| What is the difference between dependence & addiction?
This drives me crazy! I am ADDICTED to cigarettes.
I have 6 prescriptions, and I think of only one of them as being "a drug" so I get off it because I don't want to be addicted and then I am sick with anxiety and everyone hollers take your meds! And, yes, when I cold turkey like it says you are not supposed to, I go thro' withdrawals...and I don't want to take anything like that. My other two daily drugs I think of as medications.
So I tried to decide if I was thinking in terms of clasifications...like lexapro isn't an abuser's drug but xanax is. But, I popped my own bubble on that, because I have a bottle of Ultram laying around too and I have heard that others are addicted to it, tho' I can't understand why. It is like taking an advil to me. I take it for pain, and not often, because all my pain is in my head. The xanax can be seductive to me...but even without I don't go drug seeking etc, I call it names and want rid of it, want rid of the need for it.
I go thro' this struggle every 10 days, because in this country that is how it is supplied by the pharmacy, they don't fill to dr's orders. Subsitutes, they are all in the same class and anything stronger scrambles my head. A bump up would be to klonopin and I refuse that, it is an od to me. Too much. Cut the dosage, ineffective, the drug's nature is to develop a tolerance.
ugh.....I fall into this circle at least twice a month.
I spent a great part of last night reading the boards trying to figure out what is wrong with me.
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11-10-2004, 03:31 PM
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