Just To Introduce Myself

[smile2day]

Hi everyone,

I have been on Sober recovery for sometime now, although I usually spend my time on the FAFOA. I am 26 and I have gone into a depression. For about 6 months now it has been a gradual slope into depression until yesterday when I had a complete melt down. I am scheduled to see a psychologist on the 25th. I can't explain why I am in a depression, I thought I was fine. Nothing really tramatic has happened to me lately. I just don't understand it. Anyways just for some background me and my AH have been together for over 11 years we have 2 kids and he has been in recovery for 2 1/2 years now. Today I feel a little better, yesterday I could even muster up the ability to talkto anyone except calling the doctor. I was like a walking zombie. I have never been like this and it is scaring me totally. I cried all day long yesterday.

Anyways, just here to introduce myself, I hope to get to know you all really well

[ranae1221]

Hi Smile2Day,

Sorry to hear you have been having a tough time, but I am glad to hear you have taken steps to begin healing.

You don't have to nessasarly (sp?) have gone through something "tramatic" to have feelings and symptoms of depression. For some, it is a chemical imbalance. For others it may be tramatic events or stress events. Everyone is different. I know for my mom she had a "breakdown" several years after going through a divorce. The doctors explained that she had to be "ok" to deal with the stress at the time, and now that the stress was no longer there, her body was allowed to actually deal with the psychological effects. Does that make sense??

Anyhow seeing a psychologist is a great step. Hopefully he/she will be able to devolop a treatment plan with you, whatever it is that may be. In the meantime, keep coming back here! This has been a great place of support for me as well as others.

Take care!

[Lilya]

Hi smile2today,

I´m glad you found this forum and it´s a healthy sign to reach out.

Ranae has come up with some good points. I agree with her that sometimes stress that happened some time ago can manifest itself later. Sometimes stress can trigger chemical imbalance. It´s best if a specialist determines this, but I can give you my 2 centimes:

When I feel this low, I allow myself to be low. I sometimes tell myself or other people: "My energy is heavy today". Then it goes away much faster.

I go out, regardless how I feel, I walk fast, swim dance and do yoga. Forcing myself to do this is not very pleasant, but it usually helps the next day. I try to be near nature, when in a city, I go to a parc, when elsewhere, I go to the mountains or to the beach. Nature is the best, I find. And other people who understand and don´t judge.

I find I need rest and being by myself when I feel this way. Sometimes I´m just plain tired and then I can get depressed.

I hope this is useful. Please don´t be afraid. I know it´s overwhelming at first, but you will get better.

Love and light,