New and looking for support/info

[dancingdragon]

Hi Everyone,
I'm looiking for a place to explore borderline personality disorder.
I was recently told I have this but I've also been told I do not.
I've been in recovery for quite a while and so I've had a lot of therapy ect,
but this one is throwing me a curve.
any info or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks!
Dancingdragon

[MootPoint]

I googled Borderline Personality Disorder and came up with tons of stuff!

I have BPD, so ask and I'll answer what I can What kind of curve is it throwing you?

You'll also get tons of support here.

[dancingdragon]

Hi Mootpoint,
and thanks for getting back to me so quickly.

I just moved and took a live in job with 3 borderline residents. When I took the job I was NOT told about the level of violence here and it's been hard.
I was also just recently told I was borderline and although some of it fits..some of it doesn't.
I am certianly not opposed to learning more and growing more, but I'm darn mad that I wasn't given full info. I also have PTSD and it's something I've worked with for years. I have made a point of creating a career that excluded violence. Now.. here I am!
My decision to stay will be based on my own health. I am looking for resources .. forums where I am with my peers and can trouble shoot these things.

I think what I'm most interested in is finding coping skills that work for me, learning more about the disorder and finding common ground to talk about it.

Dancingdragon

[MootPoint]

That had to be a shock!

I hope you don't push yourself too hard. Pay good attention to your own health. Sounds like a situation that is going to push your buttons! I can tell you that this borderline liked to push buttons, and I doubt I'm the only borderline who is/was like this.

There are severities of borderline, just like there are severities of everything else. Just because you are borderline, you don't have to meet all the criteria.

I just put a link in Links and Resourses to BPDRecovery.com. Might want to check it out!

[dancingdragon]

Thanks for the help MP.
yes, I will check the link out. I found a borderline twelve steps. Very nice.
If you are a 12 step person, I'll cut and paste for you if you would like.
D

[MootPoint]

Borderline 12 steps? I am a 12 step person. I'd love it if you copy and pasted it

[dancingdragon]

Here you go MutePoint,
I've put these on my wall and find them very peaceful.
DD


1. We realized that we were giving our power away to the belief that love exists outside ourselves.
2. We came to believe that all the Love we need exists within ourselves.
3. We made a decision to give our full and complete commitment to knowing the Love within ourselves.
4. We took a searching and courageous inventory of all the ways we judged ourselves or others or allowed ourselves to feel like a victim, while loving and accepting ourselves.
5. While loving ourselves, we shared with another human being the Truth we had discovered about ourselves through this process.
6. We made a list of all the parts of ourselves that did not feel worthy of love, and we made a decision to love them.
7. Through our full commitment to loving ourselves, we confidently realized that we had restored ourselves to integrity.
8. We made a list of all those we had disrespected, abused or manipulated for selfish purposes, and we looked at the ways that through doing this, we were actually abusing ourselves.
9. We forgave and made amends to ourselves and then extended the same spirit of forgiveness and restoration in all of our relationships.
10. We continue to take daily inventory of all the ways that we are not accepting and loving ourselves, and when we see these areas, promptly love ourselves.
11. We realize constant communion with the Source of Love within ourselves, through continued prayer and meditation.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of following these steps, we automatically love others as we love ourselves and carry this message to those who still suffer.