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2stop · 01-17-2004, 03:57 PM

I ate in Denny's, very hard, but worked through it, the male waiter was flirting with me, kinda made me feel good, as I don't feel pretty or beautiful in any way, inner or outer..LOL......shocked the hel outta myself as I flirted a little back!! Even left a nice tip!!!

Made it to see my dad in the mental health unit...that was hard, when those doors lock behind me it really panics me, but this hospital is more like a hotel setting and not a state hospital kinda thing. The smells and all still did bring back memories, I worked through it. The nurses had a problem getting the doors to open to let us out, and I panicked for a minute...and said quite loud"LET ME OUT!!!""" LOL....I am sure they thought I was somewhat nuts, but that's okay, I am a little crazy.

On the way home we stopped by an ice pond beside the National Guard Armory and some kids were ice skating, we pulled in and let the kids play on the ice a bit, they don't have skates, but had fun. My son can run across the entire pond with only sneakers and only fell a few times, didn't fall at all a few times. he brought all the girls around, his blue eyes are irresistable. We all had a good laugh, and it was nice, I admit I had chemical help to go out today but am lowering the dose gradually...I can't cold turkey like I did last May....It was too awful, sends chills down my spine just thinking about it.

Thanks for all your love and prayers, you guys are the graetest, and I couldn't do this without your support.

***Big Hugs To You All***:redrose

Lilya · 01-17-2004, 04:36 PM

Bravo, Tammie! Daccapo!

Good girl! You´ve taken huge steps already. You went out, did all these things and told us about it. This is great! The big crisis really helped yesterday. You didn´t let it beat you down, you actually used adversity. Chapeau! (I take my hat off)

I´m proud of you, ma belle!

:bow

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Use adversity

2stop · 01-17-2004, 04:40 PM

Awwww...thank you Lilya....you made me start to think, I really oughts be proud of myself, those WERE huge steps for me! Thank you for supporting and encouraging me, from the bottom of my heart.....THANK YOU!

Mamabear · 01-17-2004, 05:18 PM

WoooHoooo Tammie!!!
So proud of you.
Hey, we all feel that "lemme out" thing in the hospital! The smells get me too. I try to chew gum or have a lifesaver when I go. It distracts my sense of smell.
Denny's rocks

love,
Mamabear

Justme57 · 01-17-2004, 05:38 PM

Whoooo! tammie ! you did great !

So glad you had fun on the way home, you deserved it , overcoming so much !

HUGX
lee

Juls · 01-17-2004, 09:49 PM

Tammi,

That is wonderful that you got out to visit with your father, and spend time playing with the kids. Those feelings of anxiety will not hurt you, they are just feelings as I've said before. The more you do it, the easier it will get. Learning breathing techniques is very helpful for when anxiety or panic strikes. You start your controlled breathing and the concentration you need to do your breathwork takes your mind of the anxiety and panic.

Juls

Chy · 01-17-2004, 09:54 PM

:clap I'm so glad it was a good day for you! You've been long over do for a nice day out. I am so happy you took those baby steps!

Cecilia · 01-18-2004, 08:15 AM

Good for You. I hope this will be the first of many trips for you.

dotcom · 01-18-2004, 01:10 PM

you rock tamsters! your an inspiration to us all!

liveweyerd · 01-19-2004, 10:30 AM

MMMMMMM......sounds so delicious....like an appetizer for more

I can feel it in my head....the laughter of slip-sliding on the ice, the cold, crisp fresh air nipping the nose....the lightness of play, that floats burdens away....

It is good. Very good.

01-17-2004, 03:57 PM	#1 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	I got out today!!!! I ate in Denny's, very hard, but worked through it, the male waiter was flirting with me, kinda made me feel good, as I don't feel pretty or beautiful in any way, inner or outer..LOL......shocked the hel outta myself as I flirted a little back!! Even left a nice tip!!! Made it to see my dad in the mental health unit...that was hard, when those doors lock behind me it really panics me, but this hospital is more like a hotel setting and not a state hospital kinda thing. The smells and all still did bring back memories, I worked through it. The nurses had a problem getting the doors to open to let us out, and I panicked for a minute...and said quite loud"LET ME OUT!!!""" LOL....I am sure they thought I was somewhat nuts, but that's okay, I am a little crazy. On the way home we stopped by an ice pond beside the National Guard Armory and some kids were ice skating, we pulled in and let the kids play on the ice a bit, they don't have skates, but had fun. My son can run across the entire pond with only sneakers and only fell a few times, didn't fall at all a few times. he brought all the girls around, his blue eyes are irresistable. We all had a good laugh, and it was nice, I admit I had chemical help to go out today but am lowering the dose gradually...I can't cold turkey like I did last May....It was too awful, sends chills down my spine just thinking about it. Thanks for all your love and prayers, you guys are the graetest, and I couldn't do this without your support. *Big Hugs To You All*:redrose __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

01-17-2004, 04:40 PM	#3 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	Awwww...thank you Lilya....you made me start to think, I really oughts be proud of myself, those WERE huge steps for me! Thank you for supporting and encouraging me, from the bottom of my heart.....THANK YOU! __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

01-17-2004, 05:18 PM	#4 (permalink)
Mamabear Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: phila, pa Posts: 233	WoooHoooo Tammie!!! So proud of you. Hey, we all feel that "lemme out" thing in the hospital! The smells get me too. I try to chew gum or have a lifesaver when I go. It distracts my sense of smell. Denny's rocks love, Mamabear __________________ Mamabear

01-17-2004, 05:38 PM	#5 (permalink)
Justme57 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Melbourne victoria Posts: 1,980 Blog Entries: 7	Whoooo! tammie ! you did great ! So glad you had fun on the way home, you deserved it , overcoming so much ! HUGX lee __________________

01-17-2004, 09:49 PM	#6 (permalink)
Juls Member Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: California, USA Posts: 1,101	Tammi, That is wonderful that you got out to visit with your father, and spend time playing with the kids. Those feelings of anxiety will not hurt you, they are just feelings as I've said before. The more you do it, the easier it will get. Learning breathing techniques is very helpful for when anxiety or panic strikes. You start your controlled breathing and the concentration you need to do your breathwork takes your mind of the anxiety and panic. Juls __________________ Think World Peace

01-17-2004, 09:54 PM	#7 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,877	:clap I'm so glad it was a good day for you! You've been long over do for a nice day out. I am so happy you took those baby steps!

01-18-2004, 08:15 AM	#8 (permalink)
Cecilia Member Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 412	Good for You. I hope this will be the first of many trips for you.

01-18-2004, 01:10 PM	#9 (permalink)
dotcom Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: laughing at my avatar Posts: 1,644	you rock tamsters! your an inspiration to us all! __________________ probably not.

01-19-2004, 10:30 AM	#10 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Oklahoma Posts: 8,275 Blog Entries: 5	MMMMMMM......sounds so delicious....like an appetizer for more I can feel it in my head....the laughter of slip-sliding on the ice, the cold, crisp fresh air nipping the nose....the lightness of play, that floats burdens away.... It is good. Very good. __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

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