Hate the ups and downs

[ranae1221]

I was doing so well for the last week. i wasn't feeling as hopeless, the depression was starting to lift a bit. i don't know if it was the new medication or if i was just now on an "up" swing.

but it never lasts! and i hate that so much. it's like you get a taste of how life could be or should be, and then it's snatched away.

the last 3 days have been h*** again. today i can barely concentrate on work, all i want to do is go home and pull the covers over my head and disappear. i cry at nothing and everything, and have no motovation whatsoever. i know that this depression won't last forever (though it sure feels like forever), but I am so tired of the ups and downs. I want off this ride.

I am leaving work early today. What good am I here when all I want to do is cry?

[cinderellawkids]

I know how you feel. I felt the same way all day. I just took a walk around the block, sweated like crazy, but mentally I kicked in an upswing. Maybe try that.

My counselor tells me to remember the low feeling will pass, but somehow its hard to deal with it anyway even knowing it will pass. Mine always starts with an anxiety funk. I go from superwoman to anxiety funk to crying under the blanket routinely and most meds only take the edge off, or totally zombize me.
For em I ahve to make sure Im taking care of me and eating right that helps keep the upswing going longer

[Don W]

I can also identify with you. The feelings will pass but, getting through them can be difficult. I just try to remember that ups and downs are part of a normal life, whatever that is. The key for me is to try and limit the time of the low. Don W

[BSPGirl]

Awwww