drugs suck

[brittneedshelp]

so ive been doing various drugs for a while mostly x and cocaine and now when i dont do it i can never be happy.....ive been feeling gulity about my drug use and wanna stop but ive been popping x for over a year and been on and off coke so how am i sure it will be over now?

[michski]

Welcome!

If you've been using for over a year it's going to take some time for you to build up again the seratonin levels in your brain. That stuff (especially X) really depletes all the dopamine in the brain and there's no quick fixes to get happy again.... That crap really steals your soul.

Lots of people who have used coke and X begin taking an antidepressant. I'm not a doctor but I was advised to take Prozac when I quit cocaine and it really helped me get out of the tail spin of depression I was left with when I quit hurting myself with drugs. Time for you to go to your doctor and let him/her know what's going on with you.

[REZ]

If you want to stop using, I suggest you go NA meetings. They saved my life and could save yours.

[bluedove]

you should maybe think about moving away from where you are around all of the people that you do the drugs with if it is possible.

[Leo_the_Cat]

I love the title of your thread. I completely agree.

[dalin]

na realy worked for me when everything else didnt.
i am glad you are here......
keep coming

[girlindc]

hey i am newly recovering from alcohol and coke mostly, but also used a lot of x in my days... michski is right about it taking away a ton of your seratonin... recently starting seeing a psych and starting taking zoloft, so i hope it will help in time. na meetings are a good idea too, andstaying away from friends that use. good luck to you

[dalin]

glad you are here........on the n.a. section........
WELCOME HOME
you will hear alot of theorys
but na only gives us one promise.......
that an addict,any addict will lose the desire to use in here.
once again
WELCOME HOME

[Blake]

Welcome to SR britt,

I had a few years during my active addiction where X was my drug of choice, I was all wrapped up in the "rave scene" and thought I had found a home there. I came to the realization one night that the only time I was happy was when I was on the X...and it had recently stopped working all that hot. I thought I would never be happy again, I thought that I had permanantly ****** up my brain......

I ended up going to treatment shortly after that, and I really wish I had committed myself to recovery back then. I however did not, I figured I could go out and drink still with my "friends".....long story short, I did stop using X and other club drugs, including coke and crystal, but I found that I loved opiates even better and spent the next 5 years strung out on some form of opiate....(the longer you use the worse it gets, addiction is a progressive disease)......till I found NA.

I have been clean for the last 19 months or so and it is a direct result of my involvement in NA, it is the only thing I have ever found that promises me that if I do what is suggested, I will be able to live free from active addiction.

My life kicks ass now, and yours can too....the body is an amazing thing, it rebounds.....Give yourself a break and get to an NA meeting, it works, I promise....If you keep using it will only get worse, it's a fact......


you can do this if you really really want to...good luck,
Blake

[saveYOURsoul]

First thing's first: stop using. Just for day, don't pick up. Then at least you have a chance at increasing your seratonin/dopamine/whatever levels. It was important for me to remember that if I picked up, my brain potentially had to start all over again at repairing itself chemically. Give yourself a chance.

when i dont do it i can never be happy.....

It took a long time for me to not cry every day. I went to daily meetings, was prescribed anti-depressants, learned to eat, sleep, pray and exercise, and wrote A LOT. Journaling and stepwork. Accupuncture. Slowly built relationships with girlfriends (much, much slower than when on X or coke or meth or any drug, mind you). Went to a lot of movies and other things I first thought were BORING but did anyway, cuz I couldn't hang with using friends or at using places or alone....

After about a year, I started to feel be happy on a regular basis and cry a lot less. I stuffed a lot feelings since my first drink, muchless once I did other drugs, so I had and have a lot of crying and processing to do. Today I give myself that time, I owe it to myself. If I don't give it to me, who will?