What to do...

[Bamboozle]

Okay...

(*sigh*...)


Good news today at work...they want to promote me to shift manager.

Wonderful, right? What the crap am I complaining about?


...Well, besides the fact that I hate my job (I think I've mostly gotten over that one...).....


This is a wonderful opportunity for me to accumulate resume fodder...get a boost in my pay...have full-time status...and I won't have to wear a ball cap anymore (I flip burgers for a living).

Here are some problems:

I'd have to have a completely open schedule...and that means anytime from 6AM to 2AM. Blech. But I think I can deal with that.



It would be more difficult for me to go out and take photographs, especially pictures of Great Blue Herons. Chances are fairly good that several of my shifts would be smack in the middle of the best times to take pictures.

I'm really enjoying taking pictures and would like to eventually transition from "hobby" to "serious". I know this will take a while to do, but I don't want to get off-track before I've really had a chance to go somewhere with my photographs. I'm not sure I'm willing to sacrifice this time. I must make time for my art...it is very important to me.

And the real biggie problem...

My mood swings. They are uncontrollable. I don't know how well I'll be able to handle myself.

Look, the job is easy. That's not the problem. The problem is my state of mind.

I scheduled an extra session this Wednesday with my therapist. I called today and was lucky to get a spot in the morning. I'm going to talk with her about this.

Honestly, I'm leaning towards taking the position. I really need the money. This is a good opportunity for me...even though the timing is a little bad. Maybe I should grin and bear it...I do need to move on at some point in my life. I've only ever worked entry-level jobs...I could have "moved up" a couple of times before...but I refused. Perhaps it's time to give it a try. If I screw it up...so what? I can always get another crappy job, right? *sigh*


But what about art?

[otterbearcat]

The short answer (advice) is take the job!

Although I would be having the same predicament if I were you.

Try to find a way to incorporate the photography into your new schedule.

Because the thing is, if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Maybe this will put some good stuff on your resume, and then you can get a different job that you dont hate...

[RockyGirl]

Originally Posted by Bamboozle

Okay...

(*sigh*...)


Good news today at work...they want to promote me to shift manager.

Wonderful, right? What the crap am I complaining about?


...Well, besides the fact that I hate my job (I think I've mostly gotten over that one...).....


This is a wonderful opportunity for me to accumulate resume fodder...get a boost in my pay...have full-time status...and I won't have to wear a ball cap anymore (I flip burgers for a living).

Here are some problems:

I'd have to have a completely open schedule...and that means anytime from 6AM to 2AM. Blech. But I think I can deal with that.



It would be more difficult for me to go out and take photographs, especially pictures of Great Blue Herons. Chances are fairly good that several of my shifts would be smack in the middle of the best times to take pictures.

I'm really enjoying taking pictures and would like to eventually transition from "hobby" to "serious". I know this will take a while to do, but I don't want to get off-track before I've really had a chance to go somewhere with my photographs. I'm not sure I'm willing to sacrifice this time. I must make time for my art...it is very important to me.

And the real biggie problem...

My mood swings. They are uncontrollable. I don't know how well I'll be able to handle myself.

Look, the job is easy. That's not the problem. The problem is my state of mind.

I scheduled an extra session this Wednesday with my therapist. I called today and was lucky to get a spot in the morning. I'm going to talk with her about this.

Honestly, I'm leaning towards taking the position. I really need the money. This is a good opportunity for me...even though the timing is a little bad. Maybe I should grin and bear it...I do need to move on at some point in my life. I've only ever worked entry-level jobs...I could have "moved up" a couple of times before...but I refused. Perhaps it's time to give it a try. If I screw it up...so what? I can always get another crappy job, right? *sigh*


But what about art?

Hi Bam!

Congrats on your new offered position!

to be honest it is completely up to you what you do and if you think you can handle it you should go for it....

but definitely keep space open for your interest and hobby which is very important to you and you love doing it...we all need things we love to do!

I'm no expert at anything but like you said...if you screw up (i'm sure you won't) you can always get another job!

Good luck on Wednesday and let us know how it goes

[deerwalk]

I hear you Bam! You are so right, state of mind and art are important. I too have worked a series of crappy jobs and sacrificed time for art making... One thing I did to cope with moodiness was really try to find time in my day to relax- like at lunch I would go lay in the park and just get away from the noise. Finding quiet time in the day was one of the small things I could do for myself, as far as mood. The other was walking part of the way to work, or biking. Biking isn't always an option but even playing a little music in the morning that you like can help set a tone for a bit of the day. Your needs are pretty specific as to time of day to take pictures- I'm sorry I don't have any advice but the seemingly cliche- follow your heart.

[Astro]

Bamb, congrats on your promotion!

I don't have a lot to offer, it just seems to me that if something is truly important, I'll find some time to dedicate myself to it.

For years it's been recovery, no matter what I've found time to make it to meetings every day. But I was dragging my kids into it too, so recently I've put the daily meetings aside and committed myself to spending time with them. It feels good to focus on being a father.

I even found time to get out under the stars with a telescope over the weekend, that's my true passion. It gave me the itch to stargaze regularly again, so I might have to squeeze that into my schedule too.

There's no hurry, plenty of time for me to do so many things in the years ahead, assuming I'm clean and sober to enjoy them