Fractured (1000 Words)

[GotItFirstTime]

Orders, Disorders and the Event of Fracture

No life can ever be deemed as "fair". Life is what happens to us each day we are alive. That life can seem hostile or that life can seem peaceful but little in life ever equates to "fair". The old phrase, " life is what happens while your making other plans" is a idea of what i am presenting. Expectations seem to keep us in a dream state of sorts while everything else goes on around us. As we find acceptance of life, as we realize God is not after us, we see the peace of heaven settle in around us no matter what our circumstances. If indeed addiction is a "craving" then what is it we crave and where did it come from?

The psychological ‘high’ experienced from certain activities may cause the person to crave the feeling again, emotions such as those felt when making a new purchase, winning a bet, or sleeping with a stranger or someone new can excite the senses and trigger a yearning.
Is there not an emptiness inside of caused by a wound or fracture. Was there not a separation that cased us to crave more love, more sex, more food then is humanly health. I know there was for me. Having no father, having a mother who was missing most of the time, there was a huge void deep inside that I tried to fill with everything from food, to masturbation, all of which left a giant pit of shame to transcend each time my self-esteem faltered.

Elizabeth Moberly is a British research psychologist : She believes that a temperamental predisposition contributes, but that the primary cause of male homosexuality is the failure of boys to bond with their fathers. Moberly opposes this idea to the "domineering mother" idea in Freudian psychoanalysis. Moberly believes that ALL homosexuality is a reparative drive, an attempt to repair a lack of affection from persons of the same sex.

* There really is no single cause for any disorder. Most kids who develop anorexia do so between the ages of 11 & 14 (although it can start early) Sexual experimentation the same age*

My own eating disorder started at the age pf 8 or 9 while my drinking and masturbation did begin at the exact time mentioned by the experts - 11-14. It was a fracture, a void I sought to fill with anything and everything I could. it was a hole, a God shaped hole but I had no one there to explain God to me. Oh they introduced me to religion and the bible but none introduced me to Christ.

In some families, the mother is extremely concerned about her daughter's weight, and that concern can lead to the child becoming over concerned as well, which then can lead to an eating disorder. Also in families, sometimes the father or brothers make comments or suggestions having to do with the daughter's weight, which can then make her want to look as thin as she can so that the rest of her family is satisfied.

The environment in which we grow up and are exposed to may be answerable for some addictions; continuous exposure to alcohol and heavy drinkers, might be experienced through living above a pub and may permit this addiction to seem easily accessible and exempt of blame or title.


The chemistry of the brain is accountable for many addictions as the receptors in the brain can cause the individuals to crave a substance such as heroine, and gaining control over these cravings can be a very difficult struggle. Personality can take a part in addiction as many people simply have the type of personality that becomes addicted to something.


The person tries to escape some physical or emotional pain by taking drugs. This could be a physical or emotional pain, or the discomfort of boredom, peer pressure, lack of social skills. The person finds that the drugs offer temporary relief, so continues to abuse them.

A Fracture must heal by exposure. It cannot be healed in the dark! We are as sick as our secrets!

" A Fractured Mind " starts off horribly, meanders into excruciating boredom, before turning out to be a surprisingly decent book. It’s the story of a very successful business man who was slowly destroying his life through drinking and bulimia. One day in therapy, the stereotypical angry alter comes out, shocking the therapist and leading us into the MPD diagnosis. Anonymous

Mental illness is highly misunderstood and difficult to admit. While it is as debilitating as any serious physical illness, embarrassment and denial make it a closet epidemic. While no one has a problem admitting that he has a broken leg, admitting that part of one’s brain or emotional abilities is broken is much harder. The uncomfortable silence that surrounds diseases of the mind leave those who suffer (and those who suffer with them) with few resources A Fractured Mind The Pain of Mental Illness By Anonymous

Multiple personality disorders (MPD) have come in for a lot of bad press over the years. Some in the medical community don't believe they exist at all, many believe they are over-diagnosed, and some baulk at the suggestion that they are caused by the need to suppress memories of significant childhood trauma, - Book Browse

Although medical and mental experts do not want me to claim this, I claim that all mental disorders, all personality disorders and most addictive disorders stem from the same fracture. It is a common cause early in childhood and may be mild or something a harsh as incest, we just never really know. Like cutting, choking and other self - mutilation events, eating disorders, addictive disorders and sexual disorders are all a part of CONTROL. The person is question feel or sense a lose of control and thus try any means possible to regain that control only to their own demise.