I'm partially hospitalized.

[eddie z.]

Hey, y'all! Sorry I haven't been around much lately. I've been asleep. Yes, I went from not being able to sleep to sleeping all the time, and ended up in a partial hospitalization program. We just can't seem to get these medications right.

I got off of Wellbutrin, onto Straterra, and my Zoloft has been increased. I'm still just tired all the time. Now they want to put me on Provigil. Anybody here been on it? It's to keep me awake.

How are folks in this neck of the woods? I wish I could say I'm doing better than I am, but I can't. And it feels so much like a physical/chemical problem that it's hard for me to believe that trying to think and act differently will do much good. Does that make sense?

Love, Eddie

[runningfree]

Of course it makes sense. I haven't done any activity here because it is just not very active lately. What does "partial" hospitalization mean? I am the wrong person to ask about the medication thing. It still isn't working for me, but I muddle along. It sounds serious so I hope that you are doing okay because you are always so positive and supportive of me and I hope that I can do the same for you. Just keep your head above water. :sink

People around me are getting a little tired of this. My husband for one has had some burst of anger at me for no "good" reason. He just wants it to be over if it is going to be.

I posted on the ACOA place about my relationship with my "friend" that doesn't seem to be working out and I fell apart in the mean time. I crumbled because of hurt and indifferences and anger. I wish I could just be the "Stepford" friend and not feel the anger anymore.

Please feel better. The best part of the year is approaching and it is important to just enjoy some light and sun.
Take care...
sh---

[indigo]

Eddie,
It's good to see you posting again sis, I hold you in my thoughts.
Love Indie

[51anna]

Hi Eddie,

Yes, that sounds right Eddie. Not everything is within our abilities to do anything about and if it's a physical/chemical problem then hopefully the meds will work out. But, you know of course, that keeping a positive attitude always helps! I'm wishing that for you.

Love, Anna

[dotcom]

hi ed,

hope things even out for you! im back on meds (finally). glad to see your back!

hugs,

dot

[2stop]

(((((((((Eddie)))))))))) Thoughts and prayers are with you. :smile:

[journeygal]

Hi Eddie,

My husband has narcolepsy, which causes him to nod off in the middle of the day. He's been taking Provigil for a few months and it's been working very well for him. It lets him stay awake during the day and sleep at night with no problems. But be careful when you go off of it - you'll end up crashing pretty hard.

Hope this helps.

Take care,
JG

[woodtick]

Eddie,
straterra makes me amped. In fact i quit taking it w/o my doctors orders b/c I felt like such a freak from the amplified sympathetic nervous system tremors it produced. I'm already self-conscious about myself, it really sucks when I'm shaking all the time in front of people when I'm not even nervous. I keep thinking everybody thinks I'm a freakoid or something when I do that.
I have been sleeping a lot myself since I went off the Straterra. It may just be coincidence cuz I'm getting increasingly depressed at the same time.
Your statement makes sense to me, sometimes no matter how hard yo try you can't "will" yourself into feeling better. Believe me, I've tried. My biggest obstacle lately is understanding my purpose in life (ok no snickering and mentioning that Steve Martin movie 'the Jerk' and the use of 'purpose' in it) Tee heee heee!!!! I just try to understand why I am doing all this. Why am I going through all this trouble? What's it all for? Oh, the questions of humanity. At least if I had children I could say that I'm here for them but I don't. Yikes, i gotta figure out something fast or at least some kind of b.s. story to get me by. I saw a bumper sticker today that said "adopt me Ozzy" , that hits too close to home I think!!!!
I only hope you can get some things figured out with your meds. We need all the punk rockers we can get these days!! hang in there Eddie!!!

[Alice Wonder]

hi eddie i am sorry that the medication is messing with you. i am putting good thoughts on you that things will balance out a little for you. you deserve it! you need the sleeping beauty avatar till things get better although i do like the kitty kat. love-alice

[eddie z.]

Thank you Sharon, Indigo, Anna, dot, Tammie, JG, Brent, and Alice!!!

I've missed you all. I'm still going to an intensive outpatient program, but I'm doing some better. I really appreciate all the well-wishes. I'm taking the Provigil in the morning and Straterra at night in addition to Zoloft, Abilify, and naltrexone. Something's giving me a tremor, but that could even be just caffeine. And I'm still napping in the afternoon even with the Provigil! Does that mean it's not working right? It's all very confusing and frustrating.

Thanks again, everyone!
Love, Eddie

[eddie z.]

Here's a little something to cheer us all up!! I'm still straggling along in IOP, still trying to get the meds adjusted and my days and nights straight. How are folks 'round here?

[dotcom]

hang on ed! its gonna be a bumpy ride! glad your back posting. i loovvve that cat attachment. too cute!

hugs,

dot

[eddie z.]

Hey, dot! When is/was your 18 month date? Did I miss it? I'll have 18 months on Monday. Whoo-hoo!

[dotcom]

(((ed))) my 17th will be tomorrow. almost to 18! wow! congrats on your almost 18 months, that is rockin. how are you doing?

[eddie z.]

Congrats on 17 months, dot!!

I'm trying to stay hopeful and patient that I'm going to get better slowly. But slowly seems to be the key word. Thanks for asking. Did I read somewhere that you finally got back on meds or into therapy or something?

Love, Eddie

[eddie z.]

More anime fun!!

[Chy]

Eddie good to see ya gal!!

[eddie z.]

Thanks, Chy! It's good to see you, too.
Love, Eddie

[dotcom]

(((((ed))))) thanks for the thread! you rock! yes im back on meds and in therapy. i hope you start feeling better soon. i know what you mean about "slowly". you are rocking on!

hugs,

dot

[eddie z.]

Again, you're welcome, dot!!

[eddie z.]

:Flush: I still feel like this is where my energy has gone! Plus I just wanted to use that smilie. teehee. Seriously, though, my biggest issue is just being tired all the time, you know? BUT...it's getting better, and it will continue to get better, right?

I think I said when I started this thread that my depression is really physical and so I'm really looking to the meds to help. Anybody been on anything that's particularly good for this kind of fatigue-y depression? The Provigil didn't seem to help.

Thanks, everybody, for helping me get out of this :crisis . It means alot!
Love, Eddie

[eddie z.]

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[angelgirl]

Hi, have you tried Wellbutrin? It keeps me going. Makes me shake a bit, but it gives me energy. Just thought I'd let you know what's helping me. Love Becky

[eddie z.]

Becky,
Thank you so much for the feedback! Unfortunately, I have been on Wellbutrin and it had its own set of problems although sleeping too much definitely WASN'T one of them. I took Inderal for the tremors and it took care of that. You might ask your doc about it. Thanks again.

Love, Eddie

[eddie z.]

I was discharged today! You all are going to help me stay on the right track, right? Thanks. Love, Eddie :scared1: