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2stop · 11-12-2003, 10:42 AM

Hey guys. Tell mw how you all get some energy going when you're depressed and sick..and just feeling crazy....OmG. I feel like I have been run through a coupla marathons. I have the flu, but I also think it could be withdrawal from the ultram....I missed two meetings from being so sick I just couldn't make it out the door. About passed out walking my kids to school..came home and watched tv all day, laid on the couch. I have decide I AM going to a meeting tonight even if it kills me...it's just this kind of tired makes me so agitated with myself and very depressed. I know somewhere in my heart it gets so much better than this..but yet I still have a humomgous fear that this is as good as it gets....thanks for letting me vent. Will let ya all know how my meeting goes tonight.
(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))

phoenix · 11-12-2003, 10:58 AM

Be kind to yourself.Treat yourself for the flu.But if the feeling persists or gets worse check in with your doctor.

Sending hugs,

phoenix

2stop · 11-12-2003, 11:04 AM

Thanks Phoenix. I think I think too much, anything and everything..constantly thinking....I need to DO more. And it's crazy but when i get the flu now it feels so similar to detoxing that it scares the crap right outta me..LOL...The day I quit thinking so much is the day I start living alot. I'll have tons of time and energy I am sure.

Hugs to you too Phoenix......

phoenix · 11-12-2003, 11:07 AM

Have you thought about getting the flu vaccine?

Might be a good idea.Also,make sure it is the flu you are dealing with.No point feeling miserable if you don't have to.

Hugs,

phoenix

2stop · 11-12-2003, 11:13 AM

I am paranoid of the flu vaccine, don't want it near me....LOL As if I know best huh? Seriously though, I do trust my instincts on some things. Like the saying goes just because you're paraniod doesn't mean no one is out to get ya. Hopefully this recovery business will help to dispel some of my irrational fears.

It's high time I get a complete check-up. Fear of docs or no I can't very accurately or wisely self-treat and diagnose myself anymore. God knows the damage I have already done....

Hope you are doing well today, Phoenix.

Juls · 11-12-2003, 03:31 PM

Yes Tammie,

Get it checked out. You will feel better knowing. The worst part for me is when I get sick I start thinking about all the things that could be wrong with me. Kind of like a hypochondriac, LOL

I'm also afraid of the flu vaccine. I did get it one year, and that was the year I got the flu. About a week after I got the vaccine. They said I must have already been exposed to it. Then I got pneumonia. Not fun.

I don't think you should be forcing yourself to do anything. I think you need to rest. When we are ill for whatever reason, we need to take care of ourselves by resting so our body can do it's work to get us well. Don't feel guilty about it, o.k.?

Juls

2stop · 11-12-2003, 03:37 PM

That is something I have alwasy struggled with..relaxing..and not feeling guilty about..LOL It's a womans curse I believe....I will work on the not feeling guilty part. Thanks Juls.

lurkings · 11-12-2003, 04:07 PM

" I know somewhere in my heart it gets so much better than this..but yet I still have a humomgous fear that this is as good as it gets...."

That is so ironic that you say that today! I am watching As Good As It Gets in one of my classes, I almost said that [hrase in one of my journals and today you say it.

One thing that I like to do is make a journal paeg. I have two types on journals, one I write things in and one that I make pictures in. It is time consuming and can be busy work. I use old magazines to make a picture of how I am feeling, what I like, something thoughtful, or just something. It always makes me feel better and when I am done on the back I write the date and try to give it a one word title but some times it is more... The file keeps coming up as too large so if you give me your e-mail I will e-mail it to you to show you what I mean. That goes for everyone who reads this post! lurkings@angelfire.com okay?

2stop · 11-12-2003, 04:48 PM

~Lurkings~ I sent you a message with my e-mail address.

2stop · 11-12-2003, 05:11 PM

oh my god I am losing my mind..I decided against a meeting tonight..just feel too sick and crazy in the head. I am yelling at my kids, I almost threw a plate across the room, I regret not calling for a ride to a meeting, but yet again the 2 ton phone wouldn't budge. I am well aware that just writing how I feel or identifying what I feel without actual concrete actions on my part will do nothing....I think I am cracking up....the thought I may need an antidepressant scares me to death..I am so averse to doctors right now I can't stand it..but yet I know full well if I don't DO something I may very well go insane! it seems right now I have no more motivation in me left. I have to find somemore strength within me......I just wonder if I really have any left. Pitiful yes I am pitiful tonight and ashamed and tired and angry and I would run away some where remote if I didn't have kids...kids that I love so much and that should never ever see there mother like this....I have so much admiration for those who have made it to the other side.....you are truly strong and brave.

2stop · 11-12-2003, 06:18 PM

Ok, I went and posted to mG about some things that were wearing on my heart..feel a bit more hopeful again. Thanks to anyone who reads some of my crap..I am just really feeling beaten down tonight. Thinkin too much is what it is....think I'll order up a lobotomy first thing in the morning!

leanna · 11-13-2003, 06:07 AM

im the exact same way...
im so exhausted....sick of everything,lethargic.
its this apsence of feeling that keeps me wondering how in the hell i ever even lived without drugs.
atleast drugs made me feel somehting, an urge, a jonze,a smile, what ever....anything but this...

its scary 2stop,if what u feel now is as good as it gets,dont be fooled, like u said, u know in your heart that life can always be brighter and better.for you it will....
you always help people,your kind and caring...these things pay off ...god wouldnt let you down by giving you just this...theres much more for you.justwait and see.
(actually he told me to tell you that)

2stop · 11-13-2003, 06:10 AM

~(((((leiana)))))~Thank you so much for the kind words my friend. I have faith for you too....we have to keep puting one foot in front of the other no matter how we feel..but boy do I know how hard that is!!! Yuck!!

(((((((((((((((((((((((Big Hugs))))))))))))))))))))

leanna · 11-13-2003, 06:29 AM

your veryyy welcome..

11-12-2003, 10:42 AM	#1 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	So very tired...... Hey guys. Tell mw how you all get some energy going when you're depressed and sick..and just feeling crazy....OmG. I feel like I have been run through a coupla marathons. I have the flu, but I also think it could be withdrawal from the ultram....I missed two meetings from being so sick I just couldn't make it out the door. About passed out walking my kids to school..came home and watched tv all day, laid on the couch. I have decide I AM going to a meeting tonight even if it kills me...it's just this kind of tired makes me so agitated with myself and very depressed. I know somewhere in my heart it gets so much better than this..but yet I still have a humomgous fear that this is as good as it gets....thanks for letting me vent. Will let ya all know how my meeting goes tonight. (((((((((((hugs))))))))))) __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-12-2003, 11:04 AM	#3 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	Thanks Phoenix. I think I think too much, anything and everything..constantly thinking....I need to DO more. And it's crazy but when i get the flu now it feels so similar to detoxing that it scares the crap right outta me..LOL...The day I quit thinking so much is the day I start living alot. I'll have tons of time and energy I am sure. Hugs to you too Phoenix...... __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-12-2003, 11:13 AM	#5 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	I am paranoid of the flu vaccine, don't want it near me....LOL As if I know best huh? Seriously though, I do trust my instincts on some things. Like the saying goes just because you're paraniod doesn't mean no one is out to get ya. Hopefully this recovery business will help to dispel some of my irrational fears. It's high time I get a complete check-up. Fear of docs or no I can't very accurately or wisely self-treat and diagnose myself anymore. God knows the damage I have already done.... Hope you are doing well today, Phoenix. __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-12-2003, 03:31 PM	#6 (permalink)
Juls Member Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: California, USA Posts: 1,101	Yes Tammie, Get it checked out. You will feel better knowing. The worst part for me is when I get sick I start thinking about all the things that could be wrong with me. Kind of like a hypochondriac, LOL I'm also afraid of the flu vaccine. I did get it one year, and that was the year I got the flu. About a week after I got the vaccine. They said I must have already been exposed to it. Then I got pneumonia. Not fun. I don't think you should be forcing yourself to do anything. I think you need to rest. When we are ill for whatever reason, we need to take care of ourselves by resting so our body can do it's work to get us well. Don't feel guilty about it, o.k.? Juls __________________ Think World Peace

11-12-2003, 03:37 PM	#7 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	That is something I have alwasy struggled with..relaxing..and not feeling guilty about..LOL It's a womans curse I believe....I will work on the not feeling guilty part. Thanks Juls. __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-12-2003, 10:58 AM	#2 (permalink)
phoenix Paused Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Dreaming Summer Posts: 807	Be kind to yourself.Treat yourself for the flu.But if the feeling persists or gets worse check in with your doctor. Sending hugs, phoenix

11-12-2003, 11:07 AM	#4 (permalink)
phoenix Paused Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Dreaming Summer Posts: 807	Have you thought about getting the flu vaccine? Might be a good idea.Also,make sure it is the flu you are dealing with.No point feeling miserable if you don't have to. Hugs, phoenix

11-12-2003, 04:07 PM	#8 (permalink)
lurkings I am sure I didn't do it! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Somewhere, Florida Posts: 218	" I know somewhere in my heart it gets so much better than this..but yet I still have a humomgous fear that this is as good as it gets...." That is so ironic that you say that today! I am watching As Good As It Gets in one of my classes, I almost said that [hrase in one of my journals and today you say it. One thing that I like to do is make a journal paeg. I have two types on journals, one I write things in and one that I make pictures in. It is time consuming and can be busy work. I use old magazines to make a picture of how I am feeling, what I like, something thoughtful, or just something. It always makes me feel better and when I am done on the back I write the date and try to give it a one word title but some times it is more... The file keeps coming up as too large so if you give me your e-mail I will e-mail it to you to show you what I mean. That goes for everyone who reads this post! lurkings@angelfire.com okay?

11-12-2003, 04:48 PM	#9 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	~Lurkings~ I sent you a message with my e-mail address. __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-12-2003, 05:11 PM	#10 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	I think I am cracking up..... oh my god I am losing my mind..I decided against a meeting tonight..just feel too sick and crazy in the head. I am yelling at my kids, I almost threw a plate across the room, I regret not calling for a ride to a meeting, but yet again the 2 ton phone wouldn't budge. I am well aware that just writing how I feel or identifying what I feel without actual concrete actions on my part will do nothing....I think I am cracking up....the thought I may need an antidepressant scares me to death..I am so averse to doctors right now I can't stand it..but yet I know full well if I don't DO something I may very well go insane! it seems right now I have no more motivation in me left. I have to find somemore strength within me......I just wonder if I really have any left. Pitiful yes I am pitiful tonight and ashamed and tired and angry and I would run away some where remote if I didn't have kids...kids that I love so much and that should never ever see there mother like this....I have so much admiration for those who have made it to the other side.....you are truly strong and brave. __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-12-2003, 06:18 PM	#11 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	Ok, I went and posted to mG about some things that were wearing on my heart..feel a bit more hopeful again. Thanks to anyone who reads some of my crap..I am just really feeling beaten down tonight. Thinkin too much is what it is....think I'll order up a lobotomy first thing in the morning! __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-13-2003, 06:07 AM	#12 (permalink)
leanna Paused Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: miami fl. Posts: 33	i feel you im the exact same way... im so exhausted....sick of everything,lethargic. its this apsence of feeling that keeps me wondering how in the hell i ever even lived without drugs. atleast drugs made me feel somehting, an urge, a jonze,a smile, what ever....anything but this... its scary 2stop,if what u feel now is as good as it gets,dont be fooled, like u said, u know in your heart that life can always be brighter and better.for you it will.... you always help people,your kind and caring...these things pay off ...god wouldnt let you down by giving you just this...theres much more for you.justwait and see. (actually he told me to tell you that)

11-13-2003, 06:10 AM	#13 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	~(((((leiana)))))~Thank you so much for the kind words my friend. I have faith for you too....we have to keep puting one foot in front of the other no matter how we feel..but boy do I know how hard that is!!! Yuck!! (((((((((((((((((((((((Big Hugs)))))))))))))))))))) __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-13-2003, 06:29 AM	#14 (permalink)
leanna Paused Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: miami fl. Posts: 33	your veryyy welcome..

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