I Cut, Part 2
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Hi helpwanted!
When threads get to be about 500 posts long, we start a new one for the original poster. If we didn't, this forum would slow to a crawl
I think that you have gained so much support from this thread is fantastic! You're a sequel!!
When threads get to be about 500 posts long, we start a new one for the original poster. If we didn't, this forum would slow to a crawl
I think that you have gained so much support from this thread is fantastic! You're a sequel!!
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At the beginning of summer I couldn't even hold my knife without wanting to use it to cut nor could I hold other knives bc knives and cutting go hand in hand. Sometimes I look at things that have to with self harm and cutting. That brings up memories for me thrus making me miss it and want to do it again. I know I brought that on my myself but still after one year without it. It doesn't get easier like I thought.
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I left the place that I loved because my health was not good. It was hurting me and how I worked. I couldn't do it anymore. So I went home. To the place I knew what was in store. Abuse, yelling, and I knew I would be alone a lot of the time. I have gone to so many drs since I have been home. My heart isn't good. I fight that everyday and people think I am just faking bc I can't do stuff like them or act like them. I can't be like them. I have accepted that time and time again. I don't understand why I can't be like everyone else. But people just need to accept the fact that I am sick. It's a chronic thing it's not going to go away. I AM SICK. I am going to a hematologist tomorrow because something is seriously wrong. This is a wake up call to everyone. Things aren't the same anymore. My friend died a few weeks ago. And I thought that it should have been me. I was the one who wanted to end it all and now she is gone and I am alive. I wanted to die. I am so tired of being sick. I can't do this anymore. I can't. But I have to. And no one knows how hard it is to keep on going. I act how I do because I wasn't cared for the way I should have been. I am trying to change. But maybe I should not even bother bc nothing I do is ever good enough for anyone. There I said it.
Hi Help!
I just wanted to let you know that I am here. I'm not always real quick with the perfect helpful answer, but I will keep you in my heart and get back to you soon.
I just wanted to let you know that I am here. I'm not always real quick with the perfect helpful answer, but I will keep you in my heart and get back to you soon.
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Jill, you've been checking in here for the past 5 years so I know you're not going to give up. Please get the help you need and keep reaching out. I'm sorry to hear you lost a friend.
BTW- I don't want to be like everyone else. I sorta like being a unique individual with my own story
BTW- I don't want to be like everyone else. I sorta like being a unique individual with my own story
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