! I'm proud of you!

**BigSis** · 12-05-2006, 08:00 PM

Vic ... your recovery is awesome.... in every sense of the word. Thank you for your openness, your honesty and your compassion.

((((Vic))))

GlassPrisoner · 12-05-2006, 11:10 PM

Awesome. They say what you just said about the 5th step. Congrats !!!!

Working my inventory now, 5th is just around the corner.

ottenboy · 12-14-2006, 06:03 PM

it does feel good doesnt it good job man glad to hear ur good

GeorgiaPeach · 12-19-2006, 01:08 PM

Vic,

Sorry I wasn't here but I am so very proud of you! I can't even imagine how difficult that must have been for you but I know that you feel better and can move forward to the Vic that you want to be. I am glad that you are doing good! Talk to you soon!

GP

Chance · 12-19-2006, 06:44 PM

Thanks everyone really! I am very proud today to know that I am doing whatever it takes to get it all out. Since then there has been other things that have popped up, process that is for sure. But I keep doing the deal, Just For Today!

With Love and Respect

Vic

Arura · 12-20-2006, 10:01 AM

Love Ya ((((Vic))) ....

and yep you sure have moved on Since May ive watched You grow So much and Yes Proud is the Word..Indeed....

Much Respect for going at the Root of it Honey.....xXx...

(((((Daisy)))))))
Come Back Darlin ......xXx...

12-03-2006, 06:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
Chance JUST DO IT!! Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Here Or There Posts: 7,090 Blog Entries: 9	The Relief Came As most of you know that I have done some extensive work on myself, using the Steps of Narcotics Anonymous. I have had my Fourth Step Completed for sometime now and also have been answering the question to my 5th Step. Well today I told my darkest secrets to someone! To another human being and to God and yes God already knew it but it had to come from my own lips. I can tell you that it felt as if a ton had been lifted off of my shoulders. I at first felt very ashamed, humiliated, etc. but when I was done telling this I felt relieved. I can only express my deepest gratitude to the program of Narcotics Anonymous. I thought that I would have been judged, hung, and put to sleep however I didn't get that at all when I was done. I felt as if there was compassion, caring, loving, and empathy. I have been procrastinating so long on telling this stuff to anyone, that I felt it was either I get this done, or I was about to do something that I would end up regretting. Yes some of the stuff was very shameful, however I am not that person today, nor do I ever want to be that person again. When they say that the drugs are only 15% of our makeup and the other 85% has to do with our behaviors and stuff how true that statement really is. I am so so grateful that I finally found enough courage to continue with the process and my only hopes now are to go on to step 6. I wouldn't ever have been able to do this deal alone, without the support of each of you, my HP, sponsorship, family, friends, the Program of NA which finally I am allowing it to teach me to live life without the use of drugs. I just want to thank each of you for all of your support. With Love and Respect Vic __________________ With Love and Respect Vic Life isn't yesterday or tomorrow it is in the now.....

12-04-2006, 12:12 AM	#2 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,596	Way to go, Vic. Honest to god, I am proud of you. __________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

12-04-2006, 07:22 AM	#3 (permalink)
*Doug* Administrator Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: S.E. Mich. Posts: 1,359	Your story keeps getting more and more inspiring Vic. I'm glad you're here to share it, and I'm glad I'm here to read it. __________________ Warning: Dates on calendar are closer than they appear.

12-04-2006, 01:35 PM	#6 (permalink)
Lady_Blue Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: state of confusion.. Posts: 353	Hey CrzyDAISY, I am not on sub...However, there are quite a few friends on here that have used it to detox/rehab. They should be along soon....You took the 1st step, it only gets better. I used hydrocodone(vicodin- masive amounts!) for a long time...methadone saved my ***. Many people do not "agree" with using 1 drug to "come off of" another, but for me, it was the only way. I was not strong enough to do it on my own. I had tried, many times, and got tired of failing. I found an awesome counselor. I am still hydro free, after 5 months. I started it in June. Relaped once EARLY in the process. Would NOT to it again, ever. Too much time, blood, sweat, and many tears invested in my recovery. Good luck! __________________ "Sorry is looking back. Worry is looking around. Faith, my friend; is looking up." May you always have Love to Share , Health to Spare, and Friends that Care Peace! lala Smiles, LadyBlue

12-04-2006, 02:20 PM	#7 (permalink)
frstnm Im not crazy and neither am I Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: My place in (M)Assachusetts Posts: 1,110	the order of twelve steps Lucky Is it recommended to start with the first step and follow as we graduate to the second step ? I have some things in my past that are my deepest darkest secrets that I have never been able to tell anyone - professional or not..... did you send off the cd we spoke of ? Thanks frstnm

12-04-2006, 09:11 AM	#4 (permalink)
CRZYDAISY Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: It a little town called crazyville Posts: 1	I'm new to this forum, but have been to NA meetings, I am still on step 1, for I JUST got off my DOC.....I am on suboxone now, which seems to be helping. Anyone else on this?

12-04-2006, 10:17 AM	#5 (permalink)
REZ Member Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Chapel Hill, NC Posts: 987	Congrats Vic. After doing 5th step, I felt like I wasn't so alone, so different. I could join the human race.

12-04-2006, 06:09 PM	#8 (permalink)
Chance JUST DO IT!! Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Here Or There Posts: 7,090 Blog Entries: 9	Thanks everyone it was such a relief. Yep I still practice steps 1, 2, 3 everymorning that I wake up. I have written out and shared the first 5 steps now with my sponsor or a closed mouth friend. Now it is time to keep moving forward one step at a time. Very grateful that none of us have to use today. __________________ With Love and Respect Vic Life isn't yesterday or tomorrow it is in the now.....

12-05-2006, 01:15 AM	#9 (permalink)
Heartinpieces Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: Nor Cal Posts: 119	YESSSS vic you are giving me a lot of hope!

12-05-2006, 04:46 AM	#10 (permalink)
aasharon90 Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Baton Rouge, La. Posts: 2,726	The Miracle of recovery continues with you. Tis the season to be grateful and joyful. Thanks Vic. You are a SHINING STAR. __________________ "A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED" SHARON M. Baton Rouge, La. 8-11-90 "Made A Decision To Turn My Will And Life Over To The Care Of God As I Understand Him."

12-05-2006, 07:25 PM	#11 (permalink)
Hope Getting Better All The Time Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Recovering Posts: 3,252	Vic, wow, that is so awesome to read! I'm proud of you!

12-05-2006, 08:00 PM	#12 (permalink)
BigSis On a tear Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Volcano Country! Posts: 3,164	Vic ... your recovery is awesome.... in every sense of the word. Thank you for your openness, your honesty and your compassion. ((((Vic)))) __________________ No matter how spoiled the past may be, our future is spotless.... BigSis

12-05-2006, 11:10 PM	#13 (permalink)
GlassPrisoner Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Murrieta, Ca Posts: 2,685	Awesome. They say what you just said about the 5th step. Congrats !!!! Working my inventory now, 5th is just around the corner. __________________ Life Happens

12-14-2006, 06:03 PM	#14 (permalink)
ottenboy FREE AT LAST Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: omaha nebraska I think Posts: 4	it does feel good doesnt it good job man glad to hear ur good

12-19-2006, 01:08 PM	#15 (permalink)
GeorgiaPeach Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Atlanta, GA Posts: 491	Vic, Sorry I wasn't here but I am so very proud of you! I can't even imagine how difficult that must have been for you but I know that you feel better and can move forward to the Vic that you want to be. I am glad that you are doing good! Talk to you soon! GP __________________ The Future Belongs to Those Who Believe in the Beauty of Their Dreams.-Elanor Roosevelt

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