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[liveweyerd]

just kidding.

I quit. I knew I was getting sick. Now my chemicals are way out of balance.
I have done the digging. I have done the externals. It totally relieved my mind calling my bf and hearing that he and my family are really okay. I watched the satellite images of Ivan going right over them last night. Add to that those dreams I was having. + + + + = bring on the anxiety disorder full blown monster.

I am taking my meds even if I only have one more day's worth.
Knowing they are in the mail, so I stop taking them for back up until new arrives is getting me too sick.

I am not going to put me through this any longer. Done.

the last thing I have to say to myself today is keep it simple stupid.

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(((((LIVE)))))

Um, my dear sweet friend, when you say you are done.... what exactly do you mean??? I'm really worried about you! I'm so sorry that I am just now getting your message.

Have you gotten you meds in the mail yet??? How are you doing??? Please let me know.

Please be gentle with yourself during this difficult time. Take long soothing baths. Listen to relaxing music. Take quite walks if you can. Pray to your HP. And remember that this too shall pass!

BIG HUGS and lots of WARM VIBES zooming your way!!!!

To keep off the rain while you weather this storm
To keep you warm and remind you that you're not alone
To be there with you day and night

Love ya GF!!

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I threw a fit and got my meds, am fine.
Hey, I am never suicidal......homicide has crossed my mine!

I am taking it easy, I am pretty well recuperated except for getting my nutrition back up and MG just put out a wonderful post for foods that help the adrenal problem, so there is my shopping list.

Get, this...bf and I broke up this morning.
I sent him a poem, it is in WIR

His loss!!!!

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Sorry about that Tena. I'm a worrier. Always have been. You should see my mom and her sister. When the slightest thing goes wrong...you would think they lost an arm or that the sky is falling in on them. Thankfully, I'm not that bad.

I'm glad to hear you got your meds and are back on your way to being healthy again.

I don't really know what you mean about getting your nutrition back up (in reference to being without meds, that is) or what adrenal is. I can't seem to find MG's post you mentioned.

Okay, now I'm really starting to feel stupid because I don't know what WIR stands for??

Sometimes things just don't click like they should in my head. But I really am quite intelligent. Really. No, really. I AM! I've scored above average on every IQ test I've ever taken...genius in fact! But I am ditzy. I'll admit that. If my brain were an office you wouldn't be able to find the desk through all the unorganized piles of papers, memos, charts, writing utinsels, computer disks and opened and unopened mail. If I ever find a filing system that works for me (or a personal secretary) then WATCH OUT WORLD!

Losing or chucking a boyfriend has always been emotional for me, but you sound like you have it under control!

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Shutterbug,

I will try to find that post from MG it was WONDERFUL!
WIR is shorthand for the forum Women In Recovery.
And, my bf,,,,,well, I found out that he was struggling very hard to find solutions for us...and well, that is NEW to me!
I confess I drove him crazy irritating him and, gulp did not respond well to the smart-alec comment I took as I am done with you. Put him under a full blown Kickapoo savage attack. Torture and scalpings. Tie him to the ground, cover him with honey and turn loose the ants!
I think he might be a keeper, all he had to say about it was, well, you certainly got my attention and figured out a way to meet my needs from him.
So, I am doing very well!

Got my meds straight and that is always the number 1 thing.

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Shutterbug,

Right beneath this forum is another for PTSD, open it, MG has a post Adrenal Weakness, that I was referring to as a Godsend.

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Thanks for the clarifications.

Oh, and the Kickapoo savage attack...priceless!
( I'm like 1/32 Indian, without a roll number of course, but I definetly live in Indian country so I got a full-blown mental picture).

Good to hear ya'll are back together. Wish I could find a keeper. Of course, I know I have to work on becoming a keeper myself first :mad1: .

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okay, I found MG's post. Great by the way. I asked her to post it over here too so some others might can benefit also.

Still can't find your poem though. What is the thread called? My brain has been in low gear lately. I'm about tired of just puttering around through life.