addiction and DID

[fluffybunny]

I have been treated for DID and past abuse issues by a wonderful T for nearly 4 years. Recently, one of my teen alters was very up-front about addiction problems and how bad it's gotten, my therapist had no idea how bad it was.
But when one of the protectors (who's great at doing research) said that we should be going through de-tox and out-patient addiction therapy, along with my regular therapy, my therapist was very hesitant about it.
She's afraid that people not familiar with our history and about DID will misunderstand what's going on and may cause more harm than good. She also says that until we address all of the issues on why we abuse drugs, there is no point in seeking drug counseling. I said in that case then no one should be in drug counseling!
She has some training with addiction therapy and says that she can help us through this but I can only see her once a week and I don't think that's enough considering how deep we are in this problem.
I know that she wants to protect me. Some of my alters have acted out before and she has had to smooth things over and explain what's going on.
Has anyone experienced this before?

Fluffybunny

[splendra]

((((((fluffybunny))))))))

I was in counseling for several years before I quit using. I hope you will stick with your therapist and do what she says to do. In the mean time you can seek support here and keep posting......we care and want to hear from you. (((((((BIG HUG))))))))

[lurkings]

Fluffybunny~
I was just resently diagnosed with DID. It is kind of scary and I too have a very supportive T. It has been a hard learning process. Have you asked her directly you would like to see her more? I know with my T if I hint around things she doesn't always give me an answer but I resently asked her if I could have an extra meeting and she agreed and we set up a new one. Sometimes you have to be very direct.

Have you thought about why you would want an additional meeting? I know that is one thing therapists access is reasoning. So think about why you would like an extra and let her/him know your concern.

I would like to ask you a question if I may!

L~

[fluffybunny]

I can't see her more than once a week because it's a 90 mile round trip. My big concern is withdrawals (I've been using morphine and heroin), physical effects and psychological effects on everyone inside me.
I'm just terrified and don't know if I can do this.
I feel like everything is falling apart and I know it's all my fault.

[lurkings]

Fluffybunny~
Have you asked her what you can do about this? Could you have a phone session or an internet session? I know it isn't the same as in person but could possibly hold you over until the next session. I know it is hard. If it were easy no body would need therapist or anything. I know you know the drug using masks other problems, do you know what you are using it for?

Have you ever tried visualization? I one of my insiders have been having a issue with some addiction, it isn't drugs or alcohol though, and all my T would keep telling me is to redirect. I didn't feel like this helped me until I started doing more. Bike rides, skateboarding, walking, coloring, drawing, e-mailing, journaling... Just really filling up my life with things to do and now we don't have as much time to do the bad things and we aren't doing anything to mask the problems. So when we talk to our T it is a little easier. Drawing is the most wonderful feeling in the world it really helps us.

I am truely sorry you are having such a rough time about this and I am sure and can't even imagine how hard it is. But hang in there and keep posting and keep communication with your T.

L~