I stink...I'm going to take a bath...

[shutterbug]

Yep, you heard me right.

I felt like doggie doo doo when I logged onto this machine 12 hours ago and after a full night of recovery typing I'm ready to smell good and clean.

Jimminey Christmas!! I just can't believe I've been on here that long. Time sure does fly when your in active recovery mode.

(oh and well, maybe a little manic too...or normal...hmmm I'm just not quite sure at the moment, but I'll let ya know if I ever figure it out)

Wish me happy bubbling. Just no peeking!

[splendra]

[Live]

Been there, often.
If ya can't be bothered to brush your teeth, you WHAT? expect me to wash up the whole thing?

Know why I always wear ankle length skirts?
I won't shave my legs!

The best way to get me to take a bath....put a naked man in the tub first.

[MootPoint]

enjoy your

[shutterbug]

That bath was a good one....I think I may be ready for another. :Flush:

[shutterbug]

Well, I had a shower Thursday or Friday. And i think I had a bath the week before. I'm trying to keep track here, but not sure why. I really wish I could get my gas turned back on, because it's getting cold here and ice cold showers have grown old and well....they just suck big lemons! Life will be much easier once I can take warm showers at home again. I think I will be able to keep myself much less stinky.

[shutterbug]

Update on my personal smell factor... Smellin' like :rose (actually, it's Obsession I'm wearing. My fav)
Could I be Jellin'? Like a fellin'?

Ok. So I get goofy when I'm manic, but at least I'm clean. And it didn't take me a week this time to muster up the energy. I had a warm shower at my sis's two days ago. Two showers in three days. I'm so happy. I'm hoping this is a good sign that I might be edging back to my normal hygenic and much happier self.

Still no gas at my house yet. I was waiting on a check from AP that took 20 times longer than normal to be mailed to me and they shorted me $125 for some odd reason. I'm sure they will pay me the rest when they realize their mistake, but that means I don't have enough yet to get my gas turned back on.

Anyway, I know but that's okay, because I'm journaling and ya'll don't have to read about my stinky shortcomings if you don't wanna.



I've been going non-stop since 9:30 a.m. yesterday and I'm starting to get sleepy. Although, when I get manic like I have been I kinda hate to go to sleep cause I'm afraid I'll wake up back on the down side of life again. I'm thinking I may go get some coffee and then clean my house, but not quite sure yet.

Anyway, that's enought taking to myself about nothingness for one day.

[Live]

I had a shower yesterday. Only because I couldn't go another day.

Why is this such a problem?

But I am glad to have met someone so I know I am not the only one.

[shutterbug]

I am very glad to have met you. You just don't know how much it puts me at ease to know I am not the only one. It's really hard for most to understand. And I don't blame them since i don't understand it either, but I know it's not due to lack of will or want.

When you say "Why is this such a problem?" do you mean for me personally? As in, why do I seem to be focusing so much on my poor hygien?
Or why is this such a problem for bipolar's to deal with?

If you're referring to the latter... I really wish I knew. The smallest tasks or the everyday tasks are usually the hardest for me. The things that normal people do without much thought like opening their mail, grocery shopping, stopping to put gas in their car and taking a bath or shower are all things that I have to really push myself hard to do. I have to keep reminding myself and remembering the negative results if I don't do the things I have to. Don't understand it at all - it's just me and I will have to work against it for the rest of my life.

If you were wondering, why I seem to be concentrating on the issue so much —well, I already have this kinda phobia that even if I just got out of the shower and put on clean clothes and deoderant...that I smell bad. I hate getting in close proximity to any strangers and most family and friends. So...needless to say, if I haven't showered in a week and my close are dirty ---then I know I smell. And well, I started back to work today and since I work in the "professional" world...it's an expectation, of course, to show up clean for work each day.

okay, too much information. This is kinda hard for me.

Plus, I know that when I'm not able to keep my home or myself clean then I am not healthy yet. I want to be healthy, so therefore, I want to be able to keep myself showered each day and my house clutter-free. (The way I keep my surroundings and my appearence is in direct correlation to my mental state.)

Anyway, I'm clean for my first day back to work today, but since i still have no hot water I'll probably be a day dirty when i'm back here tomorrow.