I feel like crying

[Hope]

When I got up this morning, I wanted so badly to go back to sleep. Often, during my day I just feel like crying. I am really fatigued and I have trouble finding the motivation to do anything. I often make plans but then I always end up putting them off and that makes me even more sad. It is also really beating my self-esteem up. My cousins are all out there doing all of this cool stuff and I struggle with simply getting started with my day.
I am getting back into exercise because they used to help boost my moods and it brought joy back into my life. It is a catch-22 though. Exercise will help me feel better but I can't get motivated to exercise.

I guess I just need to get out there and do it.

[rose petals]

hope4life--
i have the same motivation problems--i finally stopped shoulding myslef--society and media tend to make people think if they are not living their life a certain way--they are not doing good enough--imo,it is all bunk--the only thing i should do is not drink--isleep when i need to --be alone when i need to--eat--whatever--i stopped caring what people thoght i should do--as alkies or addicts we overwhelm ourselves trying to be like the others and imo i dont think we can be--at least i cant--not now--maybe never--i dont know--but i know some people have to work and that and they cant sleep whenever they want --i am fortunate to have a loving ,understanding hubbie--but there are maybe other ways to stop pushing yourself--like just do the basics--work--home--tv --sleep--pay bills--dont add on extras to conform unless that is what you want to do--this is just what ive done--i took all the pressure off me--most pressure on people is from themself and media or family --this all may not make sense--but i just relax and make small steps
take care
laura

[Hope]

Laura,
That is true! When a bunch of small steps add up, it makes big steps.

I believe that it will get better for the both of us!

[Hope]

"So often we dwell on the things that seem impossible rather than on the things that are possible.

So often we are depressed by what remains to be done and forget to be thankful for all that has been done."

-- Marian Wright Edelman --

I found this quote and I love it! It is true. It is easy to get overwhelmed with what remains to be done. Instead, we can celebrate small victories and be proud of what we get accomplished. Looking too far ahead clouds our vision and can get discouraging. Even when we take baby steps and do the small things, they are just as important as everything else.

[Justme57]

Hope4 that is a great quote !

I have been battling the " no motivation" feeling too. It has kinda taken me by surprise, I would not have thought I would feel like this. The trouble is, too, that when i am feeling this way, I tend to isolate, I dont ring people, and dont go to see anyone. I always feel that if I am not cheerful, no one would want to hear from me

I am going to a meeting this morning, and will try to share there, and I might feel better

Hope you feel better soon

HUGX
Lee

[Hope]

Thanks Lee.

I hope you feel better after the meeting. Sharing is often a big help. It is great just to be able to talk about things instead of keeping them in.

You have people in your life who want to be there for you even during times when you don't feel cheerful. That is the beauty of having great friends.

Hugs,

Cheryl

[ladybug little]

i'm glad to see i'm not the only one feeling this way. after 17 months sober, i relapsed. i'm now on day 5 but my depression is worsening. in the 3 weeks i was out there i managed to really mess my life up and now i don't want to deal with the consequences. i'm still taking my medication (zoloft, seroquel) and i called to make a counseling appointment. but, i can't manage to get out of bed before 1p and it's spiraling downward. i'm feeling very lost. i have talked to people but to leave the house just hurts. i feel like i'm losing my mind.

ladybug little

[Hope]

(((Ladybug little))) You are not alone!

That is just what I am going through. I also managed to mess up my life in a few weeks and I can't seem to face the consequences. I have been running from the consequences due to fear but I found that only compounds my negative feelings.

I am here for you!

[ladybug little]

thank you cheryl. i know i can't run forever. the first step is the hardest. i'm just going to keep praying. thank you again. feeling alone is the worst.

stephanie

[Hope]

Stephanie, you are in my thoughts and prayers!!
My heart goes out to you because I know exactly what you are going through.

If you ever need someone to listen, PM me anytime!

Cheryl

[rose petals]

the lack of motivation is,from what i read part of post acute withdrawl--it is very common among alkies and addicts--i think and hope it will come back someday--in time --until then im gentle with myself and when im getting overwhelmed i just let someone know and basically drop whatever is overwhelming me like its hot!!!--because i have to stay sober and getting overwhelmed had been a problem in the past--it is life or death for me if i drink--i become horrifyingly ill and anyway--just some thoughts--ladybug,just me and hope--take care --all us un motivated folks can stick together--lol
Laura

[PaperDolls]

Lee, Cheryl, Stephanie, Laura, and ladybug (did I forget anyone?)
I can relate to all of you. I do know that my depression is not from acute withdrawal as I have been sober for over 3 months. I'm just so tired all the time. I've been on anti-depressants for about 5 months (?) and they seemed to help but may be not so much any more.

You're right about it being a catch-22......can't get motivated to get motivated. Blah.....It makes me feel so lazy and I know that's how I'm perceived sometimes. When I am feeling overwhelmed I tell people. They appreciate my honesty and I feel better for being honest.

Now, just to figure out how to get motivated. I really would rather stay in bed all day. The only reason I don't is because everyone will think I'm lazy or may be even crazy!

We can get through this together!!

~doll

[rose petals]

hi paperdolls
yeah , withdrawls only last a few days (for alcohol)--but post-acout withdarwals last for like a couple of yrs if i understand right--they call it post acute withdrawal syndrome--anyway--take care and hang in there--hope you have a peacful evening!!!
Laura

[Hope]

We can get through this together!

[liveweyerd]

thank you for the great post. Esp the reminders of managing our expectations and taking care of the basics. I wonder if I am ever going to really learn that. My depression is treated medically but I still cycle into not okay. Today I did sleep all day and missed work...but I think I was exhausted. I, too, feel drained of motivation. But I can also remember when I felt great and loved life AND when I was very much sicker; so I can always rely on one thing....things change. I am pretty charged up over the fact that I went to the grocery store last evening and am actually eating! I am proud of it......and also sick of it that most people don't struggle over such everyday things. I wouldn't answer my phone today. I really needed a total break even if no one else who knows me can understand. Looking in my scrip bottle I can see that I missed taking the primary (of two) antidepressants way too much.
live

[Hope]

I'm just sitting here and all of a sudden, the tears just started falling. I don't really have a reason to be sad today so I don't know where the tears are coming from. Maybe there is a reason that I am unaware of or maybe it is because my emotions feel so raw.

Tears can be healing for the soul. Maybe I will let them flow.

[Purrdy]

God you girls area godsend...thankyou for these posts.....thankyouxxxx