hmmm not sure how to use this

[samekashley]

im sitting here trying to make myself not want my adderall i was preggo and now im not and i want it back i stopped for the pregnacy....but now i relize that it was bad for me like it changed me like my ex says there was ashley 1 and ashley 2 ashley 1 was the good ashley the one that took her time and showed emotion and cooked dinner and did all the normal house wife stuff and then ashley 2 the one that was on adderall and ran around like crazy tryin to get everything done in one day always worried about what i looked like.. always interested in every other guy but of course him.. and just being crazy,, i didnt think i was like that.i know adderall gave me super energy but it made me focus and concentrate and alotta other good things i thought too.. i dunno what to think .. oh the other thing is i dont smoke i havnt smoked since i quit takin it .. but when im on it i smoke like crazy is thsat normal.. right now i have been off it for 5 months and it is so hard for me not to go pick up my prescription when my doctor calls an says hey you ready to come in.. it also made me lose weight quick after pregnacy which was a plus,,im new to this website an all of this so i dont know if im posting in the right area

[Sugah]

Have you been to an NA meeting yet?

Peace & Love,
Sugah

[justfortoday9]

"and just being crazy,, i didnt think i was like that."

this is always the problem with drugs, they make you view yourself and life in a different, false reality. you probably thought you felt in control and on top of the world when you were using, but it's an illusion. maybe you should talk to your doctor about the effect that it has on you and ask him to take you off of it. the fact that you took the time to search for and post on this site says alot. there is a better way to live. you can be happy and energetic without using any substances.

i personally found that the people i have met in NA are a great source of strength for me. i go to meetings regularly, and being surrounded by the positivity is always a boost of energy for me.

also i have been struggling with quitting smoking for awhile now, so props to you for quitting. being under the influence of anything always made me crave cigarettes even more, so by taking pills you would be going back to both.

keep up the good work and don't question if your desire to not use is the right thing to do. being clean and serene is ALWAYS better than using and crazy. good luck to you

[serenitylpch]

NA is like a FIX ive got this whole in my Chest and sometimes it feels like its on FIRE and at first at was there 24.7 now not so bad i use to think take away my addiction behavior and my drugs what is there NOTHINK im to scared to live life then NA gave me HOPE