Still not right

[eddie z.]

I am just not right in the head, y'all. I've been trying to make changes to help my depression, but it is not lifting. I take medications which at this point may be causing some of my problems. I've started exercising again. I tan, which has helped in the past. And I'm trying to put myself back out there socially.

There are things I know I should change like my diet and smoking, but I can only take baby steps. Meanwhile, my house gets filthier by the minute, I'm unemployed again, and feeling unemployable, and...I know I'm whining, but I could use some more suggestions, I think. Or maybe I just need to be patient.

Thanks everybody!
Love, Eddie

[dotcom]

Ed,

Hugs and prayers coming your way! Baby steps is right. For me, I feel depressed today and it really sucks. So I am trying to stay in the moment and have faith that this too shall pass. I hate being sick! ARG!!! Just a thought, have you thought about some "light" volunteer work? Maybe just to get you back in "the groove" and it might give you more confidence.

Hugs and Prayers,

Dot :elephant

[eddie z.]

Thanks, dot! Funny you should mention volunteer work. My monitor for the professional recovery program I'm in just suggested that to me tonight also. There is a medical ministry here that has a pharmacy staffed by volunteers. If the board will let me, it'd be a great way for me to ease back into my career. Great suggestion. Thanks again!
Love, Eddie

[dotcom]

Ed,

Wow! That sounds like it would be just right for you! If not that, God will have something better in his plan for you! Hang in there, you will find something and you will rock on!

Hugs,

Dot :shades:

[2stop]

(((eddie)))) Thoughts and prayers coming your way. I know it is so hard at times. Hang in there, okay? I have been in a depression lately where I just don't think I will make it, that it won't get better..at all, ever. But history has shown me that things work out and hope comes alive again..it doesn't always last long..but it still comes..and we can build from that. Baby steps and time....I really hate time sometimes..it just drags on and on, then other times it just flies and I holler I don't have enough of it! Never happy..unless we are right in this moment. Things will smooth out for you and you will get your emotional equilibrium. Believe it first...then we can see it.I spend most of my time waiting to SEE it first so that then I can believe it..but am learning that believing it can be first leads me to seeing it in my life.
Let us know how that volunteer opportunity goes. Sounds great! I have also been wanting to get involved in some volunteer work. Every one of us could benefit from it I think.

*warm hugs*

[eddie z.]

Thanks, dot and Tammie!!
Yes, I think faith and patience are key here. I just needed to whine a little bit.
Love, Eddie

[dotcom]

((((((((((EddieZ)))))))))) Thanks for everything and glad you are feeling a bit better. Whining really does help!

Hugs and Prayers for you,

Dot

[woodtick]

Eddie,
Tell your husband you want a long body message and a bath with rose petals!


I've been feeling lousy myself lately. I hate it. I just can't seem to get anything done when I'm like this. My house is getting messy too. I always feel better when I clean my house. It lifts me up. I have laundry to do too. I'm glad I have a long weekend.

[Justme57]

Hi Eddie , i am sorry you are feeling down. Dots suggestion sounds like a great idea! I do hope the Board see their way clear to allow you to do that .

I have been down the last few days too, tho I think I was very over tired , only 1 day off, and shifts from hell, ect, I found for me , I just had to keep it in the day, and have faith. it was really faith that got me thru it, faith in God, and in my Programme, I am always amazed , that what they say is true , " it works if you work it " . All I could think of was my Sponsers favorite piece of advice, " do the next right thing"

I hear you about the house , when i am having a bad day, I just cant get motivatedto clean ect, then i get depressed cos it isn't done , i haven't found a solution to that one yet . I do make a list each nite , of things i want to accomplish the next day , ( no more than 3 ) , more Sponsorial advice ! lol , I stick it on my fridge , and physically tick off each thing as i complete it , it seems to work for me .

Thinking of you Eddie

BIG HUGX

Lee

[Anna]

Hi Eddie,

I definitely agree with the volunteering idea. I started doing some volunteer work a few years ago and it's the best thing I could have done. I set out trying to do something to help out a women's group and I've found that I've gained far more than I could ever give. I'll continue doing volunteer work of some kind for the rest of my life.

Love, Anna

[eddie z.]

Thanks, dot, Brent, Lee, and Anna!!
dot,
You're welcome. winkwink

Brent,
Sorry you're not feeling good. ADD sucks!!

Lee,
Making a to-do list is on my mental list of things to do. teehee. And I think the next right thing is for me to contact that pharmacy!

Anna,
I'm glad you reminded me of what I GET from volunteering. I've really enjoyed it in the past.

Thanks again, all!
Love, Eddie

[runningfree]

Don't ever apologize for whining... It is a healthy expression of feelings:tongue3:

[eddie z.]

Thanks, rf!! I guess maybe I do have feelings after all. teehee.
Love, Eddie

[eddie z.]

I like to dredge up an old thread every now and then and compare how I was doing with how I AM doing. Lookee y'all! I feel like a real recovery success story when I look at a post like this one started with! It did take patience, the right meds (finally!), and lots of love and support from people like YOU. Thank you all!
Love and hugs,
Eddie :back

[pedagogue]

That's Great!!

-pedagogue

[eddie z.]

Ain't it, though? Thanks, pedagogue!
—EZ

[hopealwayz]

Thanks for sharing your progress Eddie. I'm sufferering from depression and it feels like there is no end in sight, but you are living proof that healing does happen. I'm inspired today.

Excellent progress!

[eddie z.]

You're welcome, C! I'm just happy to be helpful.
Love and hugs,
Eddie