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SweetBiscuit · 07-21-2009, 03:26 PM

Howdy. As I sit here at my desk on my computer I feel like total crud. But gotta keep moving so they say (whom ever "they" are.)

I have been completely "clean" for three friggin days. I am hot and sweaty cold and bundled, and just going out of my mind people. For some reason I do not remember from past DT, vertigo? WTF dude? I Dont know if this is part of it, or Im just messed up and actually getting sick. huh? who knows. But all I know is that even feeling crappy I lined up a sitter for my daughter tonight so I can get my dizzy spinning butt to a meeting.

I have had a horrific 2.5 yrs (even longer, but who hasn't) and caused so much pain to myself and family. and now Im learning how to deal with out numbing myself. F that...is what I want to say and do sometimes. however, I know better. just doing better is the issues. I have been to three meetings since Saturday morning, and going tonight.

Just tired and feeling crappy doesn't help at all. i live a good 30 minutes from friends (whom are clean and sober) and have no money to my name to get anywhere. SO that part is hard. because, hey I could always get free drugs. Just never free gas.

Ok, Im done for now. Im sure I will be back somewhere exploring this site, because as I have read seems like a great place to be when in need or not. Thanks

Missybuns · 07-21-2009, 03:38 PM

Welcome. Hope you make it to the meeting!

Come on back and let us know what you learned.

Take a good look at step one and think of getting a sponsor.

Peace,
Missy

Javier12 · 07-21-2009, 04:26 PM

Welcome to recovery man!!! Going to meetings is what I had to do to stand the first few months of being clean. I didn't know what they were saying, I didn't understand the lingo they used, but I was there because that's what I heard other people did to get and stay clean. And what these people had definately seemed better than what I had.

Wish you the best.

SweetBiscuit · 07-21-2009, 06:41 PM

thanks. well, time to get off my butt, and get ready for the meeting. My room mate is on her way home to watch my kiddo, my dad just brought dinner, which is nice since I am still not feeling well. Dizzy spells and all Im going. so looking crud or not, Im off.

serenitylpch · 08-02-2009, 04:48 PM

im 115 days clean and thats miracle it started of being clean for the hour that was hard today i just take one day at a time that works for me and go to meetings take it easy im also new here to this site

Only The Person Who Risk Is Truly FREE!

camman5150 · 08-15-2009, 02:43 PM

I am sure that you are on the right track, I too have only been sober for a very short period and feel terrible for all the pain that I have caused. At least you have your daughter.
I know that girls have the drug issue harder for they can get high for free, (well, sometimes, usally there is sex or the thoughts of getting some), that must be very hard knowing that drugs can be that easy?
I pray that you are kept from falling....

07-21-2009, 03:26 PM	#1 (permalink)
SweetBiscuit Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Sonoma Ca Posts: 22	brand new here Howdy. As I sit here at my desk on my computer I feel like total crud. But gotta keep moving so they say (whom ever "they" are.) I have been completely "clean" for three friggin days. I am hot and sweaty cold and bundled, and just going out of my mind people. For some reason I do not remember from past DT, vertigo? WTF dude? I Dont know if this is part of it, or Im just messed up and actually getting sick. huh? who knows. But all I know is that even feeling crappy I lined up a sitter for my daughter tonight so I can get my dizzy spinning butt to a meeting. I have had a horrific 2.5 yrs (even longer, but who hasn't) and caused so much pain to myself and family. and now Im learning how to deal with out numbing myself. F that...is what I want to say and do sometimes. however, I know better. just doing better is the issues. I have been to three meetings since Saturday morning, and going tonight. Just tired and feeling crappy doesn't help at all. i live a good 30 minutes from friends (whom are clean and sober) and have no money to my name to get anywhere. SO that part is hard. because, hey I could always get free drugs. Just never free gas. Ok, Im done for now. Im sure I will be back somewhere exploring this site, because as I have read seems like a great place to be when in need or not. Thanks

07-21-2009, 04:26 PM	#3 (permalink)
Javier12 Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Managua, Nicaragua Posts: 17	Thanks for being here Welcome to recovery man!!! Going to meetings is what I had to do to stand the first few months of being clean. I didn't know what they were saying, I didn't understand the lingo they used, but I was there because that's what I heard other people did to get and stay clean. And what these people had definately seemed better than what I had. Wish you the best.

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07-21-2009, 03:38 PM	#2 (permalink)
Missybuns Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Indiana Posts: 1,484	Welcome. Hope you make it to the meeting! Come on back and let us know what you learned. Take a good look at step one and think of getting a sponsor. Peace, Missy

07-21-2009, 06:41 PM	#4 (permalink)
SweetBiscuit Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Sonoma Ca Posts: 22	thanks. well, time to get off my butt, and get ready for the meeting. My room mate is on her way home to watch my kiddo, my dad just brought dinner, which is nice since I am still not feeling well. Dizzy spells and all Im going. so looking crud or not, Im off.

08-02-2009, 04:48 PM	#5 (permalink)
serenitylpch Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: New zealand Posts: 10 Blog Entries: 2	im 115 days clean and thats miracle it started of being clean for the hour that was hard today i just take one day at a time that works for me and go to meetings take it easy im also new here to this site Only The Person Who Risk Is Truly FREE!

08-15-2009, 02:43 PM	#6 (permalink)
camman5150 Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Las Vegas Nevada Posts: 1	I am sure that you are on the right track, I too have only been sober for a very short period and feel terrible for all the pain that I have caused. At least you have your daughter. I know that girls have the drug issue harder for they can get high for free, (well, sometimes, usally there is sex or the thoughts of getting some), that must be very hard knowing that drugs can be that easy? I pray that you are kept from falling....

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