I Need To Be Here Right Now

[velvet]

I would go to the emergency room Vic...maybe someone other than the doctor, you are seeing, may have different way to help you....sorta like a second opinion on your meds.

[Chance]

I just woke up and have no energy I am going b ack to bed Not doing good head is pounding, still have no clue if I shoudl even stay I don't know now the mental part is starting I hate this ****

[bikewench]

Hey ((VIC))

I know buddy...
I know it sucks...
But.. these things don't work themselves out on our time.

All this bad stuff that needs to come outa us...
It takes time.
And it hurts when it comes out... ;o)

Be gentle with yourself Vic...
allow your body and mind to heal...
and listen to them... their trying to tell you how to get well..
so yeah...
if your tired.. go back to bed...
and think good thoughts while your there...
and if you can't.... then turn it to prayer... for you or someone else.
that cancels the cycle for me every time.. ;o)

Your not alone in this Vic.

[Chance]

I need to stay is anyone here that I can tell them what I have a solution for but I need a lot of support through it all I will explain but I took my shot about 4 1/2 hours ago and I can not type good right now I am shaking too bad.

Love Vic

I will try and post my solution tomorrow do I use this thread or another one? Please let me know...

I posted this last night so what should I do This is the shot taking control again. I have to call my nurse here I don't know....

[bikewench]

Vic..
You can post your solution here.. ;o)

Hang in there...

[Chance]

She said that I am done, that she need to get me into a Pshyciatrist today. See what happens when I tell people what is going on now what are they going to lock me up for how this shot has made me think. I can not do this I am NOT going to give up my freedom fuckit I am going to lock myself down now.

[Chance]

Hello what do I do? I don't know...

[bikewench]

Easy...
Their not out to get you Vic.

Have you tried some calming exercises ..??
Staying stuck in a head loop is not good.. so..
How bout trying some calming exercises ..??

More Cycle Breakers and Calming Exercises

.

The following is an excerpt from: "The Yoni Dance, Volume One, Once is not enough."

Reptilian Brian / Human Brain: Place your left hand (that’s the hand on which you wear your watch) flat on your forehead. Place your right flat on the back of your head, where you head sticks out furthest to the back.� With your eyes still closed, breathe deeply and just stand there for about thirty seconds.�

Again I do as directed.

To my surprise, after only about fifteen seconds, I notice that my muscles are beginning to relax. I’m particularly aware of the shift in my abdominal muscles. Spontaneously I take another deep breath. As I relax, I'm amazed at how easily I lost my cool and reverted to my childhood conditioning. At that point, the old man speaks and breaks my train of thought.

“Okay, Sonny, take another deep breath, then put your hands down and open your eyes."

Try it Vic...

You can help yourself as well.

[bikewench]

Here's another one.

Begin by interrupting your normal daily thoughts. Think about what is going on around you. Then switch your thoughts to yourself and your breathing. Take a few deep breaths, exhaling slowly.

Mentally scan your body. Notice areas that feel tense or cramped, such as your neck or shoulders. Quickly loosen up these areas. Let go of as much tension as you can.

Rotate your head to the left in a smooth, circular motion, leaning your left ear to your left shoulder. Rotate your head to the right in a smooth, circular motion, leaning your right ear to your right shoulder. (Stop any movements that cause pain.)

Roll your shoulders forward and backward several times. Let all of your muscles completely relax.

Recall a pleasant thought for a few seconds. Take another deep breath and exhale slowly. You should feel more relaxed.

It helps to take action.
Focus the mind on something else.
Performing certain behaviors calms the body stress level outside of our mental control.

Calming the body will relieve the antsyness in the mind...


I have to help myself through.

[Time4Change]

Hey Vic. I'm sorry to hear you're going through such a tough time right now. I know one of the guys in my NA group is going through his series of shots for his Hep C treatment and it's been very difficult for him, too. So Sweetie, you're never alone.

I took a peek at rxlist.com's description of your treatments, and found a lot of good info that might help you better understand some of the side effects you should expect.
Click here -------> http://rxlist.com/cgi/generic4/introna_pi.htm

Hang in there, Vic! You CAN do this!
And hey, maybe you'll meet a cutie-pie nurse during all this, eh? Hee!

[bikewench]

hehehe...

cutie pie nurse..
that'd take his mind off.. thats for sure.. ;o)


I read the link.. thanks so much T4C..

Vic..
methinks you need to trust your medics.. and let them help you through this....

The mental health part of this is not to be messed with.. so.. no lock downs.. okay..??

You gotta let people help you.

[Chance]

OK I have calmed down OMG I don't know...I need to get a bath and relax right now. I called my sponsor here and he came over to tell me it will be ok...The nurse called me back and is calling my specialist to see if he can pull a few strings to get me into see a phsyciatrist. Like I told her the emotions of it won't start for another day but the physical is really bad right now. And Kelly that page you put there I am having all of those side effects really bad. She told me also that we need to do something because locking myself up in my apt for five days is not health. LOL I KNOW THAT>

Anyway I might have to hang on to SR right now. My sponsor said to call him when she finds out what is going on and he would take me to the hospital. Thank God I reached out to the group yesterday and told them I really need help. They are so nice to help, he told me he loved me

[bikewench]

of course your loved... ;o)

was there ever any doubt..????


Your sounding MUCH better Vic..
and you sound like you got a plan and lots of support in place..

I'm around all day.. so.. ;o)

[cwohio]

vic - i am glad you reached out - i hope they can get you balanced out and feeling better!!!! (((()))))

[Chance]

Originally Posted by bikewench

of course your loved... ;o)

was there ever any doubt..????

)

Yes there is doubt my head tells me that I am not loved, that no one cares, then it tells me stuff like you can not leave your apt. The thoughts are not there now but I feel I am going emotionally insane and that is not good. Have I always been like this since I came here? I don't know my sponsor doesn't remember me being this bad. I am just here I am physically no energy waiting up for the call back from the nurse. I hope it is OK I feel really bad right now.

[Chance]

Originally Posted by cwohio

vic - i am glad you reached out - i hope they can get you balanced out and feeling better!!!! (((()))))

Thanks I just need people to tell me that these thoughts are not real. That it is the interferon shots that are making me think like this or is it? I don't know anymore.

Love Vic

[bikewench]

That it is the interferon shots that are making me think like this or is it? I don't know anymore.

I believe it is Vic...
says right in the link T4C provided.. so.. don't take it on as you being "gone".. ;o)

[Chance]

Originally Posted by bikewench

I believe it is Vic...
says right in the link T4C provided.. so.. don't take it on as you being "gone".. ;o)

Well thank God that these thoughts are not here right now. They have stopped my interferon shots I am still waiting for my nurse to call back. She was pissed when I told her I quit taking that Effexor two days ago. I almost felt it made me more depressed and withdrawn. I hope she hurries and calls hell I am drinking coffee just to keep awake right now. Usually after my shot I sleep for all day and night. Well it will be ok hell I better open my door LOL I don't want to think I am trapped right now

[Chance]

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...p-83611-2.html then I am trying to tell this person it is in her head I can give advice but I don't believe it myself that is nuts..

Love Vic

[Cindi R]

Hang in there Vic...
She's not really pi$$ed at you...it's just that stopping the meds could be making this worse for you right now...
This will be ok...
Hold on...think really happy thoughts...for me...
Laying on a beach somewhere, white sandy beach...nice glass of cold sweet iced tea...
Peaceful...
cool wind blowing...hot sun on your skin...
Relax...
Life is good.

[Chance]

Originally Posted by Cindi R

Hang in there Vic...
She's not really pi$$ed at you...it's just that stopping the meds could be making this worse for you right now...
This will be ok...
Hold on...think really happy thoughts...for me...
Laying on a beach somewhere, white sandy beach...nice glass of cold sweet iced tea...
Peaceful...
cool wind blowing...hot sun on your skin...
Relax...
Life is good.

Yep life is good today...I need to remember that huh? I will be OK..I told her that I have even thought about using...she goes that isn't good I know that. My sponsor and a few other people said that they would even hang out with me for all day if I need them and I said OK I am trying so hard...

Love Vic

[bikewench]

Yes... you are trying hard...

but.. I'm concerned when you start messing with your meds Vic...

Do as the medics say.. okay..??
otherwise it's gonna be hard to get you leveled.

And how bout putting some psychic padding around you for a bit...
don't let yourself get zinged by other people for now...

Stay calm in the middle of the road.. ;o)

[Anna]

Vic,

I am so sorry you are going through this.

Let us know what the nurse says when she calls back and try to relax and believe that they are trying to help you. It is good that the nurse is listening to you and is concerned that you're feeling so bad. They are not going to lock you up because of what this med is doing to you. But, they may be able to find a solution for you, so that you can stay on the treatments that are really helping you with the HepC and still feel good physically and emotionally. Just listen to what they have to say.

And, of course you are loved!!

[Cindi R]

OK, Vic...
You're doing awesome. Remember that.
Through my time in the program I've seen people who've had hepatitis...but in light of the fact that you're having such a difficult time with the interferon, they may have to modify "your" treatment plan...
Don't worry about any of that crap right now...
You just take care of Vic...today...right now...this moment...everything else will fall into place.
Promise...
to try to stay calm, cool and collected...
Do whatever it is that the Dr and the nurse tell you to do...
Let the people help you Vic...

[Time4Change]

How ya doin', Vic? Look at how many people care about you, doood! Have you heard from the nurse yet? I agree with everyone who's been encouraging you to stick with the Effexor and take the meds as they've prescribed them. Some of these meds can be tricky and take a while to kick in. They know what they're doing. Try to have faith.

I'm so glad you're working so closely with your sponsor. That's very wise. And how awesome you have such a caring sponsor who's totally got yer back. Very cool!
You CAN do this! There's a light at the end of the tunnel .....

Kelly