i was without meds

[mistee]

I was without meds and i thought my world was falling somewhat apart. it seems no matter how badly i did something it wasnt good enough to my state worker who has my autisitc son in there care

i have been madly cleaning my home the last week organizing organizing getting rid of things and all to make my home safer and all cuz they keep telling me his return is soon if i do this and that

now they are telling me i have to stop smoking in my home in my car and in general i should stop too they want to do a pee test on my teen that makes sense and one on me again to see if i am still drug and booze free my dos 1/24/98 i will have 5yrs on the 24th

i went to my shrink and told him all this yesterday he is like they cant do all this to u have u talked to ur attorneys i said i have i then called the supervisor of childrens services in the area and told them that my shrink is concerned on the adding toos that they keep doing to me (without court orders) of course i was in tears and so he said to me that he was concerned for my well being i said i have been working very hard on me changes to get my son home but he is the autistic one and i have been geting support for that going to meetings and all best thing i can be doing is working with him at home not once a week that is what others keep telling me

my hands are tied i feel at this time but i am praying if it wasnt for my 12 steps and my higher power who knows where i would be right now thanks again for ur support
lots of hugs
mistee

Mistee,

It's a good idea to smoke outside and not in the car with your son, but they cannot tell you to quit smoking and withhold your child for that. There would be a lot of us without our children if that were the case.


Don't call them and give them more to use against you. Let your attorney do the calling. Don't offer more information than they need to know.

Why were you out of medication?

Hugs,
MG

[mistee]

Mg so good to see ya again
wow i have missed you
i ran out of meds and didnt think i was covered for medical insurance i had applied and was denied since my kids were gone and now i am fighting with oregon health plan to be reinstated for medical benefits for myself

i did find out that my shrink has been paid until april or may so that is a good thing. he said as long as i am in the office every 4 to 5 weeks he will give me sample meds to help me until i get things straightened out for myself and since i am on disability too i found out that i quaifly for medical thru them but have no medical card so no one will take me until i have a card in hand it is crazy

but it is good to be back on meds again but my body is having a hard time adjusting to them it seems i am so tired now since i have started to take them maybe a good thing since i was so manic the last few weeks

at times i feel like this is never gonna be over but i had a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel when child was here the day after christmas we had a blast together
he was so funny when it was time to go he sat on the ground with his arms folded in his lap but he didnt cry the worker said that he seemed to enjoy himself and didnt want to leave of course i had to bribe my son with a capri sun drink to get him in the car and that usually works pretty good without a fight
good to hear from u again much needed prayers are still in the works teen is doing good on her path of recovery too and i am thankful for that she is back to school so that is a blessing of the new year too

love and hugs mistee

Mistee,

You are doing such a good job. I'm so happy your daughter is doing well in recovery.

Congratualations on your recovery too. You made it through all of this clean and sober.

I will keep you in my prayers.

Hugs,
MG

[Josie]

Mistee,
Sending prayers your way. I've been
thinking about you. Right now I am
so mad at myself-there was a program
on 60 minutes tonight-they are making
major breakthroughs with autism. I
forgot to watch it, and forgot to tell
you about it. I don't know if you get
this program in Oregon or not-maybe
it will come on at a later date there?
I am so proud of your daughter!

Hugs,

[sidney]

Mistee,
Your doing all you can do and I can see why your frustrated. It seems like roadblocks keep popping up evey time you fee you have made progress. But you are making progress. Like MG said , stay with your attorney. Dont give them anything to use against you. Im glad the pass with your autistic son went well. Whats his name.
You are a strong woman and you can do it . Just keep on fighting. Stay on your meds and get that whole mess take care of.

Thinking of you,
Blessings,
Sidney