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Madalaina · 10-03-2006, 01:11 PM

I've had to find a new sponsor, and it is really starting to hurt now!

I am meeting with my new sponsor tonight, and my heart is sad. First of all, NA is not as strong as AA where I live. My heart is with NA, but I had to get an AA sponsor. With this, I have come to the conclusion that the only thing I am worried about is the solution, and they are basically the same.

I got a phone call that had me very upset, and the first thing that I wanted to do was pick up the phone and call my old sponosr, but under the circumstances that wasn't really an option. I guess what I am getting at is this... I feel like I am back at square one. You know, now I have to get to know this other person, and let them into my life. Starting all over again... I feel like my head is spinning and I just want to cry. I really love my old sponsor, but my heart (and my recovery) said that is was time to move on! And then I start second guessing myself, like ok, did I make the right decision? And I really think that I did, I'm just scared. Fear of change I guess!

Blake · 10-03-2006, 03:12 PM

Hey alissa,

The thing about change is that usually the actual change isn't what is painful, it's the resistance to the change that ***** with us.

As far as the AA/NA thing goes, I am somewhat of a "purist" and I believe that I NA and AA are completely seperate and different programs of recovery, I personally need an NA sponsor that has an NA sponsor that has an NA sponsor and work the NA steps and read NA literature, but I am luck in that NA is actually bigger here than AA is. Why not get to some NA meetings in BR? I know it's a little bit of a drive (45 minutes to an hour, huh?) but there is a strong fellowship there and a lot of recovery....just a suggestion....

Anyway, pray about it, the answer will come...

Madalaina · 10-03-2006, 03:25 PM

Thank you Blake!

I know what you mean. My heart really is with NA, but there just isn't really any women sponsors here in NA. My license are suspended right now, so it would be hard for me to get to Baton Rouge. It is a good idea though! Maybe I can do that whenever I get my license back.

I just know that I cannot be without a sponsor, and AA was really my only option at this point, however, my heart does belong to NA, and always will!

Hugs,
Alissa

dalin · 10-03-2006, 04:22 PM

have you tried on online na sponsor?
it saved me in the past.
i know there are some good ones around.
i have some adresses if you want.

REZ · 10-04-2006, 10:29 AM

What happen with your old sponsor? Why can't you call her anymore? Am I missing something?

10-03-2006, 01:11 PM	#1 (permalink)
Madalaina Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: I don't even know! Posts: 323	Fear of Change I've had to find a new sponsor, and it is really starting to hurt now! I am meeting with my new sponsor tonight, and my heart is sad. First of all, NA is not as strong as AA where I live. My heart is with NA, but I had to get an AA sponsor. With this, I have come to the conclusion that the only thing I am worried about is the solution, and they are basically the same. I got a phone call that had me very upset, and the first thing that I wanted to do was pick up the phone and call my old sponosr, but under the circumstances that wasn't really an option. I guess what I am getting at is this... I feel like I am back at square one. You know, now I have to get to know this other person, and let them into my life. Starting all over again... I feel like my head is spinning and I just want to cry. I really love my old sponsor, but my heart (and my recovery) said that is was time to move on! And then I start second guessing myself, like ok, did I make the right decision? And I really think that I did, I'm just scared. Fear of change I guess!

10-03-2006, 03:12 PM	#2 (permalink)
Blake I'm an addict. Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Hyde Park, NY Posts: 1,201	Hey alissa, The thing about change is that usually the actual change isn't what is painful, it's the resistance to the change that *** with us. As far as the AA/NA thing goes, I am somewhat of a "purist" and I believe that I NA and AA are completely seperate and different programs of recovery, I personally need an NA sponsor that has an NA sponsor that has an NA sponsor and work the NA steps and read NA literature, but I am luck in that NA is actually bigger here than AA is. Why not get to some NA meetings in BR? I know it's a little bit of a drive (45 minutes to an hour, huh?) but there is a strong fellowship there and a lot of recovery....just a suggestion.... Anyway, pray about it, the answer will come... __________________ Warning:** I'm a sick person so take any advice I may be spewing with a grain of salt, but it's what has worked for me, so far.

10-03-2006, 04:22 PM	#4 (permalink)
dalin Member Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: Mississauga Ontario Posts: 275	well we miss you have you tried on online na sponsor? it saved me in the past. i know there are some good ones around. i have some adresses if you want.

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10-03-2006, 03:25 PM	#3 (permalink)
Madalaina Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: I don't even know! Posts: 323	Thank you Blake! I know what you mean. My heart really is with NA, but there just isn't really any women sponsors here in NA. My license are suspended right now, so it would be hard for me to get to Baton Rouge. It is a good idea though! Maybe I can do that whenever I get my license back. I just know that I cannot be without a sponsor, and AA was really my only option at this point, however, my heart does belong to NA, and always will! Hugs, Alissa

10-04-2006, 10:29 AM	#5 (permalink)
REZ Member Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Chapel Hill, NC Posts: 987	What happen with your old sponsor? Why can't you call her anymore? Am I missing something?

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