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pjplibra · 08-29-2004, 09:01 PM

:sink Well...been trying to figure out where in the H#@@ I belong. Been posting in WIR. I am a depressed mess. I am on many medications... seemed to help..but I was drinking toooo. tring to quit the alcohol. I know it is no good with meds. I found that I often - recently could not remember parts of the night. No clue... maybe foggy scenes. Thank God the Lord was with me. Good thing they repo'd my car and I didn't drive. I just feel sooooo lost. I feel like a failure at life. Going to be 50 soon and I lost my job.. car... But at least my children are grown and doing well. I am soooo sad lately.. just got or shall I say now trying to break away from a relationship with an alcoholic - bad one-made me even worse. He drinks allllll day!!!! I started drinking daily with him.. even though I waited til 4 or 5pm instead of his 11 am or noon. But, I know that is wrong for me... the fights, the degrading comments from him. I don't have any friends if I don't drink... that is sad - huh?
I'm thinkin that I need to stay off the booze and let my medication help me.. but is it the quitting that has me alll sooooo sad... sad. sad? Normal when facing this decision? Anyone out there understand me??? Got to go and cry some more... pitiful aren't I? Tomorrow I will wake and go for a walk. I really do try.. but it is sooooo lonely... I feel sooo alone like I don't matter at all.

sweeks · 08-30-2004, 10:54 AM

Hello pjplibra! I'm pretty new and I don't have any advice to really offer. I just wanted to say that you do matter!! Stick around and I'm sure someone will come along soon!

Hugs & keep posting!!

MootPoint · 08-30-2004, 11:51 AM

the only advice I have for you is to think of AA and Al Anon. You've definitely earned a seat in both!

Re the depression, yes, the booze interferes with the meds. And..... you have already answered your question about drinking. You know it is bad for you and that you need to quit.

All I really have for you is a hug and letting you know that you matter and I care.

Keep posting, pjplibra

08-29-2004, 09:01 PM	#1 (permalink)
pjplibra Time for a change Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Planet Earth Posts: 24	lost at sea :sink Well...been trying to figure out where in the H#@@ I belong. Been posting in WIR. I am a depressed mess. I am on many medications... seemed to help..but I was drinking toooo. tring to quit the alcohol. I know it is no good with meds. I found that I often - recently could not remember parts of the night. No clue... maybe foggy scenes. Thank God the Lord was with me. Good thing they repo'd my car and I didn't drive. I just feel sooooo lost. I feel like a failure at life. Going to be 50 soon and I lost my job.. car... But at least my children are grown and doing well. I am soooo sad lately.. just got or shall I say now trying to break away from a relationship with an alcoholic - bad one-made me even worse. He drinks allllll day!!!! I started drinking daily with him.. even though I waited til 4 or 5pm instead of his 11 am or noon. But, I know that is wrong for me... the fights, the degrading comments from him. I don't have any friends if I don't drink... that is sad - huh? I'm thinkin that I need to stay off the booze and let my medication help me.. but is it the quitting that has me alll sooooo sad... sad. sad? Normal when facing this decision? Anyone out there understand me??? Got to go and cry some more... pitiful aren't I? Tomorrow I will wake and go for a walk. I really do try.. but it is sooooo lonely... I feel sooo alone like I don't matter at all.

08-30-2004, 11:51 AM	#3 (permalink)
MootPoint we're all mad here! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: a padded room with bars Posts: 1,683	the only advice I have for you is to think of AA and Al Anon. You've definitely earned a seat in both! Re the depression, yes, the booze interferes with the meds. And..... you have already answered your question about drinking. You know it is bad for you and that you need to quit. All I really have for you is a hug and letting you know that you matter and I care. Keep posting, pjplibra __________________ The duke had a mind that ticked like a clock and, like a clock, it regularly went cuckoo. ---------Terry Pratchett

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08-30-2004, 10:54 AM	#2 (permalink)
sweeks Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Des Moines, IA Posts: 184	Hello pjplibra! I'm pretty new and I don't have any advice to really offer. I just wanted to say that you do matter!! Stick around and I'm sure someone will come along soon! Hugs & keep posting!!

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