Sometimes...

[dolce7dolore]

I'm an Adult Child of Alcoholic Parents. I don't consider myself depressed (my brother on the other hand definitely is..), but sometimes I just get so sad, so down on everything. Like today for instance. It's been a pretty good day--I had fun with some co-workers, I got some up-lifting random complements, things just went well. Yet, at the end of the day, I find myself longing to be in my room alone. Now I'm feeling this ache that just won't go away, you know? It just sucks. Most of the time I just feel so empty inside. My brother always half jokes about being "dead inside." Well, I guess I'm empty inside. I usually ignore and sort of wait until times like this where I can just vent to myself. I don't even know why I'm rambling on at the moment.

[yukonm]

[namommy]

First, I would suggest you get an appointment to see a professional to get a proper diagnosis. Tell them exactly what you posted here.

To me, it sounds like you might have some level of depression. The isolation, the empty feeling inside, that "ache". All sounds too familiar to me, and I know I have depression. I was just like you when I was working, at work I could function, laugh and have fun with co-workers, and as soon as I got home, bam all of the above would kick in.

I hope you find out what is wrong and get some help for it.

Laurie

[Bamboozle]

Sounds familiar to me, too.

Being able to laugh and joke around and have fun, I've learned, doesn't mean that you can't be depressed.

Please get a diagnosis.

[Astro]

Originally Posted by dolce7dolore

I don't consider myself depressed (my brother on the other hand definitely is..), but sometimes I just get so sad, so down on everything. Like today for instance. It's been a pretty good day--I had fun with some co-workers, I got some up-lifting random complements, things just went well. Yet, at the end of the day, I find myself longing to be in my room alone. Now I'm feeling this ache that just won't go away, you know? It just sucks. Most of the time I just feel so empty inside.

I never considered depression to be an issue for me, but I could certainly see it in my father and older brother. Sobering up opened my eyes to my own depression issues though.

As soon as I moved away from my kids and ex I felt swallowed up by darkness, loneliness, and sadness. My days went like this......

* Wake up, force myself to shower, shave, brush teeth, and look half-way human. Then sit on the sofa and stare blankly out my apartment window until it was time to take my kids to school.

* Go to work. Yay! Even though I didn't feel great my coworkers would cheer me up with jokes and conversation.

* Maybe go to an AA meeting. That would lift my spirits but I'd leave quickly after the meeting so I wouldn't have to talk to anyone.

* Back to the apartment. Lie in bed, watch the ceiling fan spin, sink into depression and sad thoughts. My life sucked.

What helped me was to see a wellness professional for therapy, he got me on a med (SSRI) and helped me think about what things really made me happy, then I focused on doing those things as much as possible. AA meetings, walks, bike rides, sunshine, I dove into those activities and still keep at it, 4 years later.

Please seek some professional help, it can make a world of difference.